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story. Arigato (bows slightly at the audience) Onward with the story.
YaY!!!
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Aya pulls up to Anshi's house and Anshi gets out of the car and pulls her school jacket tightly against her petite form. The air outside was a bit chilly, but then again it was January.
Anshi bows at the blonde haired girl. "Thanks for the drive home; I really appreciate it."
Aya smiles brightly. "Oh anytime Anshi-chan, it was my pleasure." Aya started to drive off before stating to the violet-haired girl. "And Anshi, don't be mad at Tenjou-san, I think she was just having a bad day.
Anshi just smiled and waved at her before hurrying into the house.
Anshi entered the house and into the kitchen. She noticed there were 2 messages on the answering machine. She pushed the button to listen to the responses.
Message1: Hello Anshi-chan it's your father. I am going to be late getting home. I have to meet with some students. Sorry dear. You can order take out or whatever you want for dinner. See you around 8:30 pm.
Message 2: Hey Anshi-chan!!! ---Anshi cringed a bit at the overly excited voice of Wakaba. "My god she is so genki," Anshi mumbled.
Message 2 continues: We need to talk about what you're gonna wear on your date with Miki-kun! Oh and Utena's was acting weird today so we need to talk about that as well..... call me!
Anshi sighed and walked upstairs to her bedroom. She wasn't sure if she wanted to go on a date with Miki. To her it felt so weird and she was worried about Utena for some odd reason.
She got undress and crashed on her bed just wearing her under garments. "I am so confused. Why do I get the feeling Utena is avoiding me?" Anshi pondered before closing her eyes.
{'Where am I? Anshi was laying on a concrete platform in broad daylight. She stood up and notice there was nothing else around. She glanced down at her attire. Why am I wearing a red dress? This feels so familiar. She looked around the arena and noticed there was stairs to her right. She walked towards them.'}
{'There were faint foot steps moving up the spiral staircase. Maybe that's someone who can tell why I am here. Anshi moved down the staircase a bit further to intercept the person who was approaching. She got a glimpse of a dark blue or maybe black uniform she really couldn't tell. When all of a sudden ..'}
Ring...ring...
Anshi awoke from her dream state. "What the heck."
"Oh it's the phone." The violet haired girl grabbed the cordless phone from her nightstand.
"Hello." "Anshi, why didn't you call me back? I know you got my message."
"Sorry Wakaba, I was meaning to. I lay down for a few seconds and dozed off." Anshi apologized.
"No big deal. So are you going out with Miki or not. If so we need to pick out some clothes for your date. I am so excited!!"
Anshi sighed deeply. "I don't know Wakaba-chan. I really feel weird about going out with Miki-kun. I mean he is nice and all but..." Wakaba interrupted.
"No Anshi! You have to go out with him, I mean this is the first girl bonding thing I've had. Utena never care about stuff like this," Wakaba pouts.
"About Utena, she didn't even walk home with me today," Anshi voice lowers with a hint of sadness.
"Well I think our little strawberry-blonde friend is just jealous."
"What? I mean why?" Anshi eyes furrowed with curiosity.
Wakaba sighed deeply before stating. "Well I caught up with her in the hallway after lunch and she was acting really distracted."
"Anshi...Wakaba voiced calmed down a bit...can I ask you something?"
"Sure you can ask me anything?"
"Is there something going on between..." Wakaba paused. She wasn't sure if she should ask that sort of question or more importantly Anshi would probably deny her feelings, just as Utena did this past afternoon.
"I didn't quite get what you were asking me Wakaba-chan," Anshi said breaking her from her deep thoughts.
"Uhmm....yeah..I just wanted to know if you are going to call Utena?" Wakaba changed her mind.
Anshi started playing with her long luxurious lavender hair thinking of what to say. She really wanted to scold Utena for being such an extremist at times, but there was something else in her heart, a feeling of being actually hurt by Utena actions, which really confused her.
"I think I'll give her a call." Anshi smiled.
