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*~= 'Finding Myself In Your Eyes' =~*
by : K a m I n a r I - c h a n
Chapter 3: The Perfectionist



















"Huh?!" Sakura yelp one sunny Saturday while holding a small green book in her hand, "I never thought I spend this much money." She added, still not believing the HK$1500.75 that was written in bold black ink. Putting down the bankbook, she took a seat on her study table and started to scribble her expenses for the whole month. Hmm… it seems like I've spend too much money on food. But where did the rest of my money goes? Tapping the pencil unconsciously while scanning the table for some clue. Oh I remember! I've just given Li-san my part in paying this condo. Man, that guy's sure rich for he can afford paying this condo after Eriol left.


"Hey, Nakamura-kun! Are you in there?" the guy outside Sakura's room yelled in a hurried manner.


Sakura walked briskly towards the door only to find that she's still in her pajamas, moreover, she's neither wearing any brassier nor any bandage to wrap the bulge in her chest. "Gah! Matte Li-san!" Grabbing and placing in her shoulder the closest thing to her, which was her pink bath towel.


Syaoran sweat-dropped as he heard some clashing sounds inside the room, what's happening in there? He thought, leaning to the door of his room that's actually adjacent to Sakura's. He exhaled noisily as he composed his self, Seems like he haven't heard me at all… placing his left hand on the pocket of his jeans while he started to lift the other. "Are you there?" he asked again as he decided to Tap---Creeeaaak---BOOG!


"---ITAIIII!!! What was that for?!"


"A-Ah! Du bu qi, Nakamura-san! I-I didn't mean to---"


"---It's okay! You don't have to apologize." Sakura coldly replied while rubbing her sore nose, "…So, what're you going to say to me?"


Syaoran grinned at the remark of his housemate, "As I've told you, you're attitude won't scare me."


"Just spill!"


"Okay, okay!" the young wolf surrendered, raising his hands in defeat. "You don't have to be angry! Are you having your PMS?! By the way, nice towel!"





BLAG! And the door was closed.





"Hey, I---Haha! ---Didn't m-mean t-to p-piss you! Hahaha!" He reasoned between his laughs while rubbing his abdomen. For him, this was really his first time to laugh so hard that he started to have stomachache. This guy's really has full of surprises! If I didn't know better, I would have mistaken him as a girl. He further commented, wiping his eyes for the tears that were beginning to flow.


He had admitted in his self this past few days that he was not the guy he used to be. Even his teammates recognized the changes. At first he didn't even believe them for he still see his self as the cold-hearted and the loner beast. But as time passes by, he realized that living with Nakamura-san for a month really did change his views.


Even though they didn't talk so much---Nakamura and him---he still feels at ease and feels relaxed with the guy. It's as if there's something in Nakamura Shun that makes him giddy-gaddy and be his self for once. He doesn't even know why he's always teasing the small guy at all! But he must say that, he has never been this happy and true to his self. Furthermore, he feels that he can live his life just by looking at the different expressions of the auburn-haired guy. Wait! W-What am I d-doing? He asked to nobody while looking straight at the brown door before him. "Hey, open up!" he knocked whilst stuffing his dilemma at the back of his mind, "… I just want to ask you if you're going to train today."


Stupid bastard! The emerald-eyed lady snapped as she opens the door, "I don't think so."


"Hey! Just because you got the winning goal at yesterday's game, that doesn't mean that you shouldn't attend the trainings anymore!"


"I didn't say that." Sakura calmly replied while holding the doorknob, "…It's just that I have something more important than giving you a piggyback ride…Like starting to find a new job." She retort, though the last sentence was in a whispered manner. "And oh, true man wears pink! "





BLAG! And the door was closed…again.





