All that was heard throughout the building were patients heavily sleeping, and even some cars leaving the parking lot that was now, completely empty. The stars were already shining their brightest, gleaming into the window while the patients slept uncomfortably and Kagome breathing heavily through the air pump that sounded like she never had a gasp of air in her life. She'd breathe in a few times and gasp until air was forced through her nose and her mouth.
She never slept with comfort, ever. It wasn't the same when she was cooped up in a place with patients screaming hearing loud sounds of sirens and screaming and yelling, that happened no matter what time of the night. She was completely terrified after all, and she knew it wasn't the same bed, the place she called 'home'. She hated every moment of it. Sometimes she just wished she could close her eyes and one day wake up and this would all be a dream; but sadly it wasn't. She barely slept in comfort but now, having Inuyasha beside her made her act like she never had any worries at all.
Inuyasha's mocha colored eyes widened, feeling his heart pounding faster when he had a heard a noise that startled him to death. He turned to Kagome's side realizing she was sleeping every so peacefully; she looked so calm and innocent, but also she seemed exhausted and deeply depressed. The blankets covered the half of her lower body, while she laid against the new pillow with her one arm wrapped around the cute husky she was already grown fond of.
' What was that?'
His eyes were glued to her when he caught her sleeping, and couldn't remove them at all. Even when he looked away, he was tempted to look back and watch her even longer until he noticed the wires and the state she was in that made him shy away.
He watched her chest heavily rising and falling back again. He watched steady her breathe and hearing her heavily gasps for breathe until, the pump had forced more into her lungs. It was the worst sound he heard, and it was the sound that had startled him from his sleep. He was so tempted to take off the air pump but, he shook his head and threw his head back on the pillow.
' She looks…so..pitiful.. Shit… I've it's already five in the morning! Damnit! Last thing I knew I was resting my god damn eyes!'
He threw the covers from his entire body, feeling the cool draft hitting his warm body that made him shiver with ease. He moved himself towards the side of the bed, until he realized Kagome's hand bound around his waist, almost refusing to let go. He gently touched her ice cold hands as much as he tried to resist, he placed them bare on the bed while he watched her slowly toss with a soft sigh, while her hand laid where he placed it down. He grabbed his coat swinging it over his shoulders, looking down on her with so much pity. He didn't want to leave her in a god for sake hospital. He didn't care if they knew how to look after her, to him it just didn't feel right. He would have felt safer he could be around her but, he knew Sango was fine watching her and that's what made him feel a lot calmer.
' Marla is going to bitch at me. Fuck, what do I care? It's only going to get worse.. If I don't come home everything is going to be a hell of a lot worse. Maybe she is right about Kagome being happier. God what am I saying, that coming from that bitch? Why should I believe her?'
His hands turned into fists his feet heavily hitting the hospital floor, having his hand posted against the side of the door looking back feeling apart of him refusing to leave.
' Inuyasha, that you?'
He cocked his head around trying to clear his head, and taking a deep breath trying to make everything right as best as he could.
" Ya.. what of it?"
Sango moved her body from the spare bed staring directly at the shadow that stood at the front door of the hospital room. She barely recognized him, but when she heard the raspy rude voice she realized that could only be him.
She placed the sheets back lazily placing her feet to the floor, feeling her back and neck strained from the uncomfortable bed. She was clearly wearing bright red satin night clothes, while she attempted to walk over there half asleep and wonder why he was here at this time of night.
' Oh, I didn't see you before. I know your worried about her. Don't worry Kagome's fine. That's why I decided to sleep over night…'
His eyes grew heavier, and his eyebrows outlined his face making a disgusted expression. He just plainly looked at her, with his one foot out the door and noticing how deserted the place was, and just how freaky the hallways looked with the shadows casting on the walls. He looked at the girl half asleep, with a messy ponytail still intact. He just grew with such hatred, while he clenched his fists and shoved him in his pockets trying to make everything less noticeable about him, to her.
" I'm not worried about her alright? Don't assume just because I come here means I'm worried.. You don't know me that well so don't try to assume anything about me…."
She batted her eyelashes, taking a slight step back studying his hideous behavior, realizing his hands disappeared into his jean pockets. She clammed up when she saw the expression on his face that was most frightening to her. She kept in mind about what Kagome had told her about him, and that proved one of Kagome's point; he was moody.
Before she could say anything to him, he turned his back keeping his face forward and walking down the long stretch of hallway.
" So if you'll excuse me, I'll be leaving."
Sango stood at the doorway contently almost like she had been frozen to the spot. Her one hand grasped the side of the door, watching him walk past the moonlight that shimmered through the tainted windows and saw a glimpse of him until he transformed into a silhouette. She continue to watch until his heavy footsteps were out of ear shot, and until he had disappeared behind the swinging doors.
