Fractured Dreams

Chapter 3: Revelations

Thankyou for the kind reviews. And please don't ask me whether to make it a RxT or TxT fic. Just wait for the ending which will come soon (I did say this going to be short). Please do not kill me at the end though.

Tsukushi woke up the next morning in Rui's bed. Alone. She could not remember how she got there. The last thing she remembered was crying in Rui's arms as she tells her everything that had happen. How she and Doumyouji drifted apart and the reason why did she ended up in Hokkaido.

I could not handle the fact that the person I loved most has become a stranger to me.

Rui had comforted her. He kept telling her that she would be safe there. "I will take care of you. Soon, everything will be right."

Tsukushi knew that she'll only end up troubling Rui. If Doumyouji finds out that she went to Rui, all hell will break loose. Tsukushi knew that Doumyouji always have this suspicion that she was still in love with Rui. She always told him that there was nothing between them anymore. But now, at that moment she was back in Rui's arms, she felt unsure. She has been always confused about her feelings towards Rui. Moreover, now that she was here so close to him.

Doumyouji.. I'm sorry.

Was she selfish? Was she being unfair to him? All these time, why was she's so fickle with the matters of the heart? Tsukushi got out of bed and realised that she was wearing a different shirtdress. She looked around her and spotted a pile of her clothes at the corner.

Did he changed my clothes? Did anything happened last night? Was I drunk? How come I can't remember?

Tsukushi grabbed a blanket and wrap it around her as she got out of the room. She then found Rui sleeping soundly on the couch in front of the fireplace. Relieved, she went a step closer. Staring at his angelic face, she wondered what possessed this man to wait for her all this time.

Lightly, she kissed him on the lips.

Thankyou for being there for me.

Rui always was the perfect guy she always dreamt. Have always been.

But I'm not worthy your love.

Tsukushi got up and was about to go to the kitchen to cook some breakfast when she was struck by a sudden bout of dizziness. She felt nauseous and weak. Her forehead started to burn up. Tsukushi grabbed a chair to steady herself but that could not stop that throbbing pain in her head. She felt like throwing up.

Crash..

Awaken by the sudden noise, Rui immediately got up. He then saw Tsukushi sprawled on the floor. He jumped up and rushed beside her.

" Tsukushi.. oh my.. you're burning up." He grabbed the phone and started calling the doctor.

In Tokyo.

" Sir.. we receive reports that Mrs Doumyouji was seen in a train going towards the north. Most probably, to Hokkaido."

Hokkaido.. Could it be?

" Sir.."
" Continue tracking her down. In a meantime, send for people to Hanazawa residence. Find out where their young master Rui is. And you better hurry up before I kill you guys.."

Doumyouji could feel his temper rising.

No... it couldn't... she wouldn't.. But where else could she be but with Rui.. Isn't it always to Rui she runs to..?

Doumyouji felt so betrayed. Yet so helpless. How could she do this to him?

If they were indeed together... Dear god.. I'll kill them both.

In Hokkaido.

The doctor just finished examining Tsukushi.

" Congratulation, Hanazawa-san. You're a new father.."
" Father.. what? You mean..."
" Yes, that young lady is pregnant. From what I assessed, most probably it's already 4 months old."

Rui was speechless.

She was carrying Doumyouji's child.

He immediately went back to her side as soon as the doctor left. Tsukushi was in bed, staring at him blankly as he burst in.

" How come you didn't tell me? Did Doumyouji know this?" She shook her head.
" I discovered it last week. I had wanted to tell him. But.."
" But what.."

Flashback.. Tsukushi was calling him on the phone. His secretary repeatedly put her on hold.

Every night, he always get back really late. When she suggested dinner together, he would give excuses of some function he has to attend.

" It made me feel that I was nothing to him. Here I eagerly wanted to tell him that we were going to have a child together but he did not even care enough to listen. If he does not care for me now, would he care when the baby comes. Or will this child suffers the same fate as I do?"
" That was the real reason you left?"
" I needed time to think."
" You should tell him."
" But how? I felt that. he was so far away from me, Rui. Tell me how!" Rui hushed her and pulled her in deep embrace.

His body was so warm. A soothing kind of warmth that she longed to feel when she was with Doumyouji.

" Rui.. don't leave me."
" I won't."

Hesitantly, he kissed her on the forehead. He only wanted to comfort her. But that kiss led to another kiss. And the embrace grew tighter. Rui touched her cheeks gently.

" Tsukushi..." he whispered as he kissed her lips. Tsukushi sighed and wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him closer. Rui shifted his weight on top of her. He groaned as he rained kisses down her throat. He could feel Tsukushi's nails digging into his back.

"This is wrong, Rui. Please stop..."
" Just let me... once." He swiftly unbuttons Tsukushi's shirt. She moaned as his hands slide down her ribs and caress her breast. He breathed to her ears, "I waited for you too long. Just once..." Tsukushi did not reply. She couldn't.

What am I doing?

She knows that she's betraying Doumyouji but her body can't help responding.

I'm sorry, Doumyouji.

The night proved to be very long.

The next morning, Rui was awakened by constant thumping on the door. Dazed, he reluctantly went to the door. The moment he unlocked it, the door slammed open. He was thrown backwards by the force of it. Then, a few SPs barged in.

" Doumyouji..."
" Rui..."

Then, Tsukushi called him out.. " Rui. who was it?"

