TIME

So Ah've been here, in the kitchen, with Kitty cookin' or somethin' like it, while she continues ta babble. When Ah first got here she was waitin' for meh for all the details. Ah told her ta leave meh alone, then she muttered somethin' 'bout meh bein' all snappy and has bein' blabberin' 'bout who knows what 'cause Ah know Ah haven't been payin' much attention. Ah don't even know what Ah'm makin'. Feel sorry for everybody 'cause meh and Kit ain't much of a cookin' team, and after everythin' that happened tonight, Ah'm sure the food will beh worse. But Ah could careless right now, Ah am still tryin' ta sort out all this. Am Ah really that oblivious? How could Ah have not seen this comin'.

Ah don't see him when we put this mess of so called food out, so he must still be asleep. Ah'm just happy Ah didn't put him inta 'coma, but then at least Ah wouldn't have ta worry 'bout what ta say ta him so soon. It's gettin' late as Ah help Kitty with the clean up, and she starts the pesterin' again. So Ah just tell her flat out that Ah don't wanna talk 'bout it just yet, then Ah ask if she can finish the clean up. She tells meh how it's alright and when Ah'm up ta it, she's here for meh. So then Ah take mah dinner 'cause Ah didn't get a chance ta eat earlier, with everybody else and head back ta mah room. Ah slowly creep in 'cause Ah'm not only scared on how ta deal with this situation, but Ah still don't know what ta think. But when Ah creep inside, he's not there. Part of meh is extatic, but the other just knows that Ah gotta face up ta this at some point. Right now, though, is not th' time ta deal with this. Ah eat, change and head on ta bed.

Over the next three days Ah still don't know what ta do 'bout this whole Logan situation. Ah evade him in every possible way 'cause Ah just don't know what ta say. Ah can't even hardly sleep anymore, Ah wake up in a deep sweat with all of his memories in mah dreams. Not just of his past either, but the stuff with meh in it. It just makes it that much harder. These are worse than those ones Ah ever had with Carol or Cody's memories. Today though, Ah noticed Ah didn't have ta evade him. He's been doin' that ta meh taday. Every time Ah see him, even from across th' camp the way he looks at meh. Ah know that look, its almost apologetic, but more so like he thinks Ah hate him or somethin'. That is more than Ah can take, Ah gotta fix this. No matter what he feels for meh, and no matter how confusin' this is, 'cause Ah don't know how Ah feel 'bout him like that, Ah just can't go on like this.

After dinner Ah notice him goin' straight ta his cabin. So then Ah decide, now, why not it's a'good a'time as any. Ah can't take much more of this. Ah know he can tell it's meh at the door by mah scent as Ah knock. Ah hear no answer, not even his usual grunt. So Ah knock again, but still no answer. That's it, time ta get bold here, so Ah crack the door.

"Wolvie, yah decent?"

"Logan?"

"Yeah darlin'?"

He doesn't even turn 'round and look at meh as Ah step inside and shut the door. (Don't need any extra party guests.) He has a bag on his bed and his packin' almost everythin' in his room.

"Ya got a mission sugah?"

No answer.

"Ya runnin' out on us Logan?"

That's when he pauses. No answer, just stops what he's doin' but keeps his back ta meh.

"Ah don't hate ya, sugah. Ya don't have ta do this."

Then Ah finally get a grunt. Ah inch towards him lil by lil now.

"Look, Ah'm really sorry sugah. Ah was kind'a shocked by all this. Ah didn't mean for yah ta take it this way. Ah was just a bit confused."

Still nothing.

"Logan, ya shouldn't leave. They need ya here, sure a lot more than they ev'r needed meh. This is ya'll family. If anybody here should leave, it should beh meh." Ah put mah hand on his shoulder.

He finally turns 'round.

"Rogue, this has been a long time comin'. They may be family, but this isn't my place. Not right now. You do go here. You belong more than you know."

"Sugah, Ah-"

"I know darlin', believe me. I should have handled this better, but I wasn't exactly expecting it myself. I am not one for talk, I'm a man of action."

"Ah know, and Ah wouldn't have it any other way. But do ya really gotta go?"

"Yeah I do."

So I sit on his bed watchin' him pack what's left of his belongin's. All Ah can think is what would Ah do without him. He has been here all this time with meh. Ah can't lose him like this. Ah don't know when or if he'll ev'r come back. When he's done, his eyes meet mine, and we're just starin' at each other and Ah feel this pull in meh. Ah wonder if he feels it too, right now.

"Want some company, sugah?"

"If it means you, darlin', how could I say no?"