She was stopped by his lips on hers. She found herself kissing him back, giving in to temptation.
Ohh, this is sooo wrong.. then why did it feel so right?
And she couldn't think after that, because they were both too lost in the kiss.
Finally Clark broke off the heated passion. Lana looked at him for a second before looking down.
What did this all mean?
"Sorry, " Clark smiled nervously while apologizing, "it was the only way I could think of to get you to stop talking.. And I really wanted to kiss you. I know I shouldn't have.. but-
"Clark, it's okay," Lana cut him off, "it's not exactly like i was stopping it." Lana laughed nervously.
"Yeah" joining in on the nervous laughter.
And with that.. the awkward silence begins, along with the never-ending staring contest.
This is the perfect time for him to open up.. But knowing Clark Kent, he won't.
Thousands of thoughts went through her head. Are they going to better again? Should she wait for him to open up? Would he ever tell her that dark mysterious secret? At first, it was intriguing. Maybe even a bit sexy. But now, it was just plain annoying. And it hurt, because she thought that he didn't trust her.
Should I tell her? I can't.. I can't put that burden on her? But.. but..
Clark debated with himself. Would he have to tell her to be with her? Would she even accept him? Not only did he kill her parents, he was even human!
And the staring contest went on. Until-
"Clark, I'm sick of waiting. Waiting around for you to open up. Waiting around for nothing. Maybe it's time for us to move on."
She didn't really mean that, God knows she wanted to be with him more than anything else. But maybe.. maybe that could get him to open up. Or it could just push him away. It was worth the shot.
"Lana, there's so much about me that you don't know and.."
"Then tell me. "
"I.. I can't, there's so much you don't know and just wouldn't understand."
Lana sighed in frustration and looked away.
"Lana, look at me, listen to me." He pleaded.
"What?"
"As much as I am afraid of telling you, I'm more afraid of the consequences that it'll bring. I know I say I keep secrets to protect you, which I guess is partly true. But mainly, I'm scared."
"Scared of what?"
"Everything." Clark looked down before continuing, "That you'll look at me differently, reject me, hate me. I don't know.. I don't know anymore.."
Clark looked at Lana, who didn't say anything, so he continued.
"I wish nothing more than to tell you. It's not that I don't trust you. But.. Remember those guys who came to my barn and tied up my parents after I came back from Metropolis?"
Lana nodded, trying not to remember that incident because she had killed someone.
"You know why they did that? Because they wanted to find out about me. They could have killed my parents and you. And I don't want to put you in that kind of danger again. And Adam?"
Lana shuddered at the sound of his name.
"He was sent here by Lionel Luthor to spy on me, and try to get information about me from you. If you did knew about me, imagine what they could do to you? I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anything happened to you, and knowing that I caused it."
Lana took all this in. Was Clark's secret that big? I mean, Lionel Luthor even wanted to know about it. Was it that bad? Did she still want to know? Of course, she wanted nothing more to be with Clark, and having no secrets between them. Wait... If Clark's secret was so dangerous, then why did he tell Alicia?
"Clark.. If you secret could put those who knew in danger, then why did you tell Alicia?"
Clark sighed, "Lana.. I didn't tell her.. She sort of.. found out. Lana you have to believe me, I really do want to tell you.. And.." Clark took a deep breath before continuing, "and.. I will. I will tell you, when it's the right time. When I'm ready. But that's not right now.. But I promise I will."
Lana looked up and saw pure honesty in his eyes. If she had already waited that long, did a couple of months, or however long matter? I mean, at least she knew that he would open up to her when the time is right. What else did she want? But how long would that be? He had had a major crush on her forever and waited until last summer to tell her. How long would she have to wait this time?
"Clark, I believe you. But maybe that's not enough anymore. And how long will I have to wait this time before you tell me?"
Clark was lost for words. He didn't know how long..
"I.. I.. uh.. don't know. But... I will. You have to believe me. I'll tell you when it's right. When I'm ready. When you're ready. Righ-
"Clark, I've been ready.. and waiting."
"I know, I know," Clark sighed, "but right now is not the right time. Right now, I just want to be with you. Lana, please, just gimme another chance."
Lana looked away and wanted to cry. She didn't know why, but she just wanted to. She didn't know if she should give him another chance. She wanted to, but was it the right thing to do?
"And I promise, I will never ever leave you again. Please, Lana, just-
"Clark I can't deal with this right now. I need to get back to work." And without another word, she walked away toward the back room. When her back was facing him, she quickly brushed away the tears.
There she goes. I've lost her.
Clark took one last glance at Lana, before sighing and turning away and heading towards the exit again.
