STARTING OVER
Ah have been livin' at this settlement, for what Ah believe has been almost four months now. Everybody's been pretty good ta meh. Ah decided ta help them in their fight as X-men since they were so kind ta meh after all of this. Some of them weren't exactly forgivin', but Ah can understand that. Jean has tried her best ta help meh gain control, and meh and Logan have become pretty good friends, but sometimes Ah catch him givin' meh a good look over every once in a while. Don't know if'n he's just lonely and remembers what happened between us, or is just foolin' around. Ah opt for the second one or else Ah'm gonna feel rather awkward and make comments at him doing so, like 'enjoyin' the view' or 'get'cha mind outta the gutter sugah' and he seems ta come back ta planet Earth. Ah can control mah powers as long as Ah want now, its just a struggle ta do so. Maybe there's hope for meh yet. Few months back though, Carol got really upset that anybody here would accept meh and took over one night. Jean helped meh lock her up in mah head real tight and threw away the key. She won't be buggin' meh anytime soon, 'specially seein' as she tried ta kill her own friends.
It's been pretty quiet though. We don't get too many visitors here. Haven't seen one human, and some of the mutants left, and some came and took they're place. One of 'em, Kitty Pride, her and me have become pretty close friends and she's only been here for 'bout a month. She's real good with all that technology stuff. But Ah guess phasing through stuff kind'a helps too. She's always messin' with meh tellin' meh how Logan loves meh or Ah him, and Ah say she's full of it. She just tryin' ta start stuff with meh 'cause she don't wanna admit what she feels for Colossus. He came here 'bout three weeks before she did. Ah was kind'a happy she came along, 'cause he was checkin' meh out like a raw piece of meat that whole time. He's really nice, but he's too quiet. Logan didn't take it too kindly either. But Colossus didn't try anythin', not even much on the talkin' side, so nothin' happened.
Well, it's warmed up here a bit, or at least for the day. Ororo she fixed it so we all could go swimmin' in a nearby lake. So everybody made a day of it. Ah didn't want ta accidently touch anybody so Ah just say on the far side of the lake and watched everybody else. Ah could use a lil sun anyhow. So Ah'm just layin' there on mah towel readin' a book Ah borrowed from Hank. Every once in a while Ah look up and see what all the fuss is 'bout as everybody's on the other side of the lake foolin' round and bein' goofy. That's when Ah notice somethin' rather somebody out of the corner of mah eye. It's Logan. He's standin' there like he's relaxed but like he's playin' guard dog at the same time, chewin' on some old cigar he found on one of his last missions. Yah right, mission, Ah bet he went on a mission lookin' for some cigars and liquor. It almost looks like he's playin' guard dog fer meh, standin' in the middle like he don't know ta come over by meh or everybody else. Then he notices meh noticin' him and he smirks. Ah hate it when he does that. So Ah stick mah tongue out at him and get back ta mah readin'. He must'a thought that was some kind of signal ta come over or somethin' 'cause it looks like he made up his mind.
"Hey darlin', what'cha got there?"
"A book, or is it not obvious, sugah?"
There's that damn smirk.
"What'cha want Logan?"
That smirk turns inta a full on grin.
"Logan?"
"What?"
"What's goin' on in that thick head of yours. Don't even think 'bout it. Ah mean it, old man."
He squats down next ta meh. Puts his cigar down and is just starrin' at meh grinin'.
"Logan Ah mean it. Don't ya'll dare tryin' somethin', Ah got a'lotta skin showin' and Ah don't wanna kill ya. Least not today."
"Well darlin', it's a good day to die, but if you haven't noticed I'm fully clothed." Oh crap. Even gloves.
"Logaaaaaannnn!"
He picked meh up and ran inta the lake and threw meh inta a deep part.
"Why ya lil' no good fer nothin'-"
"Now darlin' all's fair especially for that little trick you and Bobby played on me last week." He says as he's walkin' out of the lake. Then he turns 'round and gives meh that smirk. That's it, its all fair, fine. He's clothed, so Ah fly up and lunge at 'em. He couldn't get out of the way fast enough. Ah pick him up off'a the ground and throw him into the same spot he dropped meh inta the lake. As he gets up and Ah'm flyin' back ta mah towel and book Ah call back out, "All's fair Wolvie." Ah pick up mah stuff and high tail it back ta mah cabin before he decides all is fair and attempt ta kick mah butt, seein' as how everybody on the other side of the lake saw our lil show and was laughin' at him.
