Chapter 5

The next morning

Sam awoke to find herself laying in bed alone as the sunlight shone in through a crack in her bedroom curtains. At first she thought that she had dreamt the events of the night before but when her vision was focused enough to take in her surroundings, she knew different.

Draped across the edge of her king sized bed was the man's trademark leather jacket along with his jeans. Her heart skipped a beat at the sight. Seeing this she instantly knew that the man hadn't taken their child and set out for parts unknown and for that she was grateful. Then on the other hand the woman was nervous, anxious and scared about the confrontation that was going to be had between her and her former lover. Sam knew that the man would be angry but she wasn't quite sure what to expect from him. After all Jason Morgan was a very emotionally withdrawn man sometimes but when he did express emotion it would always have one hell of an impact and would be felt for days or even weeks to come.

Putting all of these thoughts in the back of her mind the woman cautiously made her way towards her daughter's bedroom where she knew the man would be waiting for her. But at the last second she could hear her daughter's delighted squeals coming from the sitting room. Taking a deep breath and willing her legs to move the woman finally made her way in to face him.

When she first entered the room Sam thought that she would immediately hear his voice filled with harsh warnings, guilty accusations and all the "you should haves" a girl could stand but instead she didn't receive a response at all. No glances, no words, nothing. The man didn't even acknowledge her presence. What the hell, the woman thought as she moved closer to the love seat where the father and daughter pair appeared to be bonding and sat in a near by armchair.

Sam sat for quite some time trying to figure out a good way to start their conversation but every time the words came to her and their eyes met, she would abruptly look away, losing her nerve thereby postponing the inevitable. But this particular stare fest the two locked eyes as Sam was forced to wonder just what the man was thinking. If she knew what he was thinking and what he wanted to know then she would be aware of what to say and what not to say.

Well she would just have to say what was in her heart and hope for the best.

After the woman had passed out the night before the man immediately rushed to her side after carefully placing their daughter her crib. Once he had checked her over and realized that he had just blacked out he knew there were only two options. The first one being that he would wake the woman up and confronting her right then and there, secondly he could lay her down and let her rest up and give himself some time to let everything sink in. So deciding that he would much rather spend the night with his little girl rather than arguing with her mother, he went with the second choice.

But now she was sitting close to him and probably wanting to talk and clear the air. Was he ready for this? Sure he wanted answers and a chance to express his feelings and let the woman know where he stood as far as their daughter and relationship went but he couldn't do it. Not right now and not in front of their daughter. It wasn't that he planned on brutally laying into the woman or anything like that. It was just that he wasn't ready to be separated from his little girl again after just finding her, even if she was just going to be a few feet away.

"Jason" Sam's voice called out to him, interrupting his thoughts.

The man wasn't sure how to respond so he chose to look up at her instead.

"Ah, the silent treatment" she spoke softly once again avoiding his gaze. "That's ok I deserve it, but listen to me. I did what I did to protect you from yet another heart break. I know to you that, that may seem like a crappy excuse but I swear to you Jason if I thought for one second that this Jayden was going to be alright and the pregnancy was going to end the way it did, then I would have told you. I would have stayed but I, I don't know. I just got scared and the thought of seeing you suffer again was too much for me" the woman said as tears filled her eyes. She didn't mean for it to happen, it was just that the whole situation was starting to take its toll on her.

Jason could see the amount of pain she was in and felt sorry for her. He could tell that she truly believed that what had done was for his protection. Could he really hold a grudge against the woman he loved her for trying to shield his heart? Then again she had kept his child from him when she had ample opportunity to tell him the truth from the second that his daughter took in her first breath, she had chosen not to.

"I know you meant well Sam, I really do, but…" the man trialed off trying to find just the right words. "Damn it you could have told me. You could have called me or came back to Port Charles even once the baby was born and let me know that I had a child. My God were you ever going to tell me about her? Huh?" he continued raising his voice slightly.

"I wanted to" the woman said through heavier sobbing. "I did. It was just that I didn't know how you would react to seeing me after so long let alone finding out that I hid a pregnancy from you" she said now looking him in the eyes. "I was scared Jas. I was so scared" the woman finished before getting to her feet and leaving the room.

She had to get away and think. Rushing into the bathroom and turning on the shower. Sam quickly disrobed and allowed the hot water to hit her body, hoping that it would was away the pain, fear and confusion. Had she done the wrong thing by Jason? Would it have been better to tell him the truth from the start? Her head began to throb as she asked her self these questions over and over again until the water ran cold. Steadying her self as she started to become light headed and dizzy, Sam shut off the water and grabbed a towel as she stepped out of the shower. Sighing heavily as she opened the door and walked into her bedroom.

When she entered the room she froze and every muscle in her body tensed up once she noticed that was not alone. There sitting on her bed was the love or her life. He moved his eyes to gaze into hers as he slowly lifted himself from the bed and walked towards the woman.

The whole time the woman's head told her to run, to get away as quickly as she could but her heart wouldn't allow her to do it. She was too fixated on the man coming towards her, the man that had been her world for quite some time now and now that he was there with her once again, she couldn't walk away. No, not this time, she would stay right there in that very spot and take whatever it was that was coming to her.