Sango could hear Kagome's knees heavily hitting the floor, while her eyes lit up as she stopped searching around when she heard the heavy noise as she stopped searching.

" Kagome! Kagome?"

Sango screamed at the top of her lungs, slamming the door at the top of downstairs, and didn't both to wait for a reply. She just hit her hips against the wooden kitchen chairs and rushed out flying up the stairs in a panic, feeling her heart skipping a beat and her stomach in her throat. Her forehead was drenched with sweat hoping everything was alright, while she flew open the door that was his small room, that had been originally a small stuffy computer room and it showed that he wasn't really wanted.

Kagome had her head buried into the ground for a moment, with her hand to her chest as though she was feeling her heart skipping a beat as well. Kagome blinked almost in nervous laughter still crouched up into a ball with her head hanging low, and whimpering in misery.

" Kagome? What is it?"

She had laughed when she saw it was only the small little portable tv that was dusty and was basically ancient that had been blasted with old black and white comedies, western style that produced a loud gun shot, and the screaming that she had mistaken for Inuyasha's voice. She had jumped out of her skin thinking it had been Inuyasha who had done it, and opened her eyes and realized it was nothing more than that. Instead, she had a bigger scare than she realized.

The remote was laid in front of her that had been blasted up, knowing his hands had touched it imaging him bored out his mind and miserable flipping through the channels trying to drown out the world around him. The tv was now on low with the sound of guns shots still blasted, and the screaming and horses galloping out into the field.

Sango bent over hearing her whimper even more, with her hands bunched up in front of her holding a small slip of yellow post stick note paper, gingerly staring at the messy yet beautiful writing that had been in black ink. Before Sango said another word, Kagome tried to dry her tears but it was no use. Her tears rolled onto the slip of paper holding it towards her chest, while she eyes disappeared under the messy strands of her dark hair.

" San..go.. Inu-yasha…just look!"

Kagome snapped impatiently feeling as her heart had been impaled by a box of sharp objects, making her feel weak, making her feel like her whole world she lived in had came crashing down onto her, making it almost unbearable to breath. She felt she had finally found solid ground, and holding a hand that wouldn't let her dive into the water where she'd drown. Instead, he dropped her, letting her drown the instant she stumbled upon the note that laid taped to the side of thin mattress.

Kagome,

Look, I didn't think telling you this would be any better. I didn't know exactly how, but I'm sorry Kagome I just had to do this. I wish I didn't feel this way or I wouldn't have attempted to leave. Believe me Kagome, you helped me a lot throughout this whole thing. Don't blame yourself for this. You've got Sango, and everyone and everything you need. I never did. I've always been the outsider and I decided it was better off that I was gone, and out of this place. I can't take back what I've done, the decision has already been made. I'm sorry Kagome, I'll never forget how you helped me out… Just this is what things have come down to…Sorry Kagome. I truly am, sorry.

Sango looked at it blankly, noticing the sketchy looking writing in thick black marker, feeling her throat burn and her eyes already watering. She swallowed heavily, touching the paper gingerly as possible looking back at Kagome, who's eyes were swallowed by tears and was already grasping the ground pitifully. Sango speechless, felt herself drop to the ground staring straight into Kagome's broken heart while Kagome threw herself into her with tears falling faster than her dreams and hopes ever did.

" I can't believe he did this! I can't believe him! Sango, he meant everything to me. He was the only one who really pulled me through this and now… he's gone! Just like that, gone! Oh god why did he? I was too fucking late..too fucking late to tell him everything I needed to. How stupid am I! How stupid am I!"

Sango could feel her clinging onto her sweater, burying her face while her tears stained her sweater, as she could feel the moist tears touching her skin. Sango knew she couldn't say it was alright, or things will work out like she always said to close people. She didn't know what to say.. She never expected this out of him, and could see Kagome would always break apart with every thought, every word, and everything he left behind. She was in shambles, and she could feel her grasp strengthen and her tears falling heavier and heavier. She just placed her hand on the back of her head, trying not to show the tears she was beginning to bleed.

" Sango, I thought everything was fine! I thought he was happy here, he seemed so happy, so greatful.. I mean he changed from the orphanage. He was so mean and miserable life had no meaning to him. But how, how could I not of seen this coming? For god sakes I HATE HIM!"

Kagome screamed out between whimpers, as her grasp had slowly died down, and jolted away as though Sango literally burned her. She just threw herself against the mattress he once laid on, replaying the thoughts of him sitting on the corner of the orphanage bitching and hating her for all she was worth, hating the world for something it never did wrong. And now seeing him clearly when she was laying in the hospital, and his hands folded back staring at the ceiling while she went on about how she wanted a guy to love her, while his voice now was slowly fading away.

I pretty much am, but I just think of things to hold me over."

He studied the ceiling and looked at the two doors which were two bathrooms right beside them.

" Like what?"

She tossed her head, and her face began to blush red feeling like a five year old girl wishing on a star and already trying to pursue her dreams.

" Well… just don't laugh… got it?"

