Kagome's eyes were on the verge of tears; just how he promised her and acted like he changed but yet his mind seemed hateful and fed up with others. His chocolate brown eyes lit up like a flame in a candle, watching the sorrowful young teenage girl venture off with her hands gently pampering herself afraid her tears would fall, and he would notice them. Her long black hair swayed while she fled down the narrow hallway, that smelt like cleaner from the bathroom right across from his pitiful room. She was afraid if he even noticed his tears he wouldn't under even the slight reason as to why she was pouring her eyes out, or afraid he'd call her weak because she tried to help him but yet hurt herself once again. He could still smell the light perfume lingering in the room, watching her hatefully trail off with bitterness and hate realizing he wasn't all she thought he was.
His chocolate creamed colored eyes just weakly stared through the doorway, frozen in his thoughts in his mind. He knew he obviously didn't belong anywhere, no matter who he was with or what place he was in. Still he felt like the outsider; hated, forgotten, pitied, and defiantly unwanted. His arms spread exactly like an eagle's, plummeting in the hard mattress that felt like he was sleeping on the cold cement ground that brought him reminders of the pitiful orphanage he rotten in. " Damn her! She's always runs away, especially from me. She told me to be truthful and honest, and look what happens. She hates me;I don't blame her either. She doesn't understand, no matter where I go I'm not wanted. My mother never gave it much thought about me, and that bitchy wench claims she's my mother, but wants to get rid of me any chance she has. I don't wanna ruin her happiness, but that's all she thinks I do. I've gotta set something straight, before it gets out of hand." His eyes vaguely glanced at the cream colored ceiling, feeling guilty and the cause for all the pain and bitterness in Kagome. Inside he wanted to flee and run away; become homeless or hop on a bus hoping he could change his screwed up life from there; It seemed any better than where he was; even if he had food in his stomach, and a roof over his head. His thick hands slowly ran throw his hair frustrated, feeling the moist sweat laying against his forehead and his ink colored bangs, while his body laid uncomfortably on the hard uneasy mattress. His eyes laid tiredly, drifting slowly into sleep; something he never had for the longest time.
Kagome could feel the soft, plush white carpet underneath her feet feeling exactly like fine fur that some innocent animal died for. Her hazel eyes were shining with the still tears, feeling her heart jump into her throat and back again. She just rushed down the narrow navy blue colored hallway, and into her room flying into the beautiful silk covered bed and you could tell they were expecting her more than him, who only gotten the computer room that was never, ever used. She gazed at the beautiful pink roses that matched the pastel colored walls, watching them sit against the window sill in the beautiful glass vase. She thought he was alright now with a brand new family, and a brand new life but it seemed he didn't care for them or a new life at all. Her body laid parallel to the huge bed, sinking into the mattress, feeling her body bounce for a moment.
"He doesn't even care about anything at all. He doesn't even realize someone cares about him...and that's me. Sometimes I regret begging Marla and Mark; If he didn't want to come here and the first place, he should have told me so he could rot in there!!! Obviously he doesn't care about anyone else, if he even had an idea to run away. I thought I was helping someone who looked like he needed it, but that's what you get Kagome; for being friendly, stupid girl. Maybe things are better off if he leaves; he doesn't care about me, so I shouldn't even attempt to care about him." Kagome frail hands grasped the rose colored sheets, with her head laying comfortably into the pillow, sorrowfully watching the ash colored clouds graciously moving towards the beautiful golden moon. Her eyes began to grow tiredly, feeling hopelessness and a failure like she had done all wrong when it was never her fault in the first place. She sometimes wished to herself she'd sleep and never wake up again. She just wanted to get away from pain and torment; that feeling never seem to disappear.
Kagome's ears could faintly hear ceramic bowls and cutlery banging against one another, and knew defiantly it was morning. Her eyes beamed seeing the sun's light peaking through the white colored blinds, wondering if that's all today had to offer to her. She wanted to lay quietly and waste her life away sleeping, but she knew she had other things to do and likely he'd come to talk things over with her. Her hands held her forehead feeling a headache, while she grabbed her clean black clothes from her backpack and quietly opened her door. "He better not be awake. I don't want to deal with him right now. I just want to go to school and get things done." Kagome's feet gently touched the floorboards hoping he wouldn't be able to hear her pass by, or even interrupt his sleep.Her hazel eyes widen when she noticed the door was open slightly a crack, seeing him sleeping peacefully like he could do no harm. Her hands slowly shut the door and sighed with relief, heading quietly down the oak stairway and on to the kitchen floor. Mark was already awake neatly dressed in his red and black plaid shirt, and she could tell he was quite in a rush; his eyes kept peering at the clock, shoveling in the last piece of toast into his mouth. Kagome just quietly sat herself down while Mark could see the bummed out, exhausted look on her face; that wasn't just from sleep either. "Hey Kags. Why would you be up so early? School doesn't start till like eight. You have two hours. Why don't ya head back to bed. You'd be crazy to get ready for school at this time." Kagome let out a little nervous laugh, pouring the cream colored milk until it splashed directly into the bowl.