"At last!" Sakura thankfully sigh and then placed her ears near the door. For a while, she didn't hear anything but after a minute or two there were sounds of fading footsteps followed by the banging of the door, "The nerve of him to get mad! He was the one who started it in the first place!" she reacted, opening the door and walked quickly towards the bathroom. Huh?! What's this? Stopping in her tracks as she reads the large bold letters in the newspaper that's lying at the dining table, hmmm… job hunting section…Wait! How come… furrowing her eyebrows, domo arigatou Li-kun…






***






It's no use! All the vacant jobs here are for women…talk about girl power… Sakura sways her head dismally as she walks toward the Hollywood road, "Yee Hing Loong Fine Furniture and Chinese Arts. Hmmm…. This sounds interesting." She supposed, looking as she passed the lion statues that's guarding the big antique shop.


"Welcome!" a cheerful voice said, as the chestnut-haired lady started to open the glass door for Sakura. "I see, you love antiques. So why not come inside so you can have a tour of the store." She didn't understand what she was doing; yet somehow, as she saw the young guy looked at the lions outside, she started to have a funny feeling in her chest. He somewhat looks…I don't know…


"Oh, no, no. Thanks for the offer but I really need to get going, besides, I don't have any money to buy those lovely objects the you put up on sale." Sakura reasoned out while walking away from the young lady.


"Wait!" Amber eyes started to stare at the emerald ones, "I know that I'm a stranger to you, but…it's snack time and I didn't even eat any lunch earlier, moreover, I don't have anyone to accompany me, so… care to join?"


Man, do people in Hong Kong this friendly? "I-I t-think so."


"Kawaii!" the woman in early twenties squealed causing Sakura to wince. "Ah, du bu qi, du bu qi." Bowing its head in the process, "…so shall we?"


"Un." The young co-cap nodded as they both walk their way towards Mc Donalds. Once they got inside, the woman stops in front of her as it shows its pearly white teeth on her.


"Um… since I'm the one who invited you, you should just go over there…" pointing the vacant table on the far corner of the restaurant, "… and I'm going there." Averting her hand towards the counter.


Sakura's eyes widened, "Oh, no. It's okay, don't treat me." Adjusting her eyeglasses at the same time, "… besides, I can't let a woman pay something, it's very ungentlemanly." She grinned, mimicking Touya's line every time they go to a restaurant with Kaho. Yeah, together with Kaho... Remembering the red-haired lady she adored most.


"Something wrong?" the lady in front of Sakura questioned worriedly while looking intently at her emerald eyes through the fake glasses.


"Un, nothing, I just remember someone."


The woman smiled, placing her right hand on Sakura's cheek, "You really resembles my brother."


"Eh?!"


Swaying her head, "Let's just talk about Xiao Lang later." Motioning Sakura onto the table.


"Xiao Lang? As in Li Syaoran?"


"Yeah, do you happen to know him?" receiving a nod from Sakura, "Oh my, how rude of me. I've been talking to you and I don't even know your name."


"It's Nakamura Shun."


"Ah, Wo shi Li Fanren." Offering her hand to Sakura, "… let's just talk about it later, I'll just get our orders---Don't even try to get up on that seat or you'll regret It." Winking cutely while walking to the counter.


Is she really Li-san's sister? Burrowing her eyebrows as she looked at the cheerful lady. After sometime, she turn her gaze away from the chestnut-haired lady and try to scrutinize the busy street outside since the table she's been seating on was near the glass wall. I've been living here for a month but it seems like I've just arrived here. Observing the people that are walking briskly and somehow looking at their watches. But this is really my first time walking the streets of Hong Kong.


Still taking pleasure in peeking occupied people, she can't evade from thinking about the bad luck she has gotten in job hunting, I still need to find some part-time or I won't be able to pay the bills. Taking out the folded piece of newspaper in her pocket, as she start to put some 'X' on all the sites she has asked for a vacant job. Then, she stops marking the paper as she saw a very interesting one. Hmmm… I think I should take the risk.


"Sorry if I took so long."


"It's okay." Sakura replied standing suddenly while putting back the pen and the paper in her pocket and helping Fanren that's busily placing the foods at the table.


"That's so kind of you."


