"A Kiss Is Just a Kiss"
Chapter Two- Edging Closer
By darthelwig
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I do not own Saiyuki. This story is rated M. SLASH WARNING.
A minor incident and some major flirtation stir up trouble for the boys. Sanzo/Goku. Gojyo/Hakkai. Slight Gojyo/Goku.
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"Well, I guess we're camping out tonight," Hakkai announced, much too cheerfully for Sanzo's taste. The monk gritted his teeth and forced his frayed nerves back into some semblance of control.
"Fine," he growled, getting up and moving away. "I'm taking a walk." He didn't look back, knowing Hakkai would take care of all those annoying details like pitching a tent.
He wasn't wrong.
"Come on, Gojyo. Help me set up the tent, will you?"
Gojyo groaned but helped anyway. He didn't mind sleeping in the open, but dark clouds threatened overhead, and he didn't really feel like getting soaked to the bone if it rained. He hoped it didn't rain, though. Sanzo was already in a bad enough mood as it was.
"Goku, could you get us some more water?"
"Sure!" Goku grabbed their canteens and went in search of fresh water.
Hakkai watched him go, and then turned to Gojyo, who was hauling out the canvas and setting up.
"What are you doing?" Hakkai asked, voice entirely serious now. Gojyo looked up, surprised by his friend's tone.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I mean with Goku. What are you doing?"
Gojyo sighed and fiddled with the edge of the canvas tent, avoiding Hakkai's eyes.
"I'm just having a little fun, is all," he said.
"I know that… but why Goku? What could you possibly gain from this?"
"Why are you so upset about it?" Gojyo asked, finally meeting Hakkai's gaze.
"I'm not upset."
"Really? You sound upset."
"Do I? Yes, I suppose I do, at that. I'm sorry." He paused for a moment, looking away. "It's just… it's upsetting Sanzo."
"Yeah, well, the monk can get over it. Goku's not a kid anymore."
"That's true," Hakkai said softly, covering his bitterness with a faintly rueful smile. "Please, forget I said anything."
"It's okay," Gojyo said, grinning again. "You're just worried about me." He winked at Hakkai, the familiar sparkle present in his eyes, and Hakkai hid the regret and pain that brought him.
"Well, let's not waste any time, shall we?" Hakkai said, moving to help Gojyo with the tent.
"Wasn't planning on it," Gojyo replied, looking briefly in the direction Goku had gone, and Hakkai's heart sank further.
And he smiled.
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Goku had found a small stream and was filling the canteens, humming softly to himself while he did so.
"You're an idiot."
Goku jumped, startled, and nearly dropped the water.
"Sanzo!"
"Why are you wasting your time on Gojyo?" Sanzo asked, arms folded across his chest and face blank. He stood only a few feet behind where Goku stood, and Goku wondered how Sanzo had so thoroughly managed to surprise him.
"What do you mean, Sanzo?"
"You're encouraging him. Can you be that stupid?" The monk was beginning to sound more irritated, and Goku took that as a good sign.
"Why shouldn't I?" he asked, trying to sound as if the answer meant nothing to him.
"Because, you stupid monkey, he's only interested in one thing." Sanzo was openly upset now, his face a mask of clouds. Goku phrased his next comment carefully.
"Maybe I'm interested in it too."
Sanzo's eyes widened slightly as he absorbed the meaning behind Goku's words. Then the moment passed and he exploded in rage.
"Do you even know what you're saying, you stupid ape?" he yelled, slamming Goku over the head with his fan. "You're too stupid to get involved with someone like that! Idiots like you get attached! And don't think you can come crying to me when you get hurt because of it!"
Goku returned Sanzo's glare, refusing to back down anymore.
"I'm not a stupid kid, Sanzo. I know what I'm doing! If I want to get laid, I will! Don't treat me like a child anymore!"
"Maybe I would if you'd stop acting like one!" Sanzo yelled back.
"I'm not the one acting like a kid here! If you don't want me to sleep with Gojyo, you'd better give me a reason why, instead of calling me stupid and treating me like this! I know that anything I could have with Gojyo would be just sex, and I don't care! I'm not looking for more from him! If you have a problem with that, tell me why!" Goku stared at Sanzo, daring him to speak, but the monk was quiet for a long time. When he finally spoke, his voice was once again carefully controlled, betraying no hint of his emotions. Only his eyes held any passion, and they gleamed with a dangerous intensity.
"Fine. Do what you want," he said, and walked away.
And all Goku could do was watch him go.
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Damn it! What the hell is Hakkai's problem? Did I do something to piss him off too? He hasn't talked to me since this afternoon. I wonder what's going on with him.
And that damn monk's been giving me his death glare all night. It's starting to creep me out. Ugh. Maybe Hakkai was right about Sanzo being really pissed off about this. But why should he be? It's not like he and Goku are a hot item or something. I mean, for crying out loud, the monk wouldn't be caught dead being human or anything weak like that.
So what the hell am I supposed to do now? Should I still go through with this? When did this get so damn complicated?
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Maybe I went too far. Sanzo seemed pretty pissed off. But I'm not a kid and he needs to realize that! I'm doing this for him! He and I are meant to be together!
And Gojyo's acting kind of funny now too. I wonder what his problem is. I mean, he hasn't come on to me once this evening. If this is his idea of seduction, I'm amazed he ever gets laid.
God, I'm so turned on! Does that make me some kind of weirdo? But I can't help it! Fighting with Sanzo is what did it! He was all flushed in the face and stuff….
Damn it!…………………….
Why am I so upset about this? Why is it so hard for me to see Gojyo touch the monkey like that? Why did watching Goku suck on the kappa's fingers make me want to kill something? Why?
And why the hell was I so turned on by it?
What the hell is wrong with me?
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I have to do something. I can't let things go on like this. I love Gojyo. I can't see him throw that away over something like this. Because I'm not sure I can take it. I don't know how to handle seeing him with Goku. Strangers are one thing. They pass in and out of our lives like wind. But Goku is different. He's one of us. He's just like me. He's… competition.
I can't do this. I have to let Gojyo know how I feel. Maybe he'll understand. I need him, more than anyone else possibly could. He saved me. He made me realize I wanted to live. I don't want to be without that anymore.
But he may not feel the same way about me. I know that. But I have to try. What else is there for me?
Yet, I'm afraid to say anything. I'm afraid of what his response will be. I don't think Gojyo is the 'settling down' type, and I can't ask him to be.
So where does that leave me?
