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20. All alone again, or not?
After Van Helsing had whipped me again he looked at my wounds. "Your wounds will never heal again completely. That´s good. So you will always be reminded of your sins", he said with a triumphiant smile on his face.
But in my opinion it was everything but good. It already hurt when I touched my back. I´m afraid noone could turn back time so I could live with it.
His next words shocked me more: "From now on you are going to live in a convent. Your life as a nun will be good for you. You will always be near god. And with the abstinence of sleep, much food, sex and other things that have to do with men your life will be without sins."
I was speechless. How could he do that to me? How could he do that with the thought that it was the worst thing he could do to me? But I didn´t think of me in that moment but of Vladislaus. I was sure that I would never see him again.
Van Helsing and me walked on. I knew that protest was useless. We passed the church, turned right and stood in front of the small convent. The abbess walked toward us.
"Welcome to our nunnery. You must be Titiana. Mr. Van Helsing told me about you", she said. I was sure that these things he had told her wer no good ones but he hadn´t told her about my secret.
Gabriel turned to me: "Good luck and the best wishes for your new life." With that he left the abbess and me alone.
"The ceremony for your admission is set in one hour. I´ll show you the building", she said. So we walked around the nunnery for half an hour until she showed me my room. The abbess told me to put on the clothes that lie on the bed.
I took these in my hands and studied them. Of course it was a half black, half white dress. I put it on and walked into the chapel. The other nuns stood in a circle around the place in front of the abbess.
I knelt down in front of her. "Titiana Oradea will you make the vow of obedience, faith, silence and chasity?" - "Yes, I do." - "Will you accept the rules of our nunnery?" - "Yes, I will." - "And do you swear to leave your precious life behind and become a nun?" I thought about her words and was not sure what to do. Finally I said: "Yes, I do." - "Then we will admit you here in our holy nunnery. With this cross that you will always wear you are one of us and welcome in our company."
The abbess put the necklace withthe cross around my neck and I rose from the ground. All women left the chapel except me and the abbess. "It´s time for our midday´s prayer. I will show you the place where it is set", she said and left, too.
I already felt like a prisoner as I followed her in the next room. The women knelt in front of a huge cross with Jesus on it and prayed silently. I did the same.
But I didn´t want to pray now. I was more in the mood of crying. I wanted to get out of this holy cage. So I pretended to pray. I was left alone in this strict convent. Not a single woman noticed how I felt.
After one hour of silence we left the room again and went into the dinning room. I sat down between an old woman and a young one in the same clotheslike me.
I guessed she was around 18 years old. Everyone had something to eat except me and the young woman beside me. I didn´t have to eat since I was what I was but I asked her why: "Aren´t you hungry? Why don´t you ...we get something to eat?" The abbess sent a look to me that meant be quit´. But I didn´t care.
The woman did not answer and kept staring on the table. "Is something wrong with you?", I asked. "Sister Titiana, I thought I had told you that we don´t speak during that time of day. Or didn´t you listen?", the abbess said with a strictness I did not expect from her.
"But I don´t understand why we don´t get some food", I said. I could see that the woman beside me laughed silently. But the abbess seemed wasn´t amused.
"When we admit new women in our convent they don´t get anything to eat during the first two days. Only water." - "But you don´t eat water", I said smiling.
The abbess was about to lose her temper. "If I hear one single noise from you..." - "Aren´t we allowed to breathe?", the woman beside me asked. Now every woman stared at us.
The woman and me smiled like two innocent children. "I think a few hours of work will do you two good. Maybe you start now!", the abbess said loudly. We both stormed out of the dinning room and into the garden.
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