Doppelganger

I don't own the Titans

Author's Note- nevermoretheraven: When I say "looked up to" I mean admires. I think raven admires Starfire in the sense of how innocent and kind she is; heh, I put that her fav food was Ice cream as a sort of throw forward to "Birthmark". You know that part where she say's "We're going to need ice cream, lots of ice cream." While she drinks tea, she doesn't do it as often in the show as fan fic writers make her out to. Lots of ppl suggest she loves tea because she refused food when BB offered it to her. I think the only reason she refused him that day was because she wasn't in the mood for food. She was working through a tough time, and just wasn't hungry. I think it was/is something that is calming to her…but not necessarily her fav thing…though all of this is just speculation on my part.

The Terra bashing in this chapter isn't b/c I don't like Terra, it's simply to show Dorinda's hatred of the girl…in actuality, I'm quite indifferent about Terra.

Chapter 6 – The Obstacles

The Titan's day started early. Cyborg had recently come up with an obstacle course and he was eager to get the Titans to try it out. Doppelganger watched greedily from one of the window. She was tired of standing on the outside of Beast Boy's life. She would have given her left arm to be able to reveal herself to him. As badly as she wanted him to see her, her instincts forbade it. The fear of rejection burned bright. Somehow she couldn't shake the memory of the fear in her father's eyes as he lifted her off the ground and tried to take her away.

Doppelganger watched absentmindedly as Cyborg finished his run through the course. "Booya!" He called out, "New course record!"

Raven was naturally the first to dampen his spirits, "Well, yeah. You're the first one to do the course."

Robin cut off Cyborg before he could fume at Raven's comment, "Okay, Terra! Ready to show us what you can do?"

Terra was terrified, but she nodded stiffly and stepped forward to the starting line. Doppelganger watch slightly annoyed as Beast Boy tried to make her feel better.

"Countdown initiated! Good luck, Terra." Robin informed her. She made a few quick stretches to calm her nerves. Doppelganger watched, slightly amused. 'I hope she falls flat on her face…that'll show Beast Boy what an idiot she is.' The countdown finally reached zero and the obstacle course began its run. Lasers shot at Terra, and she narrowly avoided them by causing the ground beneath her to shoot upwards into a column. Within moments the column had disintegrated, but instead of falling on her face like Doppelganger had so hoped, she came flying out of the dust on a large boulder. From there on she flies through the obstacle course with toddler-like precision. It's obvious to anyone with eyes that Terra's control is completely lacking. Doppelganger smirked at her rival… 'Robin won't stand for this; she'll be kicked out of their lives within the next hour. Terra you're making this too easy.' Doppelganger had originally thought that she would actually have to expose Terra's little secret, but from what she was seeing Terra was doing a fine job of it herself. This would be easier than she thought.

As Terra comes to a skidding stop at the end of the course, the Titan's give her an unexpected reaction. Instead of shunning her out of control ramble through the course, they all scream praises at her. 'Were those losers not watching? Or was I the only one to notice that she's completely out of control?' Doppelganger's anger flared into a full blown blaze as she watched Terra wrap her arms around Beast Boy's neck. 'That harlot! That uncontrollable witch! How could she?' Doppelganger was barely keeping herself away from scratching her way through the glass. Beast Boy melted at Terra's touch. Anyone with eyes could see he was completely taken with her. 'What does she have that I don't?' Doppelganger asked herself angrily. A quiet voice in the back of her mind answered her, 'She has a personality, she's not afraid to take risks…she has a life.' Doppelganger gulped hard at this realization. A personality was what she lacked. She didn't have likes, and dislikes. There were no mannerisms in her life…she really didn't have much of a life. She lived from day to day, from one disguise to another. Finally she began to realize that disguises were that she was. She didn't have a personality of her own, a life of her own…she didn't even have her own reflection…she was a nothing…she was merely a shadow of some other person's life. Hot angry tears threatened to expose themselves from behind her eyes, and her throat clenched into an unrelenting knot. The truth hurt. She envied Terra with her happy-go-lucky attitude. She envied Raven with her self confidence. For the first time in Dorinda's life she finally began to realize what she lacked…she was an empty shell-suddenly, her instincts interrupted her thoughts. Her mind began to rationalize her shortcomings. 'You can't have a personality or mannerisms…if you did then they would interfere with your ability to disguise yourself as someone else. You were born this way…you were meant to be this way.' For the first time in her life, she began to doubt that being a doppelganger was the best thing…

While Doppelganger's thoughts had been plaguing her, the Titans had found a reason to come back inside. Doppelganger barely had enough time to get back into her hiding place before Robin and the rest of the team came bursting in the door. A man's picture materialized on the large screen in the meeting room. The man's face was covered in a black and green mask. "Slade" Robin said, his voice filled with contempt. "He's back."

Terra looked at Beast Boy obviously as confused as Doppelganger was, "Whose Slade?"

"Bad guy. Way bad." Beast Boy replied back to her.

"I've got a fix on his location! Titan's GO!" Robin shouted as he ran out of the room. The others followed, but Terra hung back. Doppelganger's instincts took over again and she willed the blonde girl to stay. If she stayed there was a better chance of being able to kill her and take her place while the Titans were gone. Beast Boy stopped just short of the door. "Hey, are you coming or what?" Terra smiled back at him. She ran over and took his arm. They ran from the room in obvious glee. Doppelganger's eyes narrowed. She couldn't…wouldn't leave those two alone. Dorinda would eat her own skin before she allowed this harpy to take Beast Boy away from her.

I hope you're enjoying this fic. I know its not exactly the conventional fic...especially because the main character is evil and the story actually goes exactly along with the show's storyline...but I have to say I'm having a lot of fun with it. Even if everyone hates it, I'm going to continue, simply because I need to get this story out of my head once and for all. It may be a little while before I make an update. I've got a lot of fan art pics to color and post online, and I've got like 10 tests to study for this up coming week...that and I've come across a new obsession - Fullmetal Alchemist (which is on Adult Swim at 11:30pm East.).