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Chapter 11 - A Journal and a Hope
Rifa - I don't like babies, they smell and cry and are deceptively cute! My bitterness at babies aside, thanks for reviewing. Maybe you can put your finger on what I'm not doing to your taste, I can't promise I'll change due to it, am far to stubborn. (lol)
Gelendra - I like writing teasers! And the happy news is coming up! Updating is good, I like updating a lot.
ashitaka666 - Problem with movies is that the characters would be okay to some people but wrong to others. I'd love to see some of the fics I'd read made into films, certainly not my own!
LottiRebel - Hehe, you're trying to tell me I go to all that effort of sticking Eiko in a later chapter just for you and you don't want her any more? Joking, joking; I'm very glad that you're enjoying it so much!
So, why are my chapter's so short? Because they end when they seem to need too, if you continue an idea too far it gets dull and people lose interest in the emotions. Plus, I can't help but feel some bits of this would be a little heavy going if it were longer.
Anyway, explanation aside and on with the fic!
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Entry 1
I'm not sure why Ellisa's making me keep a diary, I've never kept one before and this seems a little stupid. She said that this was a journal of my recovery, which she tells me is happening even if I don't see any change. Maybe I do see some, but only little things; I don't avoid talking to people so much any more and getting out of bed is easier now.
I got a letter from Mikoto, which I'm going to stick in here because I think it's important, she has managed to bring back some of the mages using the soulless Genome's that remained. She started the process four years ago and she says that at first she thought it was a failure because the Genome's remained the same at first. But then, Mr. 288 started to show signs of being himself again. I'm not sure how it works exactly, but mages aren't like other beings, when we stop we leave our souls behind and Mikoto used that to bring the others back.
Most importantly of all, she's told me there are six more Genome's remaining and she has offered them to me; I'm not sure what to do and I'm waiting on a reply from Mr. 288 before saying either way.
I've got a lot of choices to make; I still haven't decided if I should be Zidane's daughters Godfather, I want to, but sometimes wanting something isn't enough, sometimes you have to believe in what you're doing too. She's a beautiful child and I don't want to ruin her life in any way because of the things I've done in the past, things I don't even like thinking about.
It's been … I'm not sure, about two months now; my wrist is healed but I'm still pretty sleepy a lot of the time, Ellisa's told me this is due to blood loss, I can't help but feel it's because I just can't be bothered sometimes. I finally got around to asking her what her name was and I don't think I've ever seen anyone look so happy to be asked her name. She then proceeded to babble about what her full name was and she told me that no one was sure what her name really was because she was found as a baby in Treno.
I've never been very good with people, but Ellisa is something of an enigma; she just goes on about things that are unimportant but always holds back when she talks about herself. I know lots of people do it but it doesn't make a lot of sense, people are always hiding things from one another. Then again, I hid something very important from everyone; I couldn't bring myself to tell everyone how much pain I was in. Maybe if I had things would be different now, maybe I wouldn't feel so … stupid now.
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Entry 3
Today was safely what you could call a bad day, I didn't talk to anyone today and spent a lot of the time crying to myself; I'm not even sure why, there wasn't any reason for it. Now I just feel very sleepy, and I really feel like I could spend all of tomorrow asleep.
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AN: Sorry this is another short chapter - it's predominantly because the next chapter is looking very much at why Vivi's day was so bad.
Ahem -
Reasons to keep going, more to give up again, can Vivi manage to pull himself out of the final death he felt for a sons passing? Or will it just drag him down again? Find out next time in the next chapter 'Laid to rest'.
I feel like Misato! Am fighting the urge to promise fan service!
