Disclaimer: how many times do I have to say it????? Ok, here it goes
again, not mine. Ok??? Tolkien's and his families? I suppose?? The
point is it's not mine k??? Everyone got it?? Good, now that that's
cleared up, on with the story!
A/N: A HUGE thanks to d-chan and Cor for this!! Also, thanks to Rhonda!! I love our late night chats!! They inspire me to keep writing!! Thanks girl! *sigh* also have to thank Sparx and Rhonda for this chapter!!! They sent me this plot bunny at like 1:30 AM! *sigh* but thanx!! I loves ya both! *huggles*
Title: Lost Hope
Rating:R
Summary: Feeling ignored and unwanted a young Estel decides to go out on a hunting trip by himself.
Steffi: Thank you for the compliments!!! Germany huh?? Way across the ocean!! Thank you so much for your review! Hope you continue to enjoy!
Maverickgirl: Yes, it is killing them! Lol! Part of the fun! Thanks for reviewing!
Iawen Londea: lol! No he doesn't remember. *raises eyebrow at threats* ok this from the person who made everyone believe Elladan had shot Elrohir???? Ummhmmm
Anime Elvengirl: *grins* thanks!!! I am glad you like, and don't mind cliffies too much! Still a few left!
Aemilia Rose: Sorry for the delay! I have my bunnies back now and I don't think they are going anywhere!! Hope you continue to enjoy!
littlesaiyangirl:*rubs arm from pinch* lol! Sorry for the length. It is SO hard for me to write long chapters for some reason, but I will try for your sake! Thanks for the review!
Firniswin: Ok ok! No need to get violent! More is here! Lol! Hope you continue to enjoy!
Eryn Lasgalen: Thank you so much for the compliments! *blushes* gee. Hope you continue to enjoy!
Arifel: *ducks rotten vegetables* eep! Lol!! And no worries on spelling, I can't spell to save my life!!! If I didn't have spell check I would just die! Lol! Thanks for the review!
Astronema: Thanks for the review! I love pain too!! You have lost your memory??? I'm sorry that's terrible! Hope you enjoy this chapter as well!
Kitty: thank you so much for all the kind words!!! Hope you continue to enjoy this!
To everyone: I broke 40 reviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! *does happy dance* THANK YOU ALL!!!!!! *huggles all reviewers*
IMPORTANT NOTE: Ok guys. Have to warn you of an upcoming change in this fic. I am changing the rating from PG-13 to R. Now the reason isnt' here yet, but in future chapters there is going to be some brutal references to torture, and even some implied rape. I am sorry that I did not rate this story appropriately to start with, but I didn't know it was going to take this direction till I got here. I hope that this does not scare too many of you off. If it does I am sorry!! *goes to cower from angry readers*
Chapter 10
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Morning had dawned once more upon the peaceful valley of Imaldris. This sunrise found Elrond in the room of his youngest once more, along with the twins. The twins were stirring already, as the morning sunshine danced across their faces. They both looked to their father. No words were needed between them.
Elrond motioned and they left Estel's room and headed for Elrond's study, there they could talk without worrying about disturbing Estel. Once there all seated themselves comfortably, and Elladan asked the question that had been troubling him, and his twin, since the night before.
"Ada, will he, be the same when he awakens?" he asked hesitantly.
Elrond looked sympathetically upon his sons. He knew that they were both thinking of their mother and how orcs had ruined her spirit. To tell the truth, his wife was not far from his mind, because of the similarity of the situation, and Elrond feared the answer to this question, for he himself did not know.
"I do not know ion nin." he said finally. "It is clear the orcs tortured him, and we saw to what extent physically, however how deep the mental went, I do not know. We will just have to wait till he awakens and see."
None of them were satisfied with this answer, but the twins understood that their father knew no more than they did.
"At least he is on the mend physically, take some solace in that ion nin. His body is strong, we must have hope that his spirit is just as strong." Elrond finished, trying to infuse his sons with hope. "Now, why don't the two of you go down to breakfast, and then clean up some. I will look after Estel." it was not a request, and both obeyed their father without question or protest. Elrond watched his sons leave and tried to find some of the hope that he had given his children.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~ He was floating. It was a wonderful experience, not nearly as scary as he thought it might be. Everything was peaceful, there was no pain, there was simply nothing. However, it seemed this blissful state would not last forever.
