I think you are too fast for me. I got three reviews as I wished and had too post the next chapter. My fingers are hurting already...

12. Why me?

As I arrived I threw myself on the bed and wept. An unknown feeling came to me. Suddenly I felt sorry. I felt sorry for my parents, the people I killed and everyone I had hurt without the will to do so. I cried bitter tears. I didn´t want to cause all the pain.

But the greatest pain I felt by myself. Probably I had fever or something else. I felt tired and sick. Somehow I didn´t want to kill anymore. I felt so weak.

My whole body was in pain. I rolled on my back and everything got worse. I wanted to die. Perhaps I cried myself into sleep. Anyway, as I awoke in the morning it was all the same. I had locked the door to my room. I didn´t want Dracula to see me like that.

After I thought that it couldn´t have get worse, it got worse. My arms and legs began to shake. My head hurt. I slept long and much. It was the only way to ignore the pain.

Dracula asked more than once if something was wrong. I didn´t answer and only yelled that he should go away. I did not care about him this time. And it was a very long time. I didn´t leave the room for months! I was surprised that I felt no bloodlust but it was good. I wasn´t able to drink or to eat.

The pain I felt in my stomach was the worst. Everyday the pain grew bigger. And not only the pain grew. My stomach grew nearly everyday. At first I did not know what wrong was but then everthing was clear. I had never expected that such a thing could happen to me. To the daughter of death. Once I thought that it is a gift of god but now I know that it´s a curse.

It was more than nine months ago since I had left the room the last time. I knew that it was only a matter of time from now on.

There was still a problem: How to tell Dracula? I was sure that he would be angry or more than that. I was so afraid of the concequences. But it didn´t matter how. I had to tell him my long kept secret.

As I tried to stand up it felt as if someone had kicked in my stomach from the inside. Of course someone did. I sank back on the bed and fell asleep again. And I had a dream...

Someone I did not recognize came to me and said: "I see you are with child. I´m surprised that someone like you is allowed to carry a creature of god. But tell me one thing: Do you want to be freed? Freed from me?" After a few seconds I could tell that it was death itself. "More than everything", I answered. "God has forgiven you and your faults. But you are too useful for me. When you stop killing people and someone tells you his love for you, what surely won´t happen, you are free." I knew that there was no hope for me but I asked: "What about my child?" - "It will be an immortal like you. I´m afraid that it won´t belong to me but to you and the father." I was about to go but he spoke one last sentence: "If you tell someone that he shall tell you that he loves you, you are damned!"

Now I awoke and remembered every word he spoke. I stood up and stretched my legs. The time I had only laid on the bed seemed like an eternity to me.

Suddenly Dracula knocked on my door. "I can imagine what has happened but I want to hear it from you. Please let me know how you feel?", he asked softly. I knew that he cared for me in a way noone did before. But I was sure that he wasn´t able to love me or anyone else.

I unlocked the door but did not open it yet. "Titiana, please open the door", he said again. Carefully I laid one hand on the doorknob. I turned it slowly and pushed the door open. Dracula stood before me and watched at my face and my swollen stomach. I was about to turn but he grabbed my wrist and held me back: "You go nowhere until I know who´s child it is."

I freed my hand from his grip and took one step backwards. "I won´t accept you here with a child of Van Helsing!", he said nearly yelling. I felt that I lost my temper.

"What do you think from me? Do you really believe that I would let this ... man touch me? This child is definitely from you!", I yelled at him in frustration. Then I began to cry. He tried to reach my stomach but I slapped his hand and put my own on my stomach protectively.

I sank on my knees and sobbed. Dracula pulled me violently to my feet again and this time he slapped me directly across my face. In the same action he pulled me in his embrace.

"You are so foolish! Why didn´t you tell me that earlier? You know that you can´t keep it", he said. I freed myself from his arms: "What? How can you be so cruel? I hate you! Leave me alone!" Then I slammed the door in front of his nose and cried even more. I felt so helpless and left alone.

I nearly forgot to thank my reviewers. THANK YOU SO MUCH! It works with 3 reviews. But what about 4 reviews? Can you make it?