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"Beast Boy…I am probably the wrong person to ask, my life, a tragedy, you know I don't think I can love personally, not after what he did to me," Raven answered bitterly with tears forming in her eyes.
"Raven, I don't think you can't love, I think you are much stronger than you are showing, I know you can and will love. You know, I feel love is that feeling in that your heart is rising, when you hold a conversation with her you have a sheepish grin, when you see her you close your eyes and take her scent, when she speaks to you, you feel like your on cloud nine. I have these feelings quite a bit, and I was wondering if you did too, then we know if you have love," Beast Boy said, taking a deep breath, he had waited so long to express his emotions.
Raven's eyes lit up a little, something hit her, and she thought for a few moments and said: "Beast Boy I have these feelings every time you are around me. I never knew what they meant until now, Beast Boy do you have these feelings about me to?" Raven asked feeling a revelation had just hit her.
"Ever since what that damn wizard did to your heart, and used you, and even more since what that bastard Robin did to you. I want to protect you, show you love, and be with you for the rest of my life," Beast Boy said, his green eyes beginning to water into tears of joy.
"I love you," Raven said with her own tears of joy building up
"I love you too Raven!" Beast Boy said with much emotion and they enveloped each other in a passionate hug and kiss. After they finished the kiss Beast Boy said: "A lot has happened in the past few weeks, I figure another major event wouldn't be too bad, how about we get married Raven," Beast Boy asked unsure of what answer to expect.
"You read those files didn't you?" Raven said in her monotone voice, surprised of his confession and proposal. The few people in the day club were starring at the two superheroes confessing vows of love.
"He he, well, yeah I did, I know Azarathians get married young, so lets do it, get married on Azarath and live the rest of our lives together," Beast Boy persisted with the proposal.
"My heart also belongs to another, I will make my decision after I speak with him tonight," Raven said just realizing Batman.
"Batman," a hint of jealousy in Beast Boy's tone
"Yes, he also has confessed his love to me and I will look into his eyes and either see his love is truer than yours or I will be assured you are the one," Raven said gazing down not wanting to meet Beast Boy's disappointed face
"So…you rejected my proposal?" Beast Boy said slowly feeling his heart tearing up in sadness and betrayal.
"No, I will make my decision in the morning Beast Boy; I have to see how sincere you two are to me. It is getting dark, lets get home and I will wait for the Bat, and in the morning I will make my decision. I will be married by the end of tomorrow with either you or Batman," Raven announced her plan to her potential groom.
"Even if you pick him I will never give up on you, lets get home, so you can see the Bat," I lost, the Bat will win, I acted too soon, you should have gotten her now, now you have to hope your love can overcome all the obstacles. Beast Boy thought as Raven and him left the day club to take the moped back to the safe house. He arrived when the sun was setting and after him and Raven ate a small dinner with no conversation, just tension Raven said: "Beast Boy, I would like to make my decision with out you around, so if you could go out tonight or sleep early it will help me make my decision," Raven asked her love.
"Anything for you love," with that Beast Boy hopped off his seat, walked to Raven kissed her hand like an English gentleman and walked to his room. He will do anything I ask just for my hand! Raven thought as he walked out with a grim look on his face. She sat at the table waiting for Batman to arrive.
JUMP CITY
Robin continued to patch up his relationship with his teammates, and controlling his emotions. He was keeping himself happy by spending time with Cy and Star, tired by exercising for hours so he can't think straight, and by looking for leads on even the smallest crimes. However he still argued with Slade's spirit. He was being worn down both mentally and physically. His extra work outs weren't healthy but he had to do it when his mind wondered on having Star alone or hurting Cy without getting caught. I have to win, I can't lose, I have already lost one of my best friends, and I can't lose another one! Robin thought as he furiously pounded on the punching bag. Wonder how they are coping with being thousands of miles away from the closest thing to home any of them have had? Wonder when Beast Boy will attack me. Robin thought gloomily. One bird a rang right on his chest should deal with the bastard. NO! Can't lose control. Robin almost lost control again; he pounded the bag even harder, working a sweat. I will not, I cannot ever hurt any of my friends ever again, I have to protect them. As Robin continued his mental battle by falling to his knees grabbing his head and mentally yelling at himself he felt a soft hand on his shoulder, he looked up to see a horrified Starfire.