He began to "fall" if you could call it falling. It seemed as though he was spiraling downward unendingly. However, now he had feeling and he was no longer in blissful dark, but pictures memories, he guessed, were swirling with him. It was so frustrating because before he could truly get a handle, or process the information that picture was gone and replaced by another. Most of the pictures were nice, beautiful scenes, with friendly looking people in them.
Then the pictures changed. Suddenly, the pictures were no longer nice, but ugly with hideous creatures in them. The horrible sounds filled his mind. 'NO!' he screamed mentally. This was not happening!! It did not happen!! None of these things. But, just like the good images, these passed too quickly to be truly understood. However, this time he did not mind that he missed most of the content of the memories, their evil feel was too much for him as it was.
Just then a particularly nasty figure jumped out at him from one of the pictures. "NO!" Estel screamed. He was lost in pain. He could not understand how the pain could be both outside and inside him at once. It was just too much to bear, he would surely split in two. He could not keep the screams of pure agony in any longer. "NO! NO! NO!" was all he could think of to scream.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Elrond's head snapped up at the first sounds of distress from Estel. "Ion nin" Elrond inquired gently.
"NO!"
"Estel, ion, wake! It is alright, fear not you are safe." Elrond said soothingly while shaking his son gently to rouse him.
"NO! NO! NO!" Estel kept screaming over and over again.
"ESTEL! Please!!! Wake, all is well, and you are safe tithen pen!" Elrond was pleading with his youngest now.
All the noise brought both twins crashing into the room. "ADA! What is the matter?" Elladan cried as he rushed into the room. "Estel?!" Elrohir cried in desperation.
Both rushed to their brother's side, and looked at their father questioningly. "What is the matter with him????" Elrohir's voice was bordering on desperation with this question.
Elrond suddenly wondered how much more they all could take. Nothing seemed to be going correctly, and it seemed things just kept going from bad to worse, and it was wearing on them all.
Elrond was swiftly shaken out of his small reverie by his twin sons tapping him lightly. He quickly snapped to attention and stated: "He is caught in dreams my sons, we must wake him before he injures himself or tares the stitches."
Before any of them could say a word, or make a move Estel sat bolt up his eyes wide pools of pure terror. He was writhing pitifully, screaming, and trying to escape some unseen foe.
Elrond quickly scooped up the small boy into his arms. "Hush ion nin awartha i meath,(my son abandon the fight) you are safe." Elrond's tone bordered on desperation, as he pleaded for his youngest to hear him and truly come back to them.
Slowly the young human began to calm down and his screams quieted and his racking sobs slowed to a silent stream of tears that flowed from his silver eyes.
Elrond was whispering soothing words of comfort in elvish to the frightened boy, while the twins watched lending their silent support. They did not understand their little brother's fear, but then again they were elves, and did not dream as humans did. They had heard that the dreams of mortals could seem very real, so they assumed that was what this was about.
"Feel better now ion nin?" Elrond questioned after a bit.
Confused silver eyes met Elrond's grey ones. "Ion nin?" Estel questioned quietly the words rolling off of his tongue as though he had never spoken them before. "What does that mean sir?" he asked.
Had Estel been himself the looks of surprise he got from this question would have amused him for years to come. All of them were staring at him with open mouthed surprise that is very hard to come by in elves.
"What are you saying Estel?" Elrohir asked quietly. "And why do you call Ada sir?" Elladan questioned.
"Ada? What is ada?" the young one asked again.
"Estel? What are you speaking of my son? That 'tis elvish." Elrond stated quietly, confusion and hurt flashing in his eyes and face at his youngest sons words.
"Elvish, why would I speak elvish, I am no elf, at least I don't think I am. Your son???" Confusion was written all over Estel's face. "What is estel? It sounds elvish too."
"Estel this is not funny!" Elladan suddenly cried.
The harsh voice startled the boy and he quickly seemed to shrink, he curled in on himself and tried to pull away from all into a tight ball. However, Elrond would not let him, he held on to his son tight. "I do not think he is playing Elladan!" Elrohir cried with despair, "he truly does not know who he is, or who we are!"