"Not really…" giving out her rare smile to the Chinese lady as they both start to eat.


"You're even cuter when you smiles." Causing Sakura to cough up her soda, "Oh, I'm sorry, did I embarrass you?"


"Don't mind me." Wiping her mouth with tissue. God! Is she flirting with me?






***






Can somebody tell me why am I here again? As emerald eyes scan the large building in front of her. She still can't believe that she's standing inside the largest and tallest skyscraper in Hong Kong.


When Fanren told her that they're going to Mrs. Li, she almost throws up in surprise. But after the lady confirmed to her that she wasn't interested in her and that she just wants her to see their mom and asks some questions about Syaoran, she began to ease up.


"Going soon Mr. Li? It's only five."


"Sh. It's getting dark already and I need to still do something at the condo."


The serious regard made Sakura immediately turn her head towards the fading speaker, Li-san… what is he doing here? Gawking at the handsome feature of her housemate as the young wolf walked briskly en route for the automatic door. He sure looks good on his business suit.


"---ready?"


"Huh?!" Sakura confusedly said as she become dotted-eyed.


"I asked you if you're ready…" Fanren said as she followed the gaze of the auburn-haired guy, dimming her almond eyes, "Seems someone has catch your attention."


"Eh?!"


"Oh, don't mind me…" waving her hands in the process, "…Ma-Ma's waiting for you at her office. So let's go?"


"Sh." Glancing for the last time to the spot where Syaoran had been, then following the Chinese lady to the elevator.


"You're a silent type of guy, hm?"


"Huh?! A-A yeah. For me, it's best if you should just shut up if you don't have anything intelligent to say." Avoiding the amber eyes of her company, "… I prefer observing things in silence."


Acquiesce in response, "Hmm, just like Syaoran… So, What can you say about mother's office?"


Widening her eyes in shock, "This building is yours? Y-You mean, you're the owner of this large company?"


"Not really... You see, I'm more into antiques so I decided to make a living out of it." Waving her index finger simultaneously, "…This is my mother's company, actually, it has hundred of branches worldwide, but this branch in Hong Kong serves as the headquarters for Li Ltd., a multinational corporation with interests in many industries."


"Sugoi! Now I know why this has distinctive round windows, this building is like a trading ship, ne?"


"Un." Beaming broadly for she knew that this guy is just hiding itself from the outside world. He's really like little didi. "… Essentially, this building is like any edifice here in Hong Kong, but little brother made some adjustments---like he designed it to resemble the portholes of a ship---after mother officially gave this company to him. He really loves beautiful things." seeing a more surprised face of the young man, "You didn't know? …Well, that's Syaoran. He always wants to be in low profile. He never did change---"





---Ding!





"Oh, here we are…" Fanren acknowledged, giving rise to Sakura's uneasiness. "Good day Ma-Ma."


"Oh, there you are my dear." Yelan elegantly said, turning away her head to the full glass window that she's been gazing since her son had left the room. Looking over at the petite guy beside her daughter, "… So, you might be Nakamura-san which Fanren told me earlier at the phone."


"Sh. I'm Nakamura Shun from Japan. I'm studying here in Hong Kong to finish my course and is currently sharing the condo with your son." Bowing her head in respect, now I know where Syaoran got his looks… she's such a beautiful woman.


"I hope you like your stay here… let's seat over there." Motioning her daughter and Sakura towards the leather couch in the room.


"Um, I must go now Ma-Ma. I just accompany Nakamura-san to get here because I know you want some real news about what's happening to didi." Pacing her way near the elevator.


"Okay, please take care of yourself. We'll just see each other at dinner."


"Yes. Goodbye Ma-Ma and you too, Nakamura-san."


"E-Ah..." Sakura didn't know what to say, why leave me here? Is this some kind of business interrogation? I didn't even know anything about Li-kun.


Yelan smiled as she saw the nervous expression of the guy, "Oh, I'm sorry if my daughter brought you here… but I really want to know more about Syaoran."