"I just want to be prepared for my first day of school, I mean it's hard to sleep and think about it. Brand new school, brand new people just got to be prepared for everything." Mark could only chew the last bit of toast in his mouth, slinging on his jacket and placing the little plate into the brass colored sink. "Nobody can be prepared for anything, Kags. Just take life as you see it. Keep that in mind. I wish I could stay around and chat, but I gotta be at work to fix cars and do some running around. So angel, I hope things go well for you, with everything." Mark just lightly gave her a kiss on the cheek, like a caring father would and Kagome just grinned watching him stroll out the door. She could see things weren't going all bad; she was warming up to the fact that he was the father, she never had. Kagome could feel the sensation on her cheek, feeling abit better about life as she knew it. Kagome began shoveling the last bit into her mouth, noticing Marla strolling out in a short black skirt, and her blonde hair throw up into a messy bun with curls in front of her face. "Kagome dear, your going to school already?" Kagome just nodded, swallowing hard and placing the dish into the sink. "Ya well I thought it would be exciting to tour the place around, before I actually be attending the classes." Kagome hurried up when she heard the footsteps from upstairs, and an over exaggerated yawn knowing he was wide awake. Kagome could feel her heart beat out of her chest; she was running away from something that seemed like it was after her. "Alright, hope you enjoy yourself."
Kagome quickly slammed the door, rushing down the block like she never did before. Her head were in the clouds, and before she knew it there was the huge, complicated school in front of her eyes. "I miss all my high school friends. They always waited for me in front, and go to that restaurant and gossip. Then we'd head off and go down different streets, and slowly one by one we'd head home. How I miss that, a lot. I'd see Sota on the walk back home from his little school, all excited to tell me how his day went. Boy, he'd never shut up but still, I miss hearing his voice. He'd always be shy, when I asked if the girl beside him was his girlfriend. He never stopped talking, and we'd talk about everything until we hit home. How I miss my real life. But this is just an adjustment, I guess. Something I'm not use to. But my mom isn't going tot be there when my life changes. She won't watch me get married, have children, none of them will. Sota. I won't be able to watch his life progress, not when things ended too soon. Sometimes I hope one day I'll return home to my old life, with my friends and try to catch up. It's only a dream, that will never come true." Kagome's head bowed down, holding the black railing sternly staring at the sun shining it's brightest seeing the birds fly freely into the sky.
She stood there lost in her moments, watching a crowd slowly began to build up with new fresh faces of people she never seen before. They stared at her oddly, wondering who this new girl was, but never dared to say even a word to her. They all just giggled, smiled, laughed, cried everything that everyone felt at times. It made her feel at home, even if things seemed brand new to her. "So I guess this is my new life.. and I'm just going to deal with life as it is." Kagome's eyes filled with wonder, staring at these three girls identical from the friends she once had. She felt tempted to say hi, but she knew that she didn't belong. Kagome could see everybody was observing her, and it felt like she was out of place more than any one else was. She didn't know if that was good thing or not but she didn't want to even know if it was, or wasn't. The bell rang in her ear seeing everyone barraging into the school wildly; that was nothing new to her. Her hands just grasped the paper to the floors and her classes, and it was like reading a complicated map. She didn't know anyone or anything, and she doubt anyone would help her out.
Kagome glanced at the paper, frustrated stumbling down the hall apologizing and people could see that it seemed like it was her first day here, or she didn't know what the hell she was doing. "I must look like an idiot, stumbling around here when everybody knows everything." Kagome felt herself get shoved into the crowd, noticing some dreaded unfriendly, looking girl in front of her feeling herself impact into her. "You want to start something bitch? Cause it seems like you do." Kagome could feel herself tremble, trying to be apologetic while the girl made a huge crowd, drawing to they were standing. Her pale hands grasped her by her school uniform, feeling her shirt ready to tear the instant her feet lifted from the ground. Kagome just swallowed hard; it was a great way to start of her first day of school, and her first impression. She'd probably make one in the floor in a moment or so. "Well it seems you need to learn a lot. Don't get into my way, and don't waste your breath. And don't touch me.. ever..."