TBC.......
Well there it is!
*goes to hide and await angry emails and flames*
A/N: A HUGE thanks to d-chan and Cor for this!! Also, thanks to Rhonda!! I love our late night chats!! They inspire me to keep writing!! Thanks girl! *sigh* also have to thank Sparx and Rhonda for this chapter!!! They sent me this plot bunny at like 1:30 AM! *sigh* but thanx!! I loves ya both! *huggles*
Title: Lost Hope
Rating:R
Summary: Feeling ignored and unwanted a young Estel decides to go out on a hunting trip by himself.
Steffi: Thank you for the compliments!!! Germany huh?? Way across the ocean!! Thank you so much for your review! Hope you continue to enjoy!
Maverickgirl: Yes, it is killing them! Lol! Part of the fun! Thanks for reviewing!
Iawen Londea: lol! No he doesn't remember. *raises eyebrow at threats* ok this from the person who made everyone believe Elladan had shot Elrohir???? Ummhmmm
Anime Elvengirl: *grins* thanks!!! I am glad you like, and don't mind cliffies too much! Still a few left!
Aemilia Rose: Sorry for the delay! I have my bunnies back now and I don't think they are going anywhere!! Hope you continue to enjoy!
littlesaiyangirl:*rubs arm from pinch* lol! Sorry for the length. It is SO hard for me to write long chapters for some reason, but I will try for your sake! Thanks for the review!
Firniswin: Ok ok! No need to get violent! More is here! Lol! Hope you continue to enjoy!
Eryn Lasgalen: Thank you so much for the compliments! *blushes* gee. Hope you continue to enjoy!
Arifel: *ducks rotten vegetables* eep! Lol!! And no worries on spelling, I can't spell to save my life!!! If I didn't have spell check I would just die! Lol! Thanks for the review!
Astronema: Thanks for the review! I love pain too!! You have lost your memory??? I'm sorry that's terrible! Hope you enjoy this chapter as well!
Kitty: thank you so much for all the kind words!!! Hope you continue to enjoy this!
To everyone: I broke 40 reviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! *does happy dance* THANK YOU ALL!!!!!! *huggles all reviewers*
IMPORTANT NOTE: Ok guys. Have to warn you of an upcoming change in this fic. I am changing the rating from PG-13 to R. Now the reason isnt' here yet, but in future chapters there is going to be some brutal references to torture, and even some implied rape. I am sorry that I did not rate this story appropriately to start with, but I didn't know it was going to take this direction till I got here. I hope that this does not scare too many of you off. If it does I am sorry!! *goes to cower from angry readers*
Chapter 10
~*~*~*~*~*~
Morning had dawned once more upon the peaceful valley of Imaldris. This sunrise found Elrond in the room of his youngest once more, along with the twins. The twins were stirring already, as the morning sunshine danced across their faces. They both looked to their father. No words were needed between them.
Elrond motioned and they left Estel's room and headed for Elrond's study, there they could talk without worrying about disturbing Estel. Once there all seated themselves comfortably, and Elladan asked the question that had been troubling him, and his twin, since the night before.
"Ada, will he, be the same when he awakens?" he asked hesitantly.
Elrond looked sympathetically upon his sons. He knew that they were both thinking of their mother and how orcs had ruined her spirit. To tell the truth, his wife was not far from his mind, because of the similarity of the situation, and Elrond feared the answer to this question, for he himself did not know.
"I do not know ion nin." he said finally. "It is clear the orcs tortured him, and we saw to what extent physically, however how deep the mental went, I do not know. We will just have to wait till he awakens and see."
None of them were satisfied with this answer, but the twins understood that their father knew no more than they did.
"At least he is on the mend physically, take some solace in that ion nin. His body is strong, we must have hope that his spirit is just as strong." Elrond finished, trying to infuse his sons with hope. "Now, why don't the two of you go down to breakfast, and then clean up some. I will look after Estel." it was not a request, and both obeyed their father without question or protest. Elrond watched his sons leave and tried to find some of the hope that he had given his children.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~ He was floating. It was a wonderful experience, not nearly as scary as he thought it might be. Everything was peaceful, there was no pain, there was simply nothing. However, it seemed this blissful state would not last forever.