"Yeah I think that would be good." Wakaba knew there was something going on between her two best friends she could tell in Anshi's voice.
"Well I think I am gonna go now. I have to help my mom with dinner."
"Sure okay Wakaba." Anshi seated up in her bed.
"Oh and go easy on Tenjou-kun!" Wakaba shouted before hanging up.
"I will and take care."
{Elsewhere....}
Utena was laying in her bed clad in a blue sports bra and black Nike athletic pants. Her bed was cluttered with biology notes and books. Yet she wasn't really in the studying mood. Matter of fact she's never in the mood to study. But she was trying to be more studious, because if she fails any course she will be kicked off the basketball team and her teammates wouldn't like that. Hell she was the team captain.
Utena was lost in thought. She had forgone her studying and now she was laying on her bed facing the headboard of her bed tossing her basketball against the wall continuously. She kept throwing it, catching it, throwing it, catching it. She had been doing this for the past 30 minutes.
"What is the matter with me, I need to stop thinking about her and study." Utena caught the ball and held it against her chest.
"She probably hates me now for not waiting for her after school today anyway."
"Damn it! Why am I so attracted to her anyways?" Utena yelped and tossed the basketball against the wall hard.
"I am so weird...she sighs..and clueless...and...and wish someone would just fall from the sky and give me the answers," Utena held her left hand across her face. There was something branded there on her hand. She took a better look at her ring finger, yet she hadn't noticed before. But there it was a faint ring tan mark on her ring finger. It was lighter than the rest of her vanilla skin. She analyzed it carefully, with a confused expression.
"Where did this come from? I don't remember wearing any ring? Or did I?" Utena grumbled under her breath. "Think Tenjou...ahhh...I am getting a headache.."
{Knock...knock...}
There was a knock on her bedroom door. Utena slapped her hand against her face.
"Come in."
The older woman walked in the room. "Utena-chan you have a phone call." She hands the pink-haired girl the phone.
"Thanks auntie."
"And Utena...would you please stop tossing that ball against the wall. It's very irritating." The woman said before walking out of the room.
"Sorry auntie."
"Hello, Tenjou here."
"Hi Utena-chan," a bright blush crosses Utena's cheeks at the sound of Anshi's voice.
"Oh Anshi-chan it's you..I wasn't expecting you to call."
"Yeah well I was just worried about you, since you didn't meet with me after school today." Anshi smiled one of those sad smiles.
"Oh I am sorry. I was just having a bad day is all, I won't do it again," Utena apologized.
"Its okay, Aya told me you were having a bad day so you don't have to apologize."
"So what are you doing?" Anshi asked. ~Thinking about you mostly~ Utena wanted to say but didn't dare. "I am kind of studying sort of. You know for my makeup test." Utena glanced at her Biology book.
"Oh do you want me to come over and help you study?" ~Not really. I don't think I would be able to concentrate with you here~ Utena thought with a faint blush.
"Thanks for the offer but I think I'll be fine. Maybe you can come over this weekend and help me." Utena suggested.
"Okay, that's sounds good." "So Anshi, are you going to...uhmmm..Utena started to rub her eyebrows..go on the date with Miki-kun?" Utena hoping she says no.
Anshi bit her lip before replying. "Do you think I should go out with him?"
Utena started idly rubbing her branded left ring finger. ~Does she really want me answer this question~ "Sigh..well if you want to go. I mean he seems like a nice guy, and you two have a lot in common." Utena rolled her eyes as she spoke.
"Well if you think it's a good idea, perhaps it won't be so bad." Anshi answered but in actually a side of her wanted Utena to protest.
They were both quite for a moment. Not really sure what to say next. Utena spoke first cutting through the unusual silence between them.
"Hey Himemiya..have you every felt like you didn't quite belong...Utena furrowed her eyebrows a bit...like something was missing or maybe different about yourself?"
Anshi started staring at the ceiling. ~Why is Utena asking me this question~ "Well yes to be honest, I feel that way all the time, like I don't belong in this world."
