Author's Note: Lonely Miko here to place her respect of you all who found time to read her worthless work. This poem of hers is dedicated to my beloved Kikyo, whereas Lonely Miko finds hard to hate, yet hard to like. . .

Disclaimer: Lonely Miko holds no claim over Inuyasha whatsoever nor anyone else.

…:..:.:Endless Road:.:..:… Dedicated to my beloved Kikyo

on this endless road I walk

full of twists and turns

alone

unsure of what to do

unsure of what to find.

Sometimes I want to cry

although I don't know why

but such feeling of emotion is beyond me

I may seem to have it all

but I don't

I'm forbidden of many things

emotions are the biggest

pity, though I give anyways

and love…such pitiful, childish, foolishness

yet I yearn for

and died from

life is just so unfair

but yet there's nothing to complain about

for destiny hold my life

and I am willing to follow

I am to walk this endless path

alone

I don't know how long I'll roam

through this vast world

that's uselessly timeless

to those who are dead

until the end of time, perhaps

until I find my reason for resurrecting, perhaps

until I reach eternal sleep, perhaps

but until then…

I'll continue this endless road

alone

without you by my side

without a place to hide

though I would neither run nor hide

though I do want to be beside you

always

though I pass you from time to time

I cannot stop

because this endless road does not end yet

I want to stop and

talk with you

be with you

embrace your warmth

but this road does not lead me to you

no matter how much I try

no matter how hard

I'm still in love with you

my forbidden emotions seem to

contradict each other

but they came from the same place in my heart.

I still love you

I wish your contradictions

would mean the same too

I didn't intend to hurt you…

or maybe I did

I don't know

I was mad, angry, depressed, and lonely

possibly…jealous

I felt rejected because in your eyes

there's another who makes you happier than I do

there's someone who could replace me

because she and I are of the same soul

but we are nothing alike

so why is she called my reincarnation

she has a softness that I never did.

she is everything I never was

she has everything I ever wanted

but the most,

why does it have to be you

that she takes too

we could've been happy

would've.

but these selfish could've, would've

won't solve our problem now, would it

see what I mean

we could've been happy

but we weren't

we could've stayed together

but we didn't.

we could've talked this over and worked things out

but we didn't

all we ever had

at that very moment in time when

betrayal and trust

friendship and lovers

life and death

were the risks

we chose hatred towards one another

and the thought of betrayal

that still lingers in the cool crispy air these days

and now,

as I look back to it

I was a selfish person, yes

but, you were selfish in your own way

you were blinded by your love for me

and couldn't see a side of me

that even I hate

so now

as much as I want to forget

the past is the past

as much as I hate, present is now

and as much as I want, my future…our future

seems to have a bit of hope in it

I won't give you up easily

but for now

I'll continue this endless road

alone

without you by my side

without a place to hide

though I would neither run nor hide

though I do want to be beside you

always

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Forever in Darkness

Lonely Miko