She sighed, fixing her ponytail and already feeling the sensation of sleepiness trying to lure her back to bed. She shook her head she didn't understand him at all. She knew he came for a reason, and how could he not be worried about her? She didn't expect him to snap and plus she knew she said nothing wrong at all.
' Kagome was right about him. He is moody. He says he doesn't worry about Kagome, but that's hard to believe. After all he went to see her didn't he? He can't lie.. I've seen him worried before. And his words aren't going to tell me any different…'
" She's trying to tell me I ' worry' about Kagome? She doesn't know a single thing about me.. I mean I visited her because she needs company and it's not fun being stuck with those two. She needed to get out of that damn hospital.. right now everything is just getting worse now that she is there…I had to lie to her about my bruises and why it hurt when she hugged me. How much longer must I lie?I can't ruin her happiness anymore. I've done enough of that."
He told himself grabbing his left over change and awaiting the bus to arrive to send him back to the house he was currently living in. He imagined for a moment the girl in the plastic red trench coat walking down the street with her bags in hand, and shook his head from his ' pure' thoughts which was the least of his worries. He felt rain heavilyfallingdown while he waited trying to stay shelteredthe best as possible. His coat was already feeling heavier, and he felt bad enough that he had to rip himself away when he finally felt like he was ' home.'
He watched the bus roar down the empty street, seeing only a couple cars pass by instead of seeing full range traffic like he always did. He watched puddles form against the ground hearing the bus halt, and pulled himself up feeling his strains of hair feeling glued to his face, and feel flatter and heavier than ever before. He pitifully sat on the bus, soaking wet and looked out the window watching him pass by buildings and feeling like an idiot that he left, when he knew he really wanted to stay there and keep her company.
He realized he was the only one in the bus and it a lot better than getting all looks and stares. But still, he was tempted to get off the bus and go back but he knew things would get worse if he didn't.
' Well she's at the last stages of recovery. Doesn't mean she'll be in the hospital much longer. So I shouldn't be worrying, after all she's better now and she's close to being released.'
He felt himself form a smile, as he jumped from the bus and began to walk straight home. He was glad, plus Sango was there looking after her so really he felt he had nothing to worry about, then again the pit of his stomach told him another story.
He walked down the driveway feeling his body freezing, and him hurrying himself inside for the warmth, but otherwise he wouldn't have been tempted to be in there at all. He swung open the door swallowing, kicking off his shoes and relieved that nobody was up and about which made him feel a lot safer not confronting anyone. He looked at the phone while he ringed out the water that was in his hair and his drenched jacket.
' I should give Kagome a call. After all, I mean I left without warning. I was too busy biting Sango's head off to wake her and let her know.'
He grabbed the cordless phone into his palms grabbing the slip of paper ready to dial her number as he placed the phone to his ear. His head was half way in the fridge and didn't hear no dial tone at all. He stopped in a panic when he heard Marla's voice at the other end which rang through him with hate. He could hear her cheap laughter and ready to just hang up. It wasn't worth hearing her voice, or her stupid petty conversations until one name that made him jump, in alarm.
" Kagome's her name right? I remember you mentioning you adopted a brand new daughter."
The women's voice sounded heavier but a lot kinder than hers did.
"Well Kagome isn't the only one. I adopted a son as well."
She sneered through the phone while he listened with the phone placed to his ear, wincing when her voice strained when she was beginning to tell about him. He didn't want to hear what she had to say, or her bunch of lies. But yet he threw himself into the couch, and continued to listen further and further and threw himself back from making a sound.
" Really? You never told me that!" The women at the other end said with life, while hatefully Marla sighed through the voice that was oblivious to him.
" Well I do. I only adopted him so Kagome would come with us. I mean they stuck together until we came. We only brought him along so she'd go."
The women barely had anything in response. He just wanted to curse and bitch out loud but instead he kept himself quiet. His one hand covered the mouth piece, hearing her bluntly say it as though it was nothing to her. It wasn't really a surprise but the fact, she wasn't going to lie about it. He was surprised she actually had a friend besides her husband, but he realized this whole conversation was going down hill, and he desperately wanted to hang up, but he still hung on.
" Well he's a brat anyways. I treated him with respect. I mean I was growing attached to him considering I never had a son, and I remember hearing they are harder to handle. He abuses me, he's plain rude and he tries to turn this all on me."
The girl gasped almost surprised when she went into detail with his behavior. Inuyasha knew it was flat out lies. She made him seem like he literally beat her when it was actually him the victim not her. He smothered the phone into the cushions of the couch, and shook his head angered and fused of her lies.
' What a fucking bitch!' He screamed. He didn't understand why he was torturing himself listening, then again it was pretty listening to hear what her mouth had to say about him.
" I guess being in that orphanage did that to me. Poor Dear. He sounds like a jerk to you, and your just trying to help.. Sons are alittle harder than daughters."