" I promise I won't. I probably think of dumber things anyways."

" Well I think about what life is going to be someday for me. I mean I think about finding a guy who cares about me, and how I'm going to find him. I know he's out there for me, just he hasn't found me yet. Just stupid things like that."

She sighed imagining her perfect life and the way she wanted things to be. He moved against the bed laying on his side, with his knees up and his hands behind his head.

" You sure he hasn't found you yet?"

Kagome blinked for a moment wondering what he meant by that. She didn't understand exactly what point he was trying to get at but, at the same time she did get it. She sighed again while he watched her chest rise and fall and hearing noticing the heart rate go higher when she talked about her perfect life and so far her dream.

" What do you mean?"

He shook his head and frowned abit.

" Well he may have found you but, maybe you haven't found him yet. This making sense to you?"

She clearly nodded and it did make perfect sense, and the way he said it made her chuckle at the thought.

" Ya it is. Just sometimes I don't know."

He dug his knuckles into her mane of hair, while she rubbed her head after she flinched from the pain.

" Don't doubt yourself Kagome! You're a great girl and any guy that gets you should be considered lucky."

" You sure he hasn't found you yet?" Rang in her head more than any other word he had spoken. That night had been the most memorable, hearing him speak with concern, looking at her and pitying her, actually caring about her state of the condition and bought her gifts hoping that would make her feel a lot better than she had been. She never really understood that question but now it was slowly beginning to make sense, that made her eyes widen and tear even more.

Everything had been silent, after she screamed she hated him. She threw herself in the beaten blue stripped pillow feeling barely comforted laying on the same bed he slept in. Still she had the husky cradled in her arms cherishing for what it was worth, as she felt herself slipping away and now couldn't even believe what she had said about him. She grasped the pillow tightly, crying even more while she managed to rip herself away from it as she had finally gathered her breath long notice to speak without whimpering in-between. She touched her face, feeling the tears on her fingertips while she laughed for a moment.

" Have I really become that mean? To say I hate him, when I really don't mean it? But how come he acted like he was happy and cared…why did he have to lie, and leave me lonier than I've ever felt? What did I do to deserve to lose him! I've lost enough people in my life, and I've lost him!"

Kagome screamed to herself punching in the pillow, feeling blood rushing in her veins hating him for the fact he left her alone, after all the things she had went through and felt stupid that she didn't even realize what was coming to her. She felt betrayed and hurt more than ever. More than getting her heart broken by a guy, more than having bruises all over her body. No, this pain was different and this pain made her feel like she was suffocating and feeling lifeless, barely hanging on, and barely anything, anymore.

Sango hovered over her, feeling helpless and useless as the tv finally toned down, as the credits rolled of actors and actresses on the screen. Sango noticed she looked like a little girl stuck in a corner afraid of everybody, and anything. Holding the husky, afraid something was going to hurt her. That's what hurt Sango. She couldn't do anything, not even as a friend. She was speechless; what could she possibly say to her, ' sorry for your loss?' Sango wiped the final tears and reached over to embrace her, and try to ease the pain in the slightest.

" Kagome, look I-"

Before she could finish the sentence, or get close enough to comfort her Kagome's hand instantly hit her, hearing the sound of flesh hit on another.

" No, Sango! What are you gonna say, your sorry! That won't change the fact he's dead Sango! So don't fucking try! Forget this!"

Kagome rose up from the mattress feeling the blood pulsing through her veins, not even in fact sorry for the bloody red hand mark that was visibly tattooed on Sango's skin. She shoved her with one free hand, and without that a door slammed, running outside with the note in her pocket and the husky resting in her arms.

" Damnit Kagome. As she rubbed her arm, Kagome, wait!"

Sango stormed off downstairs towards the front door onto the patio seeing her flying down the abandoned highway, feeling the sun beating against her body, feeling her skin already swelling and burning underneath the humid and hot sticky air. Kagome didn't listen, while Marla had finally came home, in her small black skirt swinging her keys with her hair done up all pretty, and the make up that caked her face, that Inuyasha hated with a passion. She could see a girl she had recognized around the hospital and the school yards with the long brown hair, seeing her screaming and hollering Kagome's voice, rushing in a panic to get her shoes on.

Kagome winced harder, begging herself to run faster than her legs ever carried her before. She basically prayed that they'd leave her alone, feeling her heart beating out of her chest with her hair blowing in every direction on the dusty highway. She wasn't going to take anymore pain, her last resort was to run. She didn't care where, or when she just wanted to be by herself and swallow and suffocate in pain, alone.

Marla rose an eyebrow slowly tuning in, as she shuffled quickly concerned after connecting Sango's scream and seeing a thin black haired girl in a white tank top running as fast as her legs could carry her. Marla looked at Sango batting her eyelashes and grabbed her slightly by the hand.

" What's going on? What's amatter with her?"