Anshi turned on her back. "You know sometimes..never mind it's nothing..its kind of silly anyway."
"No tell me I want to know your thoughts," Utena offered. "Well if you want to know...I don't usually talk about such things so don't laugh okay?
"I won't," Utena smiled.
Anshi sighs. "Sometimes I have weird dreams, very strange surreal images about castles and arenas and cars..I don't know they are just strange dreams. But when I am there in the dream world, I feel like I somehow belong."
Utena expression grows blank. "This castle in your dream is it upside- down?"
"Yes..how did you know?" Anshi looked puzzled on how she guessed.
"Well because I have dreams about an upside-down castle sometimes and a rose garden and ..I can't remember."
"Weird huh?" Anshi adds.
"Yeah I guess," Utena starts scratching her finger.
"Hey Himemiya." "Huh?"
"Nevermind..I think I should study some more. I'll see you tomorrow then."
"Sure Utena, but before you go..why do you keep calling me Himemiya and not Anshi?"
"I did? I hadn't noticed." Utena raised her eyebrows.
"Yeah you did it twice already?" "I am sorry I won't do it again."
"It's okay I don't really mind it at all," Anshi glanced at the clock. It was nearly 8:30pm
"Well, I should go too; otou-sama will be home soon." "Okay goodnight."
Utena clicks the phone off and stretches out on her bed. She takes a deep breath and looks at her left hand. She doesn't know it but she feels as though something important is missing in her life.
"Did I use to wear a ring?" Utena mumbles to herself. "I don't remember wearing one before." Utena closes her eyes as sleep takes over her confused mind.
To be concluded
Next Chapter 19: Lost memories and renewed reality.
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Well there goes chapter 18, YAY!!! I know it's been sometime, but hell I had a serious case of how to 'end' this story writer's block. I have been thinking of various ending to this story, so that's what been holding up my updates. Sorry folks. I am sort of still thinking 'sweat drop'. Hopefully next update won't be as long.
Aya pulls up to Anshi's house and Anshi gets out of the car and pulls her school jacket tightly against her petite form. The air outside was a bit chilly, but then again it was January.
Anshi bows at the blonde haired girl. "Thanks for the drive home; I really appreciate it."
Aya smiles brightly. "Oh anytime Anshi-chan, it was my pleasure." Aya started to drive off before stating to the violet-haired girl. "And Anshi, don't be mad at Tenjou-san, I think she was just having a bad day.
Anshi just smiled and waved at her before hurrying into the house.
Anshi entered the house and into the kitchen. She noticed there were 2 messages on the answering machine. She pushed the button to listen to the responses.
Message1: Hello Anshi-chan it's your father. I am going to be late getting home. I have to meet with some students. Sorry dear. You can order take out or whatever you want for dinner. See you around 8:30 pm.
Message 2: Hey Anshi-chan!!! ---Anshi cringed a bit at the overly excited voice of Wakaba. "My god she is so genki," Anshi mumbled.
Message 2 continues: We need to talk about what you're gonna wear on your date with Miki-kun! Oh and Utena's was acting weird today so we need to talk about that as well..... call me!
Anshi sighed and walked upstairs to her bedroom. She wasn't sure if she wanted to go on a date with Miki. To her it felt so weird and she was worried about Utena for some odd reason.
She got undress and crashed on her bed just wearing her under garments. "I am so confused. Why do I get the feeling Utena is avoiding me?" Anshi pondered before closing her eyes.
{'Where am I? Anshi was laying on a concrete platform in broad daylight. She stood up and notice there was nothing else around. She glanced down at her attire. Why am I wearing a red dress? This feels so familiar. She looked around the arena and noticed there was stairs to her right. She walked towards them.'}
{'There were faint foot steps moving up the spiral staircase. Maybe that's someone who can tell why I am here. Anshi moved down the staircase a bit further to intercept the person who was approaching. She got a glimpse of a dark blue or maybe black uniform she really couldn't tell. When all of a sudden ..'}
Ring...ring...
