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Brass heard the screams and went running into the apartment half way down the hallway he came upon Warrick quickly ushering Catherine from the room. Unsure of what he was about to find, he followed Warrick and Catherine outside the front door.

"What is it?" He inquired. "Who was in that room?"

"Sara." quietly Catherine said her name. "It was Sara!"

The three couldn't believe that she was gone. Catherine's hand's were shaking, Warrick had a protective arm around her shoulders. Suddenly she bolted from the porch it was all she could do to keep down the bile that was threatening to come up. She made it to the grass on the side of the apartment building before her dinner reappeared. She would never forget the image of her friend and co-worker lying on that bed dead.

" Sara's de dea dead? Brass's shock was just setting in. "What happened?"

"We don't know yet," Warrick told him.

Catherine walked back over to them dazed and confused with so many unanswered question.

"You are going to have to call Ecklie and have him take over your to close to this case." Brass told him gently, he knew how the nightshift felt about Ecklie. "What about Grissom, Nick and Greg?" Brass had so many questions going through his mind all at once. "Who is going to tell them?"

"I will!" Convection in her voice. "I will be the one who tells them." Picking up her kit she walked toward the Denali. "How will I tell them that Sara is gone?" The tears starting their journey down her face.

Warrick pulled his phone out and dialed Ecklie's number, after explaining the situation he quickly hung up.

"I'm going with you." Warrick was trying to catch up with her. "You not doing this alone!"

"Brass, do you think you could have the officer stay for a bit, Ecklie and some of the day shifters should be her shortly." Warrick turned and asked. "I don't want the others to find out form Ecklie."

"Sure, I will stay here and wait for doc and make sure he knows what's going on. It will still be a bit before he gets here anyway." Brass told him.

"Thanks, Catherine let's go sweetie." Warrick took Catherine by the arm and helped her into the car, her tears still falling. He decided that he had to be strong for Catherine and the others he would grieve in private later.

The trip back to the lab seemed to be too short. Warrick took a deep breath as he pulled the vehicle to a stop. He knows that this was going to be the hardest thing he had ever had to do. Those three men in there loved Sara each in there owns ways but they loved her. They are going to be crushed, notification of next of kin was always the part of his job he hated. He stepped out of the Tahoe and went over and opened the door for Catherine.

"Honey we're here come on." Still in a daze he grabbed hold of her arm to help her out. "We have to do this, I will be right there with you."

Catherine slowly came out of her daze, trying to make her self believe that this really did happened, not some horrible dream. She wasn't sure how she was going to do this, how was she going to tell her dearest friend, Nicky and Greg that Sara was gone. Why had she been so selfish and left them? She had gone from not believing to angry in a matter of moments. She looked up at Warrick wiping away the remaining tears. Why didn't she come to one of us? Why? Catherine thought as they walked into the building. She took a deep breath and went to find Grissom.

Warrick held a tight grip on her hand as they walked the long hallway to Grissom's office. It seemed like it took forever, but then again she was in no hurry. She was relieved when he wasn't in his office. "Wonder where he is?" She thought to herself.

"We should page all three of them to Grissom's office and tell them in there." Warrick suggested.

After Catherine paged the guys, she went into the bathroom and splashed water on her face she had to be strong for the guys right now. It was going to be hard but it was something that she had to do. Walking back down the hall she meets up with Nicky.

"What's up?" he asked her you look like hell. "What's this big emergency?"

"Let's go into Grissom's office and wait for the other." she told him. Before she got into the office she looked up to see Grissom and Greg coming down the hall talking about a case.

"What is this big emergency Catherine?" Grissom asked her.

Just as she was about to answer him Warrick came out of the break room. Greg and Grissom walked into his office still talking about their case. Nick was busy on his phone.

"Catherine," Warrick called as she was about to go into the office. "I spoke with Brass and he filled Doc Robbins in on what was going on. "Are you ready to do this? We have to tell them before Doc Robbins returns with her body and Ecklie starts asking all kinds of questions."

"I don't know if I can," she whispered, "I still keep thinking it's all a dream and she will walk in her with her big gap tooth smile that we all love."

We have to we owe the guys that much, I don't want Ecklie doing it. Together hands entwined they entered Grissom's office to deliver the bad news.

"Okay what the hell is going on?" Grissom ask as they walks thought the door. "Does this have anything to do with your suicide that you were working on?"

"Grissom, Nicky, Greg, she paused between each name I don't even know how to say this." She started to say but stopped. oh god how do I tell them she thought to her self.

"What ever it is please just tell us" The worry growing in Grissom's voice. "It can't be that bad but please say something you're scaring us."

