Summery: After Rory said she wouldn't go away with him, Jess went back to his apartment in New York. One shot

Disclaimer: I own nothing but my imagination because I'm a poor so please don't sue.

Jess sat laid in his bed in his dirty, tiny New York apartment. A picture of a girl rests in his hands. He looked tired and upset with his tear stained face. He felt that way too. He has been this way for weeks. Just sitting there staring into space or braking down into tears. 'That's what I've become.' Jess thought to himself 'Weak and pathetic' He missed her that what put him in this mood. He wanted her back but knew he couldn't ever get her back. He wanted her to love him, not bag boy. He wanted to feel her lips on his. He wanted the only person he ever could get close to back. He never got close to anyone before. His friends were always high. His mother was always drunk. His father left them when he was first born. His uncle wanted to get close to him like a father, but by that time he had been too rebellious and scared of getting close to someone he just blew him off. But never Rory. She always listened to him and never thought he was stupid or weird. He hated him self so much at the second. His looks gave him nothing but cheap girls tat he tried to get Rory back with. He hated his brain for thinking the idea of leaving and he hated his heart for being so cold. He heard a car crash out side and that pulled him out of his thoughts but he didn't look up. He didn't care anymore about the outside world only his little world which sucks at the moment. He wants all this pain to stop fast. He saw his way out he got up for the first time in days. He walked over to the sink and picked up a knife and cut him self on the wrist. He sat down back against the counter and made another cut. Now blood was flowing fast down his arm. He reached over and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and scribble something before he passed out.

A couple of hours later Rory walked in and found jess just lying there. Next to him lay a picture of her and a piece of paper. She picked it up and read it.

Rory,

I can't continue this life without you. I hurt you so much and I'm gonna hurt myself as much. Please forgive me for every thing. I will always love you. -Jess