Anshi awoke from her dream state. "What the heck."
"Oh it's the phone." The violet haired girl grabbed the cordless phone from her nightstand.
"Hello." "Anshi, why didn't you call me back? I know you got my message."
"Sorry Wakaba, I was meaning to. I lay down for a few seconds and dozed off." Anshi apologized.
"No big deal. So are you going out with Miki or not. If so we need to pick out some clothes for your date. I am so excited!!"
Anshi sighed deeply. "I don't know Wakaba-chan. I really feel weird about going out with Miki-kun. I mean he is nice and all but..." Wakaba interrupted.
"No Anshi! You have to go out with him, I mean this is the first girl bonding thing I've had. Utena never care about stuff like this," Wakaba pouts.
"About Utena, she didn't even walk home with me today," Anshi voice lowers with a hint of sadness.
"Well I think our little strawberry-blonde friend is just jealous."
"What? I mean why?" Anshi eyes furrowed with curiosity.
Wakaba sighed deeply before stating. "Well I caught up with her in the hallway after lunch and she was acting really distracted."
"Anshi...Wakaba voiced calmed down a bit...can I ask you something?"
"Sure you can ask me anything?"
"Is there something going on between..." Wakaba paused. She wasn't sure if she should ask that sort of question or more importantly Anshi would probably deny her feelings, just as Utena did this past afternoon.
"I didn't quite get what you were asking me Wakaba-chan," Anshi said breaking her from her deep thoughts.
"Uhmm....yeah..I just wanted to know if you are going to call Utena?" Wakaba changed her mind.
Anshi started playing with her long luxurious lavender hair thinking of what to say. She really wanted to scold Utena for being such an extremist at times, but there was something else in her heart, a feeling of being actually hurt by Utena actions, which really confused her.
"I think I'll give her a call." Anshi smiled.
"Yeah I think that would be good." Wakaba knew there was something going on between her two best friends she could tell in Anshi's voice.
"Well I think I am gonna go now. I have to help my mom with dinner."
"Sure okay Wakaba." Anshi seated up in her bed.
"Oh and go easy on Tenjou-kun!" Wakaba shouted before hanging up.
"I will and take care."
{Elsewhere....}
Utena was laying in her bed clad in a blue sports bra and black Nike athletic pants. Her bed was cluttered with biology notes and books. Yet she wasn't really in the studying mood. Matter of fact she's never in the mood to study. But she was trying to be more studious, because if she fails any course she will be kicked off the basketball team and her teammates wouldn't like that. Hell she was the team captain.
Utena was lost in thought. She had forgone her studying and now she was laying on her bed facing the headboard of her bed tossing her basketball against the wall continuously. She kept throwing it, catching it, throwing it, catching it. She had been doing this for the past 30 minutes.
"What is the matter with me, I need to stop thinking about her and study." Utena caught the ball and held it against her chest.
"She probably hates me now for not waiting for her after school today anyway."
"Damn it! Why am I so attracted to her anyways?" Utena yelped and tossed the basketball against the wall hard.
"I am so weird...she sighs..and clueless...and...and wish someone would just fall from the sky and give me the answers," Utena held her left hand across her face. There was something branded there on her hand. She took a better look at her ring finger, yet she hadn't noticed before. But there it was a faint ring tan mark on her ring finger. It was lighter than the rest of her vanilla skin. She analyzed it carefully, with a confused expression.
"Where did this come from? I don't remember wearing any ring? Or did I?" Utena grumbled under her breath. "Think Tenjou...ahhh...I am getting a headache.."
{Knock...knock...}
There was a knock on her bedroom door. Utena slapped her hand against her face.
"Come in."
The older woman walked in the room. "Utena-chan you have a phone call." She hands the pink-haired girl the phone.
"Thanks auntie."