Marla voice raised high in concern placing the automatic locks on the hot looking bloody red sports car, while Sango managed to have time to tell her what happened. Marla's eyes widened even more when she heard Inuyasha had left basically a suicide note, feeling bad as though something smacked her and made her realized what she had done to the kid, and now knowing Kagome was in shambles, and a depressed state. She held the keys tightly in her palm, while her eyes widen enough to see the dark red eye shadow that was on her eyelids.

" Kagome cared about him so much. Those two couldn't be separated till now. I don't know what could of caused this but..They were each other's world.. and I'm getting Kagome!"

Sango screamed out loud, and for once the face of compassion and concern rose on her face, out of all people. She looked back remembering how she swigged her wine laughing her head off when he went to lift her off the ground, as she thrown him around leaving scars and bruises feeling so great, so happy she did that to someone she barely even cared about. It was obvious to him he hated her, but when she heard that her cold heart actually sank.

Sango was already dashing down the pavement at top speed, as Marla grabbed by the arm and with a crooked smile, feeling all her problems eat her alive, knowing she was basically the cause for all this. She blankly looked at her, and threw out her car keys with a light smile.

" It's easier than being on foot. We'll find her don't worry.

Kagome felt herself panting furiously, and yet still she managed to run like the wind, going longer than she ever expected to go. Her feet burned, feeling heavy trucks flying by throwing dust and sand into her face, making her choke almost taking her away with the force of the wind. Still, she was surrounded by forest and was already near fields and farms and dying in the humid heat knowing Sango was rushing somewhere behind her.

" Inuyasha.. How could you do this to me? If you really cared for me, you wouldn't have done this! I can't believe you!"

Kagome cried out, embracing the small husky plushie even more, looking at the tanned looking sky almost like she was looking straight at his face and bitching him out. She sighed, knowing she couldn't cry anymore, at least until later. Her throat was dry, and her eyes were swollen and swore from crying so hard and heavy. She just lowered to her knees, still with her nose up towards the sky now under alittle abit of shade.

"Kami-sama.. I can't believe it. It seems like everybody I loved in this world is gone, just like that. No warning, no nothing. My family, my only family one day died and disappeared from a car accident. And now Inuyasha the guy who helped me through, is gone just like everybody else. I could only be so lucky.. Now I'm running away…but what am I trying to run to? There's nothing left for me..at all…"

Kagome managed to lift herself off the ground and shook her head, dashing into the forest that surrounded her trying to remain hidden from everyone including Sango, that was still burned with the slap mark on her arm. She looked how green and brown everything was, while she threw herself further into it still able to see the road behind all the tall, dark and half decaying trees. She just threw herself against a tree truck, looking at the husky as though it contained every single memory of him when she glanced at it. She placed it tightly to her chest, shedding one last tear.

" Yes there is Kagome…"

It sounded so like Inuyasha's voice, and somehow that managed for her gather her strength for a moment but still feeling lower than ever. She laughed for a moment feeling so stupid hearing his voice telling her how life was going to be, when she knew he was gone and dead, and it was his choice. She knew he could have stopped it, and she knew if she had been any quicker to reach him in time she'd likely change his mind. She chuckled for a moment thinking she was delusional, hearing voices in her head, especially his.

" Ha, now I'm hearing voices in my head.. what could be better than that?"-

Sango stayed in the passenger seat, as they flew by the highway while they kept her eye open for her, and even passed the huge high school, and many main streets in hopes they'd find her and bring her back home. Sango looked at the good luck bracelet that hung on the rearview mirror, with hearts and charms feeling roomy in the car, but still she was too concerned about Kagome to even let that swim in her head.

" How about we go back to the highway again?"

Marla bit down on her lip nervously, chipping off the dark ruby lipstick she had heavily coated her lips with. She looked at the mirror, and raised down her sunshades that were pink almost with crude humor.

" We already looked there. But I mean it's worth a shot."

Sango nodded looking at the cities, and the tall buildings that hovered over the whole street and neighborhood. They finally came back to the spot where they'd seen her, while Sango jumped out of the car reaching around the forest area and screaming her name as loud as her voice alouded her.

" Kagome? Kagome, please answer me!"

Sango shouted almost for a straight five minutes, while Kagome blinked hearing her voice and could see her from her view barely. She could make out the red mark on her arm pretty nicely, noticing now how red and how it stood on her milky colored skin. Kagome placed a smile on her face feeling happy she cared, but felt bad after smacking her so hard. She hesitated if she wanted to jump out, but something tugged her back. She watched carefully seeing Sango's head drop in disappoint and throwing herself back into the car.

Pitifully she stayed in the damp forest, watching the car head off while her head laid in her lap, grabbing the note and reading his writing and looking at the husky of a constant reminder. She barely smiled, while she rested her head on the tree truck.

" This is stupid…I can't hide forever can I? Maybe.. I'll just run off start fresh….I mean there's nothing her anymore but messed up memories not worth remembering or looking back on. Inuyasha, I loved you but this is what you did to me. I hope your happy now. Maybe I should.. running seems like my only option. I'll find the real Kagome Higurashi again someday in all this, someday."