What is she talking about? Isn't she Li-kun's mother? So she should know everything about Li-kun. Sakura's anxiety turns into pure confusion. She didn't know why this woman asks her about her son, Heck! Even though he's her housemate, he doesn't know anything about University's football captain. All she knows is that the guy's favorite hobby is to irritate her. "B-But I just saw Li-kun earlier."


"But of course, he owns this company anyways… we're just waiting for him to graduate so he can fully attend the services the company needs. Besides, I'm old and I don't think I can still handle the problems this corporation encounters every now and then." Offering milk tea to the young guy with spectacles, "… is Syaoran doing well in school? How was he? I know you're wondering why am I asking this to you… But, you see… Syaoran is a very discreet person. And he became worst when his father… his father died."


"I'm sorry to hear that, Madam."


Swaying her head, "Oh, don't be. Everything that's happening into our lives was planned since the beginning… we can't struggle against fate. So all I want to know now is Syaoran… how was he?"


"He's okay, though very distant sometimes. " Looking at her boyish reflection in the milk tea, she can't help but think what was Syaoran's past is like. It must be very lonely since he has no father figure in his life.


"That's just like him. You know, he really loves his independence and I know that he doesn't want to accept the responsibility of this firm. That he doesn't want anything from other people. I know that he wants to do everything in his own way… but the irony is… he's still here. He's still helping this company. I don't know what's holding him back to stay in here. I just wish he could tell me what he's feeling, though." Sadly looking at the darkening sky through the glass window, "… he's always like that---a perfectionist… perfectionist in a sense that he does what is right and not what he wants. But I guess his attitude has something to do with his father…" then, "…would you do me a favor, young one?" waiting for Sakura to nod in agreement. Seeing that the young man had accepted, "…would you look out for Syaoran? I mean, would you take care of him, for me? I know that you think of him as a strong, cold-hearted person… but you know… he's just like everybody else. He's still a human. "


Eh?! How did this happen? Sakura was aghast! Here she comes in Hong Kong to live normally, and this black-haired lady asked her if she could do the most impossible thing… to befriend Syaoran… to befriend a guy... But, she can't let the woman to be sad. She knows that she really cares for her son. Must be really hard for her… "With pleasure, madam."






***






Ring! Ring!





"Hello? Li Syaoran speaking."


"Hey! So how's my old buddy doing? It's been a month since I've talked to you."


"Would you cut the crap?" Syaoran replied to the guy on the other line, yet somehow, he really wants to talk to his best friend. I need to know something about Nakamura-san. "State your business."


"Oh, no, no. Don't give me that state-your-business crap. I'm just calling you to ask what happen to my favorite soon-to-be cousin. Sorry pal, it's just I'm more concerned about Shun than you."


Syaoran smiled, "Ooh, I'm so sad. I thought my buddy Eriol will ask about me." He sarcastically said while having a make face on the phone.


"You really did change, ne?"


"What?!"


"I mean you never talked to me that way. Heck! You never talk at all."


Furrowing his eyebrows as he continues, "Is it me or the world is against me?" then he grunted when he heard a chuckle from the other line, "Okay, I'll stop now before you start attacking me with your senseless talks… so you asked about Nakamura-san, right? Well, he's okay as far as I see it. And if you define normal as in involving into a fight every now and then, and having a vicious remarks to people---all in all, he's normal."


"That's Shun for you." as Eriol laughed his hearts out, "God, when will he change!"


"It seems that it'll take a long time for your soon-to-be-cousin-tyrant-in-law to be what you like him to be…"


"You have no idea."


After a minute a silence, Syaoran started the interrogation, "Umm… I've been meaning to ask you, if---"


"---Shun has a girlfriend? I don't think he has. But if you're eager to court him, it's fine with me! To hell with the moral codes! If you love him with all your heart then I don't see anything wrong! Maybe we can have a double wedding! Tan-tan-ta-tan… tan-tan-ta-tan! "


"WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP!" God! He never did really understand why does he put up with him! He's one mad man! Then, hearing that the bickering has stopped, "Okay, let's get serious this time…" sighing for a bit as he regain his composure for he felt that his cheeks were somewhat burning earlier. "… Do you happen to know someone named Matsumoto Kuno?"