Kagome's eyes blinked seeing her fist held up while everyone was laughing, and screaming while their eyes all peered on them. Kagome closed her eyes tightly, feeling the blow to her face and sliding down to the floor the instant she fell. Kagome's eyes hazily gazed at the girl, who sternly looked at her with hate and resent as though she knew this girl. Kagome could see nobody dared to pick her up.They just all laughed and congratulated the other girl instead. Kagome wasn't aware of the blood on her, until she felt someone grasp her arm and slowly holding her up. " Damn I can't believe they'd do this to you. Here, can you get up?" Kagome vaguely blinked weakly, now feeling all the pain through her body. She could hear the sweet, tender voice echoing in her ear of a young girl with long brown hair, and a concerned look. She could tell she had a heart, and looked pretty upset that they'd beat on a innocent, new girl who probably had enough problems as it was. "I think so...."
The girl dragged her into the bathroom, while Kagome noticed the blood all over her face and her nose. Kagome's eyes widening feeling the tears of pain roll down her rosy cheeks. She didn't understand why one bad thing after another had to occur, and not let her have a break from it. She was afraid to talk to him if she saw him, knowing they were both in the same school she just couldn't deal with him not after what he said to her.
The girl grabbed the towel wiping the excess blood from the corner of her lips, and placing the ice gently around the swollen areas. That sensation felt exactly like the treatment they had received at the orphanage; but she knew the orphanage there was crueler than any human being alive could possibly be. This was nothing really compared to it; This was far from it. Kagome just blinked feeling her head swelling, and feeling swollen and bruised all over. The girl gently held her head, shaking her head in disgust that people could be so cruel. "Your new here aren't you?" Kagome tried not to laugh; she wondered how she could have guessed that. "How did you figure that out?" The girl laughed sweetly, dabbing the ice in the other spots where she left marks. "Well the paper in hand said it all. Sorry to say. Also, you would have realized that girl is nobody to be near at all." Kagome gently nodded giving a half smile, feeling her touch her up like she was a doctor or something.
"There. I'm sorry that happened, but this is better than nothing. I'm so rude...I'm Sango.." She gave a pleasurable grin, it wasn't the greatest way to meet someone but she knew she needed to help her out by the looks of it, cause nobody else dared to. Kagome winced of pain, trying to bare it completely as she spoke. "Kagome..." Sango gave a cheerful grin, watching the blood stain the brown paper towels throwing into the silver looking garbage can beside her. Kagome weakly glanced into the mirror, taking her finger and touching where the blood resented from. She could see just by looking at this young girl Sango; she was sweet and kind someone she felt she could trust right away. She could tell from the tone of voice that she was a good person, and she didn't feel like a complete idiot exactly. Sango's bright bloody shirt stood out wildly, while her hands grasped Kagome's shoulder while glancing at her reflection. "There.. It should feel abit better. Kagome, let me see that paper for a sec." Kagome eyes blankly looked at her, so intrigued that there was really a good person that was willing to help her out. Her pale hands handed the paper over the tanned looking girl, studying heavily on what classes and where they were exactly. Kagome analyzed the marks left on her face, feeling herself shutter and wince when her hands touched the raw wounds. "I never thought someone would be nice enough to help me out. I mean I feel stupid. The one minute I'm down on the ground and the next I'm up. I guess sometimes good things can happen. I guess lately I've been having doubt, when I shouldn't be." Sango's long black eyelashes fluttered giving a sigh of relief, with a huge gracious smile that made her eyes disappear for a moment or so.
"Kagome, I guess you won't be alone in all of your classes after all." Kagome titled her head to the side, adjusting her tangled strands of ink black hair that didn't stay in place.
Kagome didn't understand exactly what was she trying to say; of course she wasn't going to know anyone and she'd feel like a complete outcast. What was going to make it any better in her case? Kagome's eyes narrowed like she was a liar, and to Kagome it seemed like a misconception. Sango's violet colored eyes shimmered beautifully, while Kagome could only raise an eyebrow and nervously wonder what she meant by that. "What do you mean? I'm going to be alone in all my classes! I'm not going to know anyone!"
Sango gave a devious smile, grasping Kagome's hand while they took steps out of the nasty looking bathroom. The light shown through the minute they entered the halls, and they could see some couples laying on the stairwells and teachers yelling at troubled kids.
Kagome just hoped she wouldn't see him; she knew the minute she saw him his first thought was to try to talk to her. She wasn't going to allow that. Not when he hurt her, without realizing.
