Chapter 13
As he was getting ready to pack up and leave the office, he couldn't help but experience the tingly feeling he has been sensing the entire day. He couldn't explain the reason for it nor could he understand why he feels it.
It has been quite some time since he actually sat down and surrenders his mind, allowing it to roam freely among his thoughts and feelings. Usually he is too busy with work to even have independent thoughts or experience any sort of emotions or feelings.
Ever since he took control of the company, he hardly saw his buddies, a fact that they never failed to remind him. His days are usually filled with appointments or meetings or he'd be flying from one continent to another checking up on his various business dealings around the world.
His parents have also complained that they hardly ever got to see him anymore. His mother eventually resorted to fixing an appointment with his secretary one day just in order to have lunch with her son. He recalled how surprised he was on that day when he indicated to his secretary to usher in his next appointment and saw his mother walking in instead. She had cooked a sumptuous meal, packet it up and brought it to his office. She then forced him to sit down with her and finish all the food before she left his office, an easy task considering how much he loved eating his mother's cooking anyway.
Sometimes he does miss his carefree days, the time before he got involved with the family business, and this only happens when he does allow his mind to wonder back. Now, the 1 week expiry principle is no longer in practice. He couldn't even remember when was the last time he actually went out on a proper date. If he does in fact have a meal with a lady, it would usually be where there would be other business associates around or if not, they would actually have something important to discuss.
No longer the Casanova he once was, he wondered if he still had it in him to find a girl and settle down. Looking at his buddies, he sometimes cannot help but feel envious of them. Dao Ming Si has his San Chai, Mei Zhuo is getting married to Xiao Qiao very soon and Lei? Lei is mostly in Japan these days and he hardly ever gets to see him anymore as well with the both of them being so busy managing their family business.
He does wish to be as happy and contented as Dao Ming Si and Mei Zhuo obviously are. But he has since resigned to spending his future alone, convinced that he has missed out on his once in a lifetime chance of attaining that sort of happiness. He was a fool then. A stupid fool who should have known better and grabbed all that was offered to him on a silver platter. Now he has missed his boat and there was nothing he could do about it. She has moved on. Probably forgotten all about him as well.
If he only could say the same for himself. Thoughts and images of her would occasionally creep into his unconscious mind unwillingly. It happens at all times of the day without any control - in his sleep or when his mind is blank or even sometimes when he's concentrating hard on something vitally important that could mean the make or break of a multi-million dollar deal.
But it's been some time since he last thought of her or last dreamed of her. "Why has she suddenly appeared in my thoughts again?" he wondered to himself while walking towards his car in the car park. As usual, his car was the last one left on the entire floor. He is a certified workaholic. "Who wouldn't be," he thought to himself again, "when there isn't anyone to go home to or look forward to seeing. I'd just be staring at the 4 walls at home and I would also get bored easily as well. Might as well do something productive with my time."
Starting the car and putting it into gear, he made an effort to empty his mind of all his melancholy thoughts in preparation of a guys' night out with his friends. If his memory serves him right, the night ahead would be filled with drinks and laughter while they bring up old, embarrassing and funny stories from the past. Smiling to himself, Xi Men drove out of his building and turned towards the direction of VS.
As he was getting ready to pack up and leave the office, he couldn't help but experience the tingly feeling he has been sensing the entire day. He couldn't explain the reason for it nor could he understand why he feels it.
It has been quite some time since he actually sat down and surrenders his mind, allowing it to roam freely among his thoughts and feelings. Usually he is too busy with work to even have independent thoughts or experience any sort of emotions or feelings.
Ever since he took control of the company, he hardly saw his buddies, a fact that they never failed to remind him. His days are usually filled with appointments or meetings or he'd be flying from one continent to another checking up on his various business dealings around the world.
His parents have also complained that they hardly ever got to see him anymore. His mother eventually resorted to fixing an appointment with his secretary one day just in order to have lunch with her son. He recalled how surprised he was on that day when he indicated to his secretary to usher in his next appointment and saw his mother walking in instead. She had cooked a sumptuous meal, packet it up and brought it to his office. She then forced him to sit down with her and finish all the food before she left his office, an easy task considering how much he loved eating his mother's cooking anyway.
Sometimes he does miss his carefree days, the time before he got involved with the family business, and this only happens when he does allow his mind to wonder back. Now, the 1 week expiry principle is no longer in practice. He couldn't even remember when was the last time he actually went out on a proper date. If he does in fact have a meal with a lady, it would usually be where there would be other business associates around or if not, they would actually have something important to discuss.
No longer the Casanova he once was, he wondered if he still had it in him to find a girl and settle down. Looking at his buddies, he sometimes cannot help but feel envious of them. Dao Ming Si has his San Chai, Mei Zhuo is getting married to Xiao Qiao very soon and Lei? Lei is mostly in Japan these days and he hardly ever gets to see him anymore as well with the both of them being so busy managing their family business.
He does wish to be as happy and contented as Dao Ming Si and Mei Zhuo obviously are. But he has since resigned to spending his future alone, convinced that he has missed out on his once in a lifetime chance of attaining that sort of happiness. He was a fool then. A stupid fool who should have known better and grabbed all that was offered to him on a silver platter. Now he has missed his boat and there was nothing he could do about it. She has moved on. Probably forgotten all about him as well.
If he only could say the same for himself. Thoughts and images of her would occasionally creep into his unconscious mind unwillingly. It happens at all times of the day without any control - in his sleep or when his mind is blank or even sometimes when he's concentrating hard on something vitally important that could mean the make or break of a multi-million dollar deal.
But it's been some time since he last thought of her or last dreamed of her. "Why has she suddenly appeared in my thoughts again?" he wondered to himself while walking towards his car in the car park. As usual, his car was the last one left on the entire floor. He is a certified workaholic. "Who wouldn't be," he thought to himself again, "when there isn't anyone to go home to or look forward to seeing. I'd just be staring at the 4 walls at home and I would also get bored easily as well. Might as well do something productive with my time."
Starting the car and putting it into gear, he made an effort to empty his mind of all his melancholy thoughts in preparation of a guys' night out with his friends. If his memory serves him right, the night ahead would be filled with drinks and laughter while they bring up old, embarrassing and funny stories from the past. Smiling to himself, Xi Men drove out of his building and turned towards the direction of VS.