I couldn´t wait to post the next chappie. Here is it!
18. In the church
The next morning I did like Van Helsing had told me and went to the church. I should ask a priest or something for god´s forgiveness and trust. I entered the church and waited for the mess to begin.
When it was over I went to the man who had hold it. "Excuse me, I want to confess", I said. The parson eyed closely. For a long time he looked at my new red silk dress. It hided my whole body accept hands neck and of course head. My hair was hold back in a ponytail. After he had assured himself that I looked serious he sad: "Follow me."
I walked behind him and my shoes made loud noises on the stone floor. As we arrived in a small room at the end of the church he closed the door silently behind me.
"Sit down", he said in a friendly voice. I did so and looked at him. "And now tell me what your sins are, my child." - My whole life is a sin for the world´, I thought.
"My name is Titiana. Born and murdered in Transylvania", I took a small break to let him think about the previous words, "I was resurrected again and soon met Vla... Count Dracula. We... and nearly one year after it I bore a child from him."
The parson made a cross on his chest said nearly unnoticeable: "May god be with me." I heared it but pretended not to and continued: "I killed many innocent people and our child died after three days. Can god forgive me this?"
He made another cross and then spoke very slowly: "I´m afraid not. But maybe if you are really sorry, never sin that means never meet the son of the devil again and be near god for at least one time..."
I jumped to my feet in anger and said cooly: "Everyone here´s the same! Van Helsing punished me yesterday! I´ve never been in such pain, my child is dead and the father thinks that I´m dead, too! Isn´t it enough! Why does everybody think that I´m a monster? Why is everyone a sinner in your eyes who hates the church and everything that has to do with it? Can you explain it to me or better to yourself!"
In the end I yelled at him. Now he rose, too. "Get out of this holy place and do never enter it again! You´ll see that you are damned for all eternity! Noone loves you! You´re alone!"
I had lost my patience. I grabbed him by the collar pulled him to me and sank my teeth in his neck. He let out a cry of surprise and pain. Before I had killed him completely I threw him aside. "You´ll rott ... in hell... ... forever." These were his last words.
And again I sank into endless darkness...
"Nice to meet you again, Titiana, my dear. I knew that I would see you again. And thank you for the poor parson." - "You made me do that, don´t you?", I yelled at death. "No. I think the parson upset you while speaking about your whole "situation" with Dracula."
"How dare you say that! I don´t care about Vladislaus or what somebody says about him!" - "Oh, do you? But I thought his name was Dracula so... why do you call him Vladislav?" - "His name is Vladislaus!", I yelled again. "My apologize. But I thought you don´t care for him..." - "I said that I don´t care about him! That´s something different!"
"Only the words are different. But the meaning is the same. And I can read your mind." The whole conversation was confusing. Like the most things I did when I thought about Vladislaus. I knew that he was right. But it didn´t matter what I felt or feel. My sourroundings got brighter and...
I was back in the church. I ran out of it and back into Van Helsing´s house. Now I had to take care about my words wich I wanted to say.
"And? Did it work?", he asked while I walked past him. "Somehow yes and somehow not", I said simply and wanted to go into my room. But he hold me back.
"I want to show you something. It´s a kind of test. Come with me." So I followed him. We walked a way along that seemed familiar to me. It was the way to Vladislaus´ castle. I could see him standing with his back to me. I wanted to go to him but Van Helsing grabbed my arm and pulled me behind a pillar.
After a few minutes of looking I saw that he stood in front of my grave. "Look! The fool is crying for you! Can you imagine this? The famous Count Dracula is crying for a stupid girl!"
He began to laugh silently. Again I wanted to escape Van Helsing but I couldn´t. Still he held me in position. "I must go to him and tell him that I´m alive. Please let me go!"
He shook his head: "No, I won´t. And if I find out that you met him I´ll probably have to punish you." Now I knew that it was hopeless. I wasn´t allowed to see my Vladislaus again. And if I would do it though I wouldn´t get one more chance of death.
I hope you like it! But now I want soooooooo many reviews until I update next -Angel-