The hallways seemed so long; the titles sparkled like diamonds and the windows were open partly allowing the mid fall breeze to come inside and cool things down. The halls were painted an emerald green exactly the shade that matched her school skirt. Kagome realized this school didn't require uniforms; Sometimes she wish her school hadn't done that. It was hard enough finding people in a crowd if they wore the same identical clothes. Sango flew down the hall like she was in a panic; more like she was anxious and seemed way ahead of everything. Their eyes saw a cute couple kissing while they made their way up to the stairwell. "Kagome, your not going to be totally alone. Your with me. So you won't feel like such an outcast." Kagome sighed of relief; she didn't have to feel her legs shaking and watch everybody scan her without knowing anyone at all. Kagome thankfully nodded, grasping the railing while they opened to another vacant, unknown hallway. That place felt like more of an amaze than an actual school.
Kagome quietly strolled along side of the cheery Sango girl, seeing her stop in front of the door at the end of the long, dragging hallway. Her elbows just nudged Kagome slightly, showing off her white teeth with reassuring laughter. "Hey Kagome. Don't worry. I know it's a change and all being a transfer student but, you'll be fine."
Kagome just smiled briefly, while Sango knocked and she saw some boy open the door.
Sango walked ahead, as everyone blankly stared at this new girl who looked beaten alittle and defiantly someone they didn't recognize. Kagome stood there dumfounded by everyone; she glanced around room at all the fresh new faces and only one stood from the crowd; There he was out of all people he had to be in her class. The long black hair stood out, and his piercing chocolate brown eyes stared at her. She just nervously stood receiving the papers while Sango gave a brave smile. "Class this is a new transfer student. Miss Kagome, Hanashi." Kagome just nodded nervously, while everyone smiled and welcomed her. Kagome grasped the empty stood sadly beside him, feeling her stomach twist into knots.
He didn't say a word to her like she expected him to; he was too busy listening to the teacher while she watched his pencil furiously moved across the page like it was on fire.
Sango laid across from her, with her one hand lazily holding her head up watching, the teacher go on about nothing basically. Kagome just laid her head up, with her eyes peering at the black board and around the room. She could hear the guys laughing loudly, at the one table uncontrollably. The one guy waved his arms around, with a bright smile and short black hair tied back. "Ha, I didn't take this class to cook or clean, women can do that for me. I took this class cause I'm surrounded by beautiful ladies. Like Sango, there." Kagome could still hear the incredible laughter ringing through her ears, while Sango's face turned completely red with anger the moment she heard his voice speaking about her like a prize to be won. Kagome could see by the look on Sango's face, she had been through these things with him a million times and sadly knew him.
" Sango, do you know that guy?" Kagome asked out of curiosity. He seemed like conceited, self-centered, and the way he viewed Sango as an object more than a human being in their case. Sango's hands grasped the white dough in her hands, squeezing it until it broke from it's form. "Sometimes I wish I didn't, to be honest." Sango muttered under her breath, along with cursing. Kagome's hands lazily held the dough, wondering when the class would ever come an end. The minute Kagome's eyes glanced at the clock, the minute she'd catch his chocolate brown eyes staring at her in a daze. She knew exactly what was on his mind; he was going to question her, and mainly wondered why she was avoiding and why was it his fault? When it came to her wanting to be alone in peace, he would decide to be attached at the hip with her. Sometimes it was considered a good thing, but for now it wasn't. Her fingers nervously fidgeted and tapped on the table, while her legs swayed side to side. She couldn't stand this. She knew the minute she lifted herself out of the seat she was hopeless and a fight would likely occur. She just needed a break to get her head on straight and he didn't seem to get that hint either.
She could see his lips were just about to form a word or a sentence when suddenly she was saved by the bell. Kagome just swung her bag over shoulders and flew out of the class along with the crowds that crawled around in the hallways.
She just rushed herself further into the crowd, hearing him calling her name while she refused to reply to him. "Kagome, wait! Kagome!" He screamed waiting the black haired girl in the envy colored skirt glancing nervously running away like she was running from everyone, and everything. Her hazel eyes worriedly glanced at the crowd, and Sango rushing to her side seeing her flee without a single word. His brown eyes just watched her getting swallowed by the crowd stubbornly pushing and shoving his way to see if she was alright. She was far from it. It seemed like it when she talked and when she laughed but he knew for sure she wasn't laughing, and wasn't smiling either; and he knew something was wrong he just didn't exactly know what.