Looking around the room at the faces that she was about to break, she got prepared to blurt it out. Warrick who had been standing there quietly took a deep breath. "There is no easy way to tell you this." He began "I really wish I didn't have to but I do. Our victim was Sara, our Sara, she's dead."

The room was deathly quiet for what seemed like forever, Catherine broke down again seeing her legs about to give out Warrick helped her down to onto Grissom's couch.

Grissom, seated at his desk looked at Nick who was sitting in a chair and then to Greg who was standing staring at Warrick.

"No, this isn't true. Sara would never do this." Nick screamed. "I don't believe you please tell me this is a bad dream." By this time he was up and pacing the room. Tears welling up in his eyes. "I never saw it coming, I should have known. I should have paid more attention to the signs. Why?"

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Grissom sat at his desk quietly taking it all in, he was still in shock over the news. He could believe that Sara would do this. His Sara strong, beautiful, hard headed Sara would never take her own life. This had to be a mistake…a mistake in identity. He looked over at Catherine who had her head in her hands quietly crying.

Greg jumped up and ran out from the room he couldn't breathe; this has to be a mistake. Sara would never take her own life, she was to full of life and loved her work. He couldn't listen to anymore.

Catherine got up from the couch and walked over to Grissom, kneeling down in front of him. She took his face in her hands and forced him to look at her. Quietly she spoke, "I'm sorry" was all she could say.

He stood and started for the door he needed to get out of there, there are to many memories. Like the others he had some many unanswered question the biggest one was why? Catherine grabbed his arm and pulled him into a hug, all he wanted was to get out of there and be alone.

Nicky sat in a daze he couldn't move or even speak, he was trying to take it all in. He was still in shock over the news that Warrick had just told them. Warrick walked over and knelt down by Nick. Looking up at Warrick he had big tears in his eyes that were threatening to fall. He was afraid though that if he started crying he would never stop. Part of him was missing, his best friend was gone. Warrick pulled Nick up into a hug. That was about the only thing he could do for his friend at this moment, he wished he could take away his pain. Nick relaxed in Warwick's hug and returned it.

"Thanks" Nick's word were soft.

Warrick finally spoke after what seemed like forever. "I called Ecklie to take over the case." There is no way any of us are in any kind of shape to handle this right now and Brass has talked to Doc Robbins he will be handling that part of it." With that Warrick walked out with his arms around Catherine.

Grissom quickly exited his office in search of somewhere quiet that he could be alone with his thoughts and feelings. He felt like the walls were closing in on him, he headed for the nearest exit. He needed to be alone. He knew the news of Sara's death would be known to everyone in the building soon and he didn't feel like dealing with the questions or stares he would get. Once he made it outside he felt the anger building up inside him. 'Damn her, damn her to hell, why did she do it?' He anger quickly gave way to tears; he was not one to cry. But he couldn't help the tears welling up in his eyes and he couldn't stop them. Leaning against the side of the building and let the tears come and flow down his checks. After standing there for a while he got up and went back inside. There was something he needed to do.

Greg went back to his lab; he turned his music up loud and tried to concentrate on work. He was losing his battle to keep control of his emotions; he wasn't sure of what he was supposed to feel. At this moment he was numb, sad and a little angry at her for doing this. He kept asking the same question over and over why? But nobody seemed to have answer. Greg sat on the floor and started at his hands, the good memories of Sara came into his mind. How, she was there for him after the explosion. She understood what he was feeling that others did not. Feeling the walls closing in on him he got up and made his way down the hall he was going no where in particular but there was something he needed to see for himself.

Sitting alone in Grissom's Nick finally allowed his emotions to let go. The tears started to fall, slowly at first but before long he couldn't stop them. He was feeling to many emotions he was sad that his friend was gone, but he was angry at the way it happened. He was crying for his best friend, the one who was always there for him but he had failed her. He did not understand why she would do this; he should have seen this coming. He should have been able to stop her. WHY! Sara WHY did you do this? After his tear came no more he quickly left Grissom's office one destination in mind.

Catherine and Warrick sat quieting in the break room trying to take in everything that had happened.

"That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do." Warrick voice cracked as he spoke. "I still cant believe she is gone."

"I can't either, or maybe I don't want to believe it." Catherine's words soft. "How am I suppose to tell Lindsey? She looked up to Sara."

"We will figure out a way." Warrick assured her. "I still cant believe it. He said once again, hoping he would wake up from this bad dream.

Without warning Warrick jumped off the couch pulling Catherine up with him. She didn't question him so just followed, but she had an idea where he was headed.