Doumyouji turned towards the voice.

Tsukushi... I found you.

Then, he saw her shirtdress half unbuttoned and she was not wearing any pants. Then, he saw Rui. He was wearing only pants -- the exact matching pants. Both were just out of bed, disheveled and alone in this cabin. Doumyouji immediately understood. Looking at Tsukushi, he hissed," I should have guessed."

Anger started to rage inside of him. Tsukushi upon realising the situation tried to explain, " It's not what you think.."
" Tsu... tell me one thing... Did you or did you not sleep with Rui?" Tsukushi looked away.

" Tell me!" Rui got up and tried to calm Doumyouji down but Doumyouji pushed him away. Doumyouji confronted her. Tsukushi turned her back against him, not daring to look at him in the eye.

" Tsukushi..."
"I don't know how or why but... I need you to listen."
" Stop this bull shit. Tell me! Tell me if this is the reason you left! Were you having an affair with Rui?"

He turned to Rui, " My so called best friend. The one I chose to be my best man at my own wedding now plotting to steal my bride away from me." Doumyouji glared at him. Advancing towards Rui, he yelled, "I trusted you and this is what I get?"

Alarmed, Tsukushi dragged Doumyouji away from Rui.
" We were not having an affair!" Glaring at her, he shouted, "Then, why are you here? Tsukushi, tell me the truth. Did you or did you not sleep with Rui?"
" Does it matter...?"
" Of course! You're my woman! No one can touch you but me."

Her eyes were filled with tears.

To him, I am only a possession.

"How could you, Rui?" he roared.
" Doumyouji... I..."
"Move!" Doumyouji shoved Tsukushi away. Rui yelled for him to stop but the very next moment, Doiumyouji's fist hit Rui's jaw and sent him toppling backwards. At the same time, Tsukushi fell down to the floor. Her abdomen hit the corner of the side table. A shooting pain throbbed through her. Struggling to fight the pain, she screamed for Doumyouji to stop pummeling Rui. Rui, on the other hand, did not retaliate even one bit.

I deserve this.

" Tsukasa!" she shouted... The SPs rushed beside her. "Mistress.. you're bleeding." She then fiercely said, "Grab Master Doumyouji right now. That's an order."
" But we..."
"Now before he end up murdering Hanazawa!" The pain became much more excruciating by the minute. Her vision started to blur. The blood pooled underneath her... "Now... Before I..." she whispered weakly.

Overcome with rage, Doumyouji charged repeatedly towards Rui like a deranged bull. The SPs grabbed hold of him and held him back. Rui fell to the floor with a thud. Doumyouji trashed against the SPs as they struggle to get him under control. Just then, he saw her. Sprawled in a pool of blood, she was half deliriously calling Doumyouji's name.

Rui looked up and saw her at the same time. Immediately, he screamed for ambulance. Enraged, he yelled at Doumyouji, " How could you do that to her?" Doumyouji just stared blankly at quicklygot up, half limping in pain but he managed to bend down and scooped Tsukushi into his arms.

"She is pregnant.. If you kill her or the baby, I would not forgive you. With god as the witness, I'll track you down and make you pay."

Rui carried Tsukushi out towards the car. The SPs let him through. All of them were staring at Doumyouji who obviously were so stunned by the news.

Tsukushi's pregnant? It can't be. She did not tell me anything.

Or did she? Just then, he started to remember.

Flashback to the week before.. Like usual, he was really late from work. He was changing into his night clothes when Tsukushi woke up.

" You're home?"
" Yeah.. That dinner at Kagarazaki's place went longer than what I expected."
" Hmm.. I guessed it so. "

Silent...

" Tsukasa.. I.. went to the hospital today."
" You're sick? You could have asked Tama to call for the family doctor."
" It was not really bad. I just feel easily fatigued nowadays that I just wondered.." Right then, Doumyouji threw himself in bed. " Whatever it is, you're fine right."
" Yes, I am fine. It's just that."
" Then.. Good night. I am pretty tired today. Whatever that is you want to tell me, it can wait tomorrow. Right?"

He went straight to sleep.

The next day... at the office.. His secretary paged in telling him that Tsukushi was on Line 1. "Tell her I call her back later."

Did he called back? Doumyouji can't remember. Right then, he realized that he really had been neglecting her. No, he actually has realized it a long time ago. But he cannot do anything.

If I do not work hard, I could not provide for the life that she wants.

He truly believes in that. He also believes that Tsukushi was the one who did not appreciate what he was doing. She even betrayed him by seeing Rui behind his back.

Then, he suddenly had a really nasty thought.

What if the child's not even mine?
Tsukushi was not about to tell him that she was pregnant with his child.
She wanted to tell him that the child was Rui's.

And that was the reason she ended up not telling him, left him and went all the way to Hokkaido.

To reunite with the person she truly loved. Her first love. My best friend. Hanazawa Rui.

Hope you all like this chapter. Personally, it's a very intense chapter to me. BTW, if you think that Doumyouji and Rui were being OOC, I just wanted to remind you that this is Doumyouji after 4 (actually 5) years of handling the ruthless business world and being under his mother's tutelage. His character in this story is very much akin to his mother. With Rui, I just thought that after a few years, perhaps he learnt that he should be more aggressive to have what he wants.

Next: Last chapter.. a lot of choices to be made. Will their marriage survive this ordeal? Stay tuned for the next chapter.