"Hey Kagome what's a matter with you?" Sango questioned rushing along side of her concerned seeing the worried and paranoid look planted and pasted on the young girl's face. Sango just blinked feeling herself fly down the stairs and into the main hall right where the café was and the couples were lounging around. Kagome's raven black hair just swung in every direction her head was cocked, and she defiantly felt like she was in a horror movie. It seemed like everything was getting to her head and more. Kagome was already losing her breath while she dragged herself into the café to explain and keep herself far away from him. "Me? Nothing I'm fine..Just really hungry that's all.." Kagome lied through her teeth, grabbing the disgusting looking food from the counters and placing her money into the women's hands. She didn't feel that great and she didn't want him to bitch and complain to her how he didn't realize anything hurtful that came from his mouth.
Kagome just took a few bites of the hamburger looking at it with hesitation. She didn't even know if she liked it and she didn't even know anything at that point. Kagome gingerly threw the wrapper into the garbage while Sango could see her panting and staring straight into nothing. Sango just looked at the girl's face and it was red like the color of Sango's shirt. Her elbows just nudged her while her head lifted from the table. "Hey Kagome is something a matter? You seem kind of out of it..." Kagome's ink colored bangs were drenched with sweat and her mouth felt completely dry like a desert.
Kagome's hands weakly grasped the chair with her feet stumbling and gathering her balance and breath. "Sango don't worry I'll be fine." Sango didn't seem reassuring in the matter she was completely fine. Kagome just placed a fake cheerful grin on her face; she knew everything was wrong and she wasn't going to involve Sango in or know about her horrible life as it was. Kagome just stared at the open door feeling completely drained. She didn't know whether she was tired, hungry but it seemed nothing like that at all. She just stared at the students rushing back and forth with food in their hands and mostly overly obese. Kagome could only blink staring at the wide open door with a cool breeze she defiantly needed.
Kagome just turned to her giving the brightest smile she could have ever given to everyone; a smile that was only a lie to make things seem completely unordinary. "You sure Kagome?" Kagome slightly nodded exhaustedly, with her fingers lightly touching her forehead feeling the awful amount of sweat on her fingertips. "Sango I'm just going to take a step outside for a moment." Kagome assumed maybe it was heat from the caf, there was enough people moving, talking that would create such nasty heat even in mid fall. Kagome strolled out into the open breeze, looking over the beautiful rich houses and the football field where the guys were playing and screaming.
Her hands hardly could hold her head up; she felt weak and drained and she didn't exactly understand why either. She just watched the birds fly through the sky chirping their loudest while she felt she was spinning in circles ready to just lay down and close her eyes. " What's a matter with me? I'm sweating, I'm tired.. I don't understand why. Maybe I'm worrying too much. That could be it. I mean what other explanation is there?" Kagome could hear her voice echo inside her head sitting by her lonesome on the cold concrete steps. She didn't even know why she decided to wear her school uniform in the fall. It was too cold to even let her bare legs show without them freezing or going numb. She could see an outline of a black haired guy screaming her name, but she could hardly even hear her name at all.
"Kagome..Kagome..Why the hell are you avoiding me!? You left early because you didn't want to talk to me didn't you? What did I do wrong to you Kagome?!" His deep strong voice went through her one ear and back again. She seemed intrigued by his long black strands of hair, and his mocha colored eyes that wildly looked at her without blinking. Kagome just sighed softly staring at the ground instead of his face. Her head felt heavier than ever, while her face just rested in her lap like as though she trying to hide tears from him. He waited on her response, but clearly there was none. He didn't understand what was going on and why the hell was she even acting like this? Usually she'd be cheery, helping and exciting but it seemed the totally opposite in his eyes. She wasn't acting like herself, she was far from it. " Kagome for god sakes give me a damn answer!!!"
Kagome could hear his fed up voice strongly screaming in her ear, and she felt so slow to respond or even to react to what was going on. She tried to make eye contact but her whole body felt completely asleep, and her head remained buried in her lap. "I..I..can't move my head..I can't even move my hands..." He began to laugh like she was trying to play some joke to make him feel worried and completely pathetic looking. Her voice sounded strained and hurt while she even flinched to move her hands alittle. His rough hands just grasped her while he chucked alittle nervous if this was true or not. He wasn't willing to believe it either. "Come on your lying Kagome! You think your so god damn funny...Kagome?" She barely stood balanced. Her hands were completely pale and shaky and her lips were blue like they had been frostbitten. Her eyes painfully looked at his face feeling herself fall while his rough hands caught her in her free fall. He began screaming her name but all just went blank to her.
She didn't laugh,
She didn't smile,
She didn't respond,
She didn't move..
Most of all....
She wasn't breathing.........
Author Notes:
Sorry that I took so long of posting another chapter. I know I'm abit behind on it. School work mostly. Thank god I was able to write this chapter. I hoped you guys enjoyed it. Hopefully it doesn't sound that bad cause I am alittle rusty on my writing. Please read and review!