Ah get ta mah cabin and just as Ah had finished changin' he bursts inta mah room all soaked.
"What, sugah, ya forget how ta knock?"
He just stands there and Ah could've sworn Ah saw a lil bit lust in his eyes. Like the way he looks at Jean, but without the saddness. Then that damn smirk slowly makes it across his lips. Oh no.
"Logan, what'cha doin' here."
Then before Ah have anytime ta act he lunges at meh and we ended flown back on the bed. Then he starts ticklin' meh.
"L-l-log-an stop p-plea-se. Ah, Ah give."
Then he stops and he's just starin' at meh not even two inches from mah face. We are just sittin' there like that for what felt like forever but Ah know wasn't when we break out of it when we both hear an, "Ahem." He is totally taken back by that. Wow, somebody sneakin' up on him, somethin' is up. He jumped like four feet in all'a two seconds. Ah sit up and it was Kitty with that all knowin' grin.
"Rogue, I was just stopping by because we were suppose to be the chefs tonight. I seriously hope I wasn't interrupting anything." As she turned that all knowin' grin towards Logan.
"No Kitty, wasn't nothin'. Ah'll meet ya there in a minute. Logan was payin' meh back for what happened at the lake. Ah need ta...freshin' up first."
"'K then Rogue. See you there. I can spare you some time. I got to get some stuff first anyhow. Bye Logan."
He just grunted as Kitty left the room closin' the door behind her. So Ah turn ta Logan.
"Logan, Ah-"
Before Ah could say anythin' else he lunged at meh again, and we were in the same position we were in a few minutes ago.
"Logan, Ah need ta change. So do ya."
"No." He growled.
That smirk again.
"What's wrong sugah. Come on let meh up. Don't make meh force ya. Ah like mah door."
"Rogue we need to talk."
"That's fine, but why don't we do it later, like after dinne'. We can talk all ya want 'bout whatever."
"Ah Promise."
"I don't know if I can wait that long." He said as he let meh go and let meh up.
"Is it that important that it can't wait until after dinne' sugah? If'n ya got somethin' ta say ya can say it. Kitty'll wait." And when Ah see her be pumpin' meh for details.
"Rogue, you have control right?"
"Yeah, but not right now, why?"
"Can you, right now?"
Ah looked at him uncertain as ta what he was askin'.
"Do you trust meh?"
"Of course Logan, whay wouldn't Ah?"
"Just do it for a minute."
Ah close mah eyes and Ah'm concentratin' real hard, when Ah just about had it he must have known cause he took off one'a mah gloves and he must'a took his off too, 'cause he was holdin' mah bare hand in his bare hand. Then right before Ah was about ta open mah eyes he kissed meh. Nothin' platonic either. It was really nice, but then Ah pulled back rememberin' what was goin' on before Ah got lost in that kiss of his. He looked like Ah just ran over his favorite puppy.
"Logan, what does this mean? When did this happen? What are ya tryin' ta tell meh here? Ya'll are really confusin' meh?"
Ah backed up into a wall and slid down it, much like Ah did those months ago when a told him 'bout Carol.
"I think it's pretty obvious darlin'." He told meh as he walked over ta meh with a chair and sat right in front of meh.
"But why, why now, why meh?"
"Do you really have to ask that Rogue?"
"Yes, ya'll got meh pretty confused."
"Rogue ya now I'm not much for talking feeling's. Turn it off and touch meh. Just for a second. You'll understand."
"But what if ya'll get hurt, Ah don't wanna hurt ya sugah."
"You won't darlin', I promise."
"Ya'll can't promise. Ya'll don't know!"
"Rogue, you're not weak. Don't act like this. Just do it."
So Ah sit there starin' at him. Ah don't know.
"Look, Logan Ah gotta get dressed and meet Kitty, so-"
"She said she would wait, quit stalling."
So Ah do it. Ah take mah bare hand a just barely whisk it across his face. He looks real weak but he's still semi-conscious. Ah close mah eyes and Ah see so many images, but there's this feelin' in mah chest. It hurts, then all Ah can hear is 'Mine' in almost a growl. Oh no way, he he loves meh. Ah look at him and he looks so peaceful 'cept he has that smirk on his face. So Ah pick him up and lay him on mah bed. Throw some extra wood inta the fire, quickly change mah clothes and dart off ta the kitchen ta meet Kitty.