"Why?" sensing that the young wolf will not answer, "Okay, okay. I know him. Happy now? Demo, why did you suddenly asked me that?" he added, though he had an idea what his cousin will tell him.


"Nothing so important… I just observed that Nakamura-san has 'hots' for this guy that he starts to enrage every time gray-eyes look at his way or even talk a syllable. Man, you should have seen the looks Nakamura gave him… as if he wants to kill the guy pronto! " he said mordantly. "Hey! You still there?"


"A-Ah yeah!" The young Englishman replied as cold sweat trickle down his face, "…Has Shun done any, you know. "


"Violence? If ignoring, sending death glares and some curses is what you call as violence, then yes. But… Why? Why is Nakamura loathes that punk so much?"


Eriol somehow smile at the worry, "Why is my dear cousin asking me that? Feel a bit concern about little Shun? It's not like you to be a nosy person, ne?"


"Damn right, Hiiragizawa! But at least tell me something so I'll know what will I tell the Dean when Nakamura starts to ambushed the poor guy!" he derisively answer, gripping the phone harder than before. He knows that Eriol is right. That he's a self-centered person and he doesn't care about the people around him. That all the things he does is based on what is right. But he will not let his best friend see that. He needs to know something about his housemate, even if I don't know why I'm doing this…


"Oh my, look at the time! Hey ol' buddy I need to go, for my darling Tomoyo will kill me for sure. And… oh… take care of Shun for me, okay?"


T-Tomoyo? "H-Hey wait up! Wai---"





---Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot!





"DAMMIT, FOUR-EYES! YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT TOMOYO IS THE NAME OF YOUR FIANCEE! MOREOVER, YOU NEVER ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS!" huffing as he ended his sentence and then bang the phone in its proper place.


"You know… if you yell louder than you did… the people in North Pole might hear you clearly and perhaps, the people next door will wake up, thinking that there's some squeaking mouse in their unit."


Syaoran jerked hastily to the owner of the voice and then smiled a bit, "Oh, it's you."


"Yeah, it's me… Boo? " raising both of her hands at the level of her face, acting like a clown that's surprising a five-year-old kid.


"Hahaha, very funny. Nice try, Nakamura-san." following the young man with eyeglasses towards the kitchen. "Um…did you?" looking apprehensively at the emerald orbs before him.


It feels so good when somebody is under your very hands… "Of course I did!"


"Y-You did?" Syaoran query shockingly, bowing his head in the process as he felt the emerald eyes stare at him intensely through those thick glasses, like he was some kind of a rare organism in the microscope.


"Where in the 'I did' you didn't understand?" opening the refrigerator and getting the box of orange juice, then placing it in the waiting glass at the table. "Hey, you okay? You look like… shocked? " Silence. "Okay. Stay still… one, two, three" ---tick!


"Hey what did you do that for?" seeing a blaring lens of Sakura's cell phone in front of his face. He has somewhat spaced-out after realizing that his housemate has heard the phone conversation. He's so engrossed with their tête-à-tête that he didn't even felt the presence of another being in the room. He might think that I'm invading his privacy… "Umm… Du bu qi."


"Huh?" stopping her hands in pressing some buttons in her cell, "For what? I don't think it's necessary. I should be the one saying it for I eavesdropped in your chitchat. But you know… I think I have the right to do that… because my friend was involve in your conversation."


"Eh?!"


"Hey, Mister. Don't play like a fool. I've heard you. I've heard enough to sue you and tell Eriol that you have a hidden agenda in stealing his beloved Tomoyo."


"Nani?!"


