Disclaimer: Lonely Miko holds no claim over Inuyasha whatsoever nor anyone else.
…:..:.:Endless Road:.:..:… Dedicated to my beloved Kikyoon this endless road I walk
full of twists and turns
alone
unsure of what to do
unsure of what to find.
Sometimes I want to cry
although I don't know why
but such feeling of emotion is beyond me
I may seem to have it all
but I don't
I'm forbidden of many things
emotions are the biggest
pity, though I give anyways
and love…such pitiful, childish, foolishness
yet I yearn for
and died from
life is just so unfair
but yet there's nothing to complain about
for destiny hold my life
and I am willing to follow
I am to walk this endless path
alone
I don't know how long I'll roam
through this vast world
that's uselessly timeless
to those who are dead
until the end of time, perhaps
until I find my reason for resurrecting, perhaps
until I reach eternal sleep, perhaps
but until then…
I'll continue this endless road
alone
without you by my side
without a place to hide
though I would neither run nor hide
though I do want to be beside you
always
though I pass you from time to time
I cannot stop
because this endless road does not end yet
I want to stop and
talk with you
be with you
embrace your warmth
but this road does not lead me to you
no matter how much I try
no matter how hard
I'm still in love with you
my forbidden emotions seem to
contradict each other
but they came from the same place in my heart.
I still love you
I wish your contradictions
would mean the same too
I didn't intend to hurt you…
or maybe I did
I don't know
I was mad, angry, depressed, and lonely
possibly…jealous
I felt rejected because in your eyes
there's another who makes you happier than I do
there's someone who could replace me
because she and I are of the same soul
but we are nothing alike
so why is she called my reincarnation
she has a softness that I never did.
she is everything I never was
she has everything I ever wanted
but the most,
why does it have to be you
that she takes too
we could've been happy
would've.
but these selfish could've, would've
won't solve our problem now, would it
see what I mean
we could've been happy
but we weren't
we could've stayed together
but we didn't.
we could've talked this over and worked things out
but we didn't
all we ever had
at that very moment in time when
betrayal and trust
friendship and lovers
life and death
were the risks
we chose hatred towards one another
and the thought of betrayal
that still lingers in the cool crispy air these days
and now,
as I look back to it
I was a selfish person, yes
but, you were selfish in your own way
you were blinded by your love for me
and couldn't see a side of me
that even I hate
so now
as much as I want to forget
the past is the past
as much as I hate, present is now
and as much as I want, my future…our future
seems to have a bit of hope in it
I won't give you up easily
but for now
I'll continue this endless road
alone
without you by my side
without a place to hide
though I would neither run nor hide
though I do want to be beside you
always
love it
hate it
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Forever in Darkness
Lonely Miko
