A/N: Standard disclaimers apply. The characters don't belong to me yada yada ya. The song is by Beth Nielsen Chapmen, its called sand and water. As for the quote, no idea who it's by but it's not mine.

I knew I just had to write something after the finale, but I didn't know it was going to take such a turn until I heard this song. I hope you enjoy. And please take the time to review.

It was tails.

The fated coin that changed our lives, but the funniest thing about fate, it just never goes your way. We had gone back to his place after that night, and long into the night, celebrated the gift that fate gave us. We had separated at dawn, both had some last minute packing to do, and for Harm, some new travel arrangements.

We were going to get married, after nine years; it was finally going to happen.

He had surprised me after the coin was flipped with a ring that belonged to his grandmother. She had given it to him when he was eighteen, and said when he had found the perfect girl, that this ring would be the rock that held them together. The inscription inside read: To my princess, my heart. When he slipped it on my finger, it was a perfect fit. It was fate.

So why now, a week later, am I attending his funeral?

All alone I didn't like the feeling
All alone I sat and cried
All alone I had to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I felt inside

He had insisted on coming to pick me up so we could ride to the airport together, but he never made it. A drunk driver hit him head on. Harm was killed instantly.

For the next few days, it was a whirlwind of chaos. His mother and stepfather flew in; Mattie got out of the hospital, just too much to bear. Everyone was there for me, everyone was so supportive. But I just couldn't do it. I just couldn't accept it. I just shut down.

All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by

Even though he resigned his commission, he got a military funeral, with full honors. I don't know how many strings the general had to pull, but I am grateful. Harm would have wanted it this way. The Admiral was there, (I'm sure Jen tracked him down), Jack Keeter, Admiral Boone, and just so many others from Harm's past. I just never knew how many lives he has changed until now.

After the funeral, I walked along the beaches of Virginia, trying to make some sense of where my life was headed. What am I going to do now?

I will see you in the light of a thousand suns
I will hear you in the sound of the waves
I will know you when I come, as we all will come

Through the doors beyond the grave

I stopped, as did my heart, when I came upon a message written in the sand. A message only Harm would send.

I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. So I wrote your name in my heart, and there it will stay.

I guess that's when I finally accepted that he was really gone.

I sat there, on the beach for a long time, long after the waves had washed the message away. One had to my heart, and another to my stomach, where Harm's baby was.

Our baby

All alone I heal this heart of sorrow
All alone I raise this child
Flesh and bone, he's just
Bursting towards tomorrow
And his laughter fills my world and wears your smile

It was fate that brought us together. Fate, that gave us nine years of dancing, all to come to this moment when fate would separate us forever. But I don't look at it that way. I can't, because it was fate that gave me this child. Fate, that finally made my dreams become reality. I know I will see Harm again. But now, I know, only when fate allows.

All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water and a million years gone by