"And they say: ignorance is a bliss. " Nodding her head in affirmation as she looked at the message sent in her LCD. "Oh, don't worry. The picture has been sent to Eriol, so in few minutes, you'll be sneezing like hell… be ready for that!" bringing up the juice-filled glass with her while striding her legs to her room, but then stop. "Oh, and I was just joking when I said I've heard it all… I just heard the last sentence… let me see if I remember it right…" inhaling deeply… and then, "DAMMIT, FOUR-EYES! YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT TOMOYO IS THE NAME OF YOUR FIANCEE! MOREOVER, YOU NEVER ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS!" facing around as she continue her pace to her door.


Hearing that the door had locked, "Thank God! I thought he heard it all…Achoo!"






***






"Hey, hunny? What's the problem?" amethyst eyed worriedly search the azure ones, "… did your chat with Li doesn't go well? Is Sakura okay? Oh, good Lord! Please help my poor Sakura. Pray tell, that everything's okay." Placing her hands to Eriol's paled cheeks.


The young man somewhat smiled at the anxious face of his princess. If anyone asks him if he knew somebody who is distressed yet still look ethereal, he would, no doubt, tell him or her it was his angel. "Don't worry Tomoyo-chan. Sakura's fine… it's j-just."


"Just what?"


Heaving a sigh, "I know where Matsumoto have gone to…"


"Oh my… this isn't happening! My poor Sakura." Springing herself to the comforting chest of her lover, "… can't the past just leave her… for once?"


"Shhh… it's alright my dear. I promise you that nothing will happen to our Sakura-chan. Li's there and he won't let anything bad happen to Sakura." Rubbing his thumb to the wet cheeks of his cherub. "So… any news?"


"Un. Touya took the flight to Beijing this morning. Some agent told him that they've seen Sakura in Jingshan Park."


"Looks to me that the agent is a fraud after all…"


"Yeah, all for the love of money." Smiling in agreement. "I think it'll take a long time before they'll find where Sakura's been hiding all this time."


"I agree… They're in the north part and Sakura's in the south… this should be interesting…"


"But not as interesting as what I'm going to tell you…" looking straight into azure orbs as if talking to it privately.


"Let me guess… about the contract?" getting an astonished look from the young lady before him, "…and they've approved that you'll not be starting anything until your best friend comes back."


"How did you know?"


Swaying his head in happiness, "My dear, Tomoyo. I know how stubborn streak you are. If Sakura's a mule, well, you're the ancestor of that mule. And besides, they have no other choice but to follow you… or they'll might suffer the consequence."


"Why you!" lunging her hand forward, trying to grab the collar of her beloved.


"Hey! I was just joking!" Then as if on cue, his cell starts to buzz in the tune of 'crazy for you', making the person in front of him giggle.


"Your message alert is so corny!"


"I know, but it's dedicated for you." receiving a blush from Tomoyo, "Now, that's what I will exchange all my riches for!"


"Sweet-talker!" standing up and getting the cell phone to her fiancé. After pressing some buttons… "Hey, is this your cousin?" stretching her arms for Eriol to see the picture message.


"Definitely." Smiling at the success of their best friend. You're really good, Sakura-chan. Even the young wolf let you pass inside his soul… but I hope you let him into yours.






***






"But I heard it all…" Sakura whispered after sometime as she still gazes at the white ceiling before her. She doesn't want to cause any trouble for Syaoran, even though he treats her like a laughing stock. Moreover, she's really grateful that Syaoran stick up for her every time Matsumoto plays another prank on her or Chang asks another fight.





But that's it…





She doesn't want Syaoran to be included in all of this. Heck! He's the one who told her about not counting other people. And here he is… sticking up his nose to some confidential things!


"Stupid wolf!" she cursed under her breath as she heard sequence of sneezes from outside. Turning away her thoughts from the handsome captain ball, she started to smile a bit at the fortune she has encountered earlier.