" Ya they are. I mean I've never raised a son anyways. I never planned to. Kagome is easy to handle I mean, I've already had a daughter before Kagome, so I know more."
Inuyasha mocha eyes grew wider when he heard her say ' another daughter' He didn't understand how could she have another daughter? As far as he was informed that they adopted Kagome because they were in need of a child to love because they hadn't had one. This was completely stunning to him. This made his head swim. He could barely believe that they had a daughter, and left him cursing without even realizing it.
"They had a daughter before Kagome! I thought that's why they adopted her!"
He thought maybe he heard wrong. It was possible he did, but he listened in closer trying to cover the microphone part as best as he could. As far as she knew he wasn't home, and he doubt he would have told him this if she realized he was around. He snuck around the house with the cordless to his ear, to the outside of her bedroom. He could see a glimpse of her, seeing her laying on the bed with the phone to her ear and playing with the phone cord simply amused. For once she didn't have make-up on, and she looked closer to death than ever before. He just watched her facial expressions, seeing this not phasing her abit. She began to frown, as the conversation went on.
" Oh I remember. Yes. It's been awhile. I mean I remember attending the funeral and my heart bleed for you two. I almost forgotten that happened not even five years ago."
" I know. It's been tough, but I only adopted Kagome to help me fix the whole in my heart. That's why Kagome special to me, and the scary fact is she looks exactly like her. The hair is virtually the same, but there eyes and facial features are just alittle bit different."
Marla stood up, grabbing the tissue and wiping away the visible tears. Her mascara stained the flower colored tissue leaving black blots all over it. She stood fixing her little black and red mini skirt, walking over to the open closest grabbing a beautiful frame that had pressed flowers inside, and consisted of her daughter's picture inside of it. Her eyes looked at it, seeing that her heart was bleeding and she was sad when she looked upon it. Her hand lightly touched the glass of the frame, bringing to her chest as though she was cradling her in her arms.
It was a pitiful sight to see. She was clearly bawling, and whimpering now which she tried to smother but failed. He was on his hands and knees with the phone still to his ear, almost feeling sorry about it. He knew it was upsetting know someone she loved died, and he knew Kagome probably understood the pain exactly, but instead lost more than one loved one, she had lost her entire family.
" She would have been still alive, if it wasn't for that house fire. It still haunts me to this day. I came home and saw the house in flames, and she never came out. They didn't find the body at all. I miss her dearly. I never knew this pain existed until I lost her. I miss her so much… I really do. The one thing I love was stolen away from me, from us! God damnit, why did they have to take my daughter away. …why?"
She began bawling harder, while one tear hit the picture and rolled down the glass frame. It hit exactly where her daughter's eye was making it look like the picture it's self was crying than her. Inuyasha just saw a quick glimpse of the deceased daughter and realized it did look like a hell of a lot, almost identical to Kagome. In fact, that scared him a lot. Him hearing about this, made his heart beat faster and knowing they hide the fact they had a daughter before.
" Why my darling Kikyo?" She muttered, grabbing the wine quickly from the side throwing it down, as though it was the only way she could stay sane and grounded to life.
Inuyasha eyes grew wider when he caught the picture more and more, and almost fooled into believing she was holding a picture of Kagome herself. He noticed Kikyo's eyes were a lot wider, and Chinese looking even though he could tell she really wasn't. Her cheekbones were higher, and her lips were perfectly even. This astonished him, while he muttered the words dumbfounded.
' Kikyo?'
He realized she was a beautiful looking women. She looked like the ideal women that every guy would die to have; but yet, the expression on her face was most depressing. No smile was placed on her face, and her body was completely white as anything. She had no shimmer in her eyes, it's almost like there was nothing there in the world for her, that made her happy.
" I know it's been a couple of years. I know she meant a lot to you and Mark. I mean she was all you guys had, and I remember how happy you two were when you realized you had a daughter! Remember the happy things, I mean you shouldn't be dreading there's nothing you can do."
Inuyasha watched her lift her head from her lap, wiping the tears that were laying against her face. He watched her get off the bed and heading where was, that left him dashing down the hallway while she sighed and gathered her breath.
" Your right. Thanks so much."
He just kept running, until he rushed into the spare room of his trying to be unseen by her. He felt himself hit himself against a nail quickly pressing the hold on button to scream.
' Fuck…That fucking hurt…!'
He threw himself on the small little bed that was half of the size of a regular one, holding onto his foot seeing the blood seeping through his gray colored socks, and holding the pressure down. Marla blinked for a moment, while he heard her voice even louder through the phone that made him alert and felt like a complete idiot.
" That wasn't any of us screaming. Sorry June but I have to go, someone else is listening to my phone conversation….."
Author's Notes: I decided to kick this story up another notch. As you can tell I picked Kikyo as the dead daughter.. I thought Kikyo fit the part as their deceased daughter that died. I had to throw her into the mix. Well I hoped you enjoyed this chapter please read and review!