He began to "fall" if you could call it falling. It seemed as though he was spiraling downward unendingly. However, now he had feeling and he was no longer in blissful dark, but pictures memories, he guessed, were swirling with him. It was so frustrating because before he could truly get a handle, or process the information that picture was gone and replaced by another. Most of the pictures were nice, beautiful scenes, with friendly looking people in them.
Then the pictures changed. Suddenly, the pictures were no longer nice, but ugly with hideous creatures in them. The horrible sounds filled his mind. 'NO!' he screamed mentally. This was not happening!! It did not happen!! None of these things. But, just like the good images, these passed too quickly to be truly understood. However, this time he did not mind that he missed most of the content of the memories, their evil feel was too much for him as it was.
Just then a particularly nasty figure jumped out at him from one of the pictures. "NO!" Estel screamed. He was lost in pain. He could not understand how the pain could be both outside and inside him at once. It was just too much to bear, he would surely split in two. He could not keep the screams of pure agony in any longer. "NO! NO! NO!" was all he could think of to scream.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Elrond's head snapped up at the first sounds of distress from Estel. "Ion nin" Elrond inquired gently.
"NO!"
"Estel, ion, wake! It is alright, fear not you are safe." Elrond said soothingly while shaking his son gently to rouse him.
"NO! NO! NO!" Estel kept screaming over and over again.
"ESTEL! Please!!! Wake, all is well, and you are safe tithen pen!" Elrond was pleading with his youngest now.
All the noise brought both twins crashing into the room. "ADA! What is the matter?" Elladan cried as he rushed into the room. "Estel?!" Elrohir cried in desperation.
Both rushed to their brother's side, and looked at their father questioningly. "What is the matter with him????" Elrohir's voice was bordering on desperation with this question.
Elrond suddenly wondered how much more they all could take. Nothing seemed to be going correctly, and it seemed things just kept going from bad to worse, and it was wearing on them all.
Elrond was swiftly shaken out of his small reverie by his twin sons tapping him lightly. He quickly snapped to attention and stated: "He is caught in dreams my sons, we must wake him before he injures himself or tares the stitches."
Before any of them could say a word, or make a move Estel sat bolt up his eyes wide pools of pure terror. He was writhing pitifully, screaming, and trying to escape some unseen foe.
Elrond quickly scooped up the small boy into his arms. "Hush ion nin awartha i meath,(my son abandon the fight) you are safe." Elrond's tone bordered on desperation, as he pleaded for his youngest to hear him and truly come back to them.
Slowly the young human began to calm down and his screams quieted and his racking sobs slowed to a silent stream of tears that flowed from his silver eyes.
Elrond was whispering soothing words of comfort in elvish to the frightened boy, while the twins watched lending their silent support. They did not understand their little brother's fear, but then again they were elves, and did not dream as humans did. They had heard that the dreams of mortals could seem very real, so they assumed that was what this was about.
"Feel better now ion nin?" Elrond questioned after a bit.
Confused silver eyes met Elrond's grey ones. "Ion nin?" Estel questioned quietly the words rolling off of his tongue as though he had never spoken them before. "What does that mean sir?" he asked.
Had Estel been himself the looks of surprise he got from this question would have amused him for years to come. All of them were staring at him with open mouthed surprise that is very hard to come by in elves.
"What are you saying Estel?" Elrohir asked quietly. "And why do you call Ada sir?" Elladan questioned.
"Ada? What is ada?" the young one asked again.
"Estel? What are you speaking of my son? That 'tis elvish." Elrond stated quietly, confusion and hurt flashing in his eyes and face at his youngest sons words.
"Elvish, why would I speak elvish, I am no elf, at least I don't think I am. Your son???" Confusion was written all over Estel's face. "What is estel? It sounds elvish too."
"Estel this is not funny!" Elladan suddenly cried.
The harsh voice startled the boy and he quickly seemed to shrink, he curled in on himself and tried to pull away from all into a tight ball. However, Elrond would not let him, he held on to his son tight. "I do not think he is playing Elladan!" Elrohir cried with despair, "he truly does not know who he is, or who we are!"
TBC.......
Well there it is!
*goes to hide and await angry emails and flames*