"And Utena...would you please stop tossing that ball against the wall. It's very irritating." The woman said before walking out of the room.
"Sorry auntie."
"Hello, Tenjou here."
"Hi Utena-chan," a bright blush crosses Utena's cheeks at the sound of Anshi's voice.
"Oh Anshi-chan it's you..I wasn't expecting you to call."
"Yeah well I was just worried about you, since you didn't meet with me after school today." Anshi smiled one of those sad smiles.
"Oh I am sorry. I was just having a bad day is all, I won't do it again," Utena apologized.
"Its okay, Aya told me you were having a bad day so you don't have to apologize."
"So what are you doing?" Anshi asked. ~Thinking about you mostly~ Utena wanted to say but didn't dare. "I am kind of studying sort of. You know for my makeup test." Utena glanced at her Biology book.
"Oh do you want me to come over and help you study?" ~Not really. I don't think I would be able to concentrate with you here~ Utena thought with a faint blush.
"Thanks for the offer but I think I'll be fine. Maybe you can come over this weekend and help me." Utena suggested.
"Okay, that's sounds good." "So Anshi, are you going to...uhmmm..Utena started to rub her eyebrows..go on the date with Miki-kun?" Utena hoping she says no.
Anshi bit her lip before replying. "Do you think I should go out with him?"
Utena started idly rubbing her branded left ring finger. ~Does she really want me answer this question~ "Sigh..well if you want to go. I mean he seems like a nice guy, and you two have a lot in common." Utena rolled her eyes as she spoke.
"Well if you think it's a good idea, perhaps it won't be so bad." Anshi answered but in actually a side of her wanted Utena to protest.
They were both quite for a moment. Not really sure what to say next. Utena spoke first cutting through the unusual silence between them.
"Hey Himemiya..have you every felt like you didn't quite belong...Utena furrowed her eyebrows a bit...like something was missing or maybe different about yourself?"
Anshi started staring at the ceiling. ~Why is Utena asking me this question~ "Well yes to be honest, I feel that way all the time, like I don't belong in this world."
Anshi turned on her back. "You know sometimes..never mind it's nothing..its kind of silly anyway."
"No tell me I want to know your thoughts," Utena offered. "Well if you want to know...I don't usually talk about such things so don't laugh okay?
"I won't," Utena smiled.
Anshi sighs. "Sometimes I have weird dreams, very strange surreal images about castles and arenas and cars..I don't know they are just strange dreams. But when I am there in the dream world, I feel like I somehow belong."
Utena expression grows blank. "This castle in your dream is it upside- down?"
"Yes..how did you know?" Anshi looked puzzled on how she guessed.
"Well because I have dreams about an upside-down castle sometimes and a rose garden and ..I can't remember."
"Weird huh?" Anshi adds.
"Yeah I guess," Utena starts scratching her finger.
"Hey Himemiya." "Huh?"
"Nevermind..I think I should study some more. I'll see you tomorrow then."
"Sure Utena, but before you go..why do you keep calling me Himemiya and not Anshi?"
"I did? I hadn't noticed." Utena raised her eyebrows.
"Yeah you did it twice already?" "I am sorry I won't do it again."
"It's okay I don't really mind it at all," Anshi glanced at the clock. It was nearly 8:30pm
"Well, I should go too; otou-sama will be home soon." "Okay goodnight."
Utena clicks the phone off and stretches out on her bed. She takes a deep breath and looks at her left hand. She doesn't know it but she feels as though something important is missing in her life.
"Did I use to wear a ring?" Utena mumbles to herself. "I don't remember wearing one before." Utena closes her eyes as sleep takes over her confused mind.
To be concluded
Next Chapter 19: Lost memories and renewed reality.
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Well there goes chapter 18, YAY!!! I know it's been sometime, but hell I had a serious case of how to 'end' this story writer's block. I have been thinking of various ending to this story, so that's what been holding up my updates. Sorry folks. I am sort of still thinking 'sweat drop'. Hopefully next update won't be as long.