"Friend Robin, why do you beat the bag so hard and fall to the ground in pain grabbing your head?" Star asked sounding disturbed, scared, and worried at the same time.
"Just training…" Robin mumbled exhausted and scared she would find out
"Is anything troubling you friend? You haven't been acting like yourself ever since Raven and Beast Boy left? Do you miss them?" Star asked her voice rising a little near the end
"Yeah, I miss them a lot," Robin lied, trying to make up any excuse.
"Do you miss Raven the most?" Star asked curious and her heart began beating waiting for an answer.
"Star, do you think I have a crush or like Raven a lot?" Robin asked in a teasing voice.
"Honestly friend Robin, I do, you two seem to have a lot in common and spend a lot of time together at home when friends Beast Boy and Cyborg and I go out," she asked waiting for Robin to reject her.
"She is just a…friend Star, who I do like is…you Star, I think I love you Star," Robin confessed, he was now on the brink of collapsing from his physical hardships, mental, and emotional crises. I have to finish this now, I have to get her answer and finally be satisfied what she desires. She does seem to love me to.
"FRIEND ROBIN, I LOVE YOU TOO!" Star squealed with joy and gave her love a big hug.
"Re…Really?" Robin said shocked
"YES! I HAVE LOVED YOU FOR SO LONG!" Star continued to shout. She leaned forward to kiss Robin, Robin moved his face closer but she saw his face shake to get his senses back together and then he backed off. She felt hurt and was about to walk away betrayed when Robin said.
"Wait Star, I really want to kiss you, go out with you, and spend time with you, but I am going through a crisis right now. I can't tell you what is happening but it can hurt you if we are alone, so please for a few weeks, days, months, keep back. This crisis can consume you and all of you. Always be with me when Cy is nearby, it strikes when I am alone. Please Star, can you understand I love you and will do anything for you, we will be together, I promise, just after I beat this problem," Robin said pouring his heart out.
"I …understand Robin, I will follow your wish, I do hope you get through this quickly, I long to be with you," Starfire said, slightly disappointed as she slowly left Robin in the gym.
That was close; you almost told her your sins. Slade's spirit spoke to Robin. You know you are not helping your situation at all, now she is even more vulnerable, now you will sin again! Slade's menacing voice spoke with his sadistic voice. "Shut up Slade, I am in control, I will not hurt her or do anything to her okay, you will not win, I will keep my promise or die," Robin screamed back mentally. I do hope you are willing to die, because it will probably come to that choice, harming them or dying. Robin collapsed on the floor again and continued arguing with Slade. The never ending battle hadn't healed with his first love, it had only gotten worse. Come on Robin, you are a villain, you covered all your evidence, you are a villain, you have done sadistic crimes I haven't even considered, you are a fake hero, you are sadistic and evil. Slade declared with conviction. Robin was feeling so weak, the words sunk in and he began weeping before falling asleep from sheer exhaustion.
"Robin, ROBIN!" Star screamed when she entered the gym seeing Robin unconsciousness on the floor. She was coming to ask him for dinner, she rushed upstairs and called for Cyborg.
"What happened?" Cy said confused when he rushed through the door after Star's hysterical screaming and repeated pushing of the alarm.
"I, I don't know, I just walked in and he was on the ground," Star stated as Cy picked up Robin and took him to the infirmary. Come on Robin, what is going on, pull your self together. You are our leader and guide, we can't function without. Let us carry this burden, just let us carry this burden. Cy repeated in his head as he rushed to the infirmary and gives Robin the medical attention he needed.
While he was being dragged, Robin still didn't rest, although his body wasn't active, his mind was still battling; rest hadn't come for so long for the young hero. Am I a villain?" Robin asked himself as he succumbed to the pressure slowly.
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