It just so happened that the 'East Pack'---the bar and restaurant that she inquired earlier---is the store of her long lost friend, Maki. She really couldn't believe that the beautiful woman---whom she adored in her elementary years and the owner of the 'twin bells---the toys store' is also the owner of the well-known bar in Hong Kong, wherein some promising teenage bands were performing live. And because of that, she was given a job as a waitress, no questions asked!


But the only downfall to it is that she should be in her female features again for the employees on the bar are strictly for women only. Thus, she will be the geeky guy in the morning and a hardworking girl at night.


Let's put it this way, Sakura… you'll have no problems involving your gender there, for Maki told them that I'm Nakamura Shun, the new waitress.


And now, all she has to do is to be careful in changing her gender, for Syaoran might get suspicious. Next is to stay further away from Matsumoto, totally ignore Chang and avoid Syaoran. Yeah, that should be the plan!


After the little incident with the red-haired guy, she felt that Syaoran became concerned about her. He even offered his self to be her company every lunch, which is very annoying, for the guy kept on pestering her until the bell rang. But that's not all! She doesn't know what happened, but she deemed that the young wolf is much talkative than the first time she met him that her 'wise words' were shrugged off by his astute retorts.


Even Matsumoto noticed the change in the young amber-eyed guy, for he kept on whispering about the blooming of the flower, which is obviously …her.


"Hah! That gray-eyes will never ever see the day that I'll become the same old stupid Sakura." Thrusting her hand upward as determination illumine in her eyes.






***






Rough surface met the rough hands of the young wolf. It's texture felt like heaven for Syaoran… but that's all…


Gazing his eyes towards the canvas, he can't help but feel sad. He knew that this lady is out of reach for him. But what makes his heart heavier is the thought that this Angel has someone else in her heart. Yeah, and sad to say it's my cousin… my best friend.


When they were just mere children---Eriol and him---there never come a time wherein he felt jealous about what his cousin gets… he was so proud of him that he's not even bothered by the praises of how charming he was… how smart… how respectful… even how his father brags about the willingness of the Englishman to follow his footsteps.





He doesn't care about it at all.





He understands that after Uncle Ethan---Eriol's father---died, there's nothing left for his dear cousin. That's why he let him do his own way… he let him be a part of their family and become his very own brother. He always took the blame every time he did pranks to the ladies he dumped monthly. And he even let him get close to the person he really admire… his father.





But he never blames Eriol for that.





It's not Eriol's fault that Aunt Lei Lang left him… It's not Eriol's fault that Uncle Ethan died…. Moreover… it's not Eriol's fault that his very own father wants the blue-haired guy to be in his deathbed and not him…





It was really never Eriol's fault at all…





"But why now?" he sighs, he never imagine that there'll come a day when he'll be feeling like this---lost, defeated and envious.


It was really new to him. To feel as if his heart will become numb if the pain will stay longer. All his life, he believed that he is not capable of loving. Not capable of feeling…


He tried to be perfect in his own ways… he strive hard to please his father with what he have and what he has become. But his father hasn't seen that. All his efforts, all his sacrifices were put into vain, for his father wants him to be flawless… A perfectionist.


Giving out his true smile to the ethereal painting, "You know… It's not only Eriol whom you have save from being a playboy… you also save my life from becoming heartless… I know it's really funny for I've seen you only once. But you immensely change my life with your soul. Ha! Eriol is sure lucky to have you…" fingering for the last time the angelic face before him as he flaccidly walks to the comforts of his bed.


And being perfectionist as he was… he's willing to let go. For it is really the right thing, right?



















































































TBC…
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Oh no! Syaoran have feelings for Tomoyo! What will happen...?
Hey, don't worry! Everything happens for a reason, ok?ü SO to all S+S fans out there, please do not be disappointed and just stop reading this one! I promise that the next chapter will be great!
Oi! I have another fic. Well, it's only one-shot and it's a letter of Meiling to Syaoran. A Backstage To My Thoughts. It's really good, for my friends loved it! SO i hope you'll like it too!ü
And I hope that you'll review this one, ne? please! please! please! PLEASE REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW!!!!!
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