Sorry I updated to late, the parental units dragged me off to visit my sister from hell in her city, which is like three hours of car riding, and it was so stupid, and I feel asleep and actually had a lost dream that the monster was chancing me and I woke up and this giant shadow passed my car and I screamed and it was just a crane (the machine) and my mom asked what my problem was…
Pangs of Guilt
Chapter 18
Two Weeks Away
"She's not coming back," Jack expressed for the fifth time, he sat at the fire with Charlie, Claire and Alex.
"What do you mean she's not coming back?" Claire asked, "Why would she stay on the beach?"
"Kate has a problem with trusting people. She moved around a lot back in the real world, so it's hard for her to except one place as her home," Jack explained the best he could, without revealing her secret past.
"So why can't you stay with her at the beach?" Charlie asked covering Alex up in his crib.
"She doesn't want me there," Jack sighed, "I'm allowed to visit her though, we agreed on every other day."
"This is foolish, Jack. Why don't I just go down there and talk some sense into her?" Claire suggested.
Charlie burst out laughing at this remark
"And what's so funny Mr. Pace?" she asked annoyed.
"Claire Love, you're a lot of things, but intimidating is not one of them," he explained.
"I think we should just let her cool off, she just needs some time to sort through her feelings, which are probably unbalanced because of pregnancy hormones," Jack suggested.
"Whatever you say," Claire replied.
"Eating time," Sawyer exclaimed as he sat next to Kate. She was lying on a blanket in the middle of the beach. It was an average day, the sun was out, but the wind had an artic nip to it.
Kate sat up, pulling her arms inside the sweater she wore, and glanced at Sawyer.
"Here," he exclaimed and handed her three bananas, "Figured you'd be hungry since you haven't eaten since last night. I don't think that's good for the package," he added.
"I can get my own food," she told him, taking the bananas.
"Yes, I know you can, but walking isn't your best feature right now," he replied.
"Sorry," she said eyeing the bananas, "I have to watch my banana count. Baby sickens of them very easy, but there's nothing else that's easily available."
"Well maybe if you'd eat meat," Sawyer suggested with a quick smirk, "But Freckles, the single mother with a heart of gold can bare to eat an a.." Sawyer caught himself, "Butt-ugly boar."
"Caught yourself," Kate smiled weakly.
"Well I have to make sure you keep coming back, don't I?" he answered.
"I don't think you have any problems there, I'm not leaving for a long time," Kate explained gravely.
"On that topic, what did you do that caused Dr. Hero to kick you out?" Sawyer asked.
"I didn't do anything," she replied somberly.
"You must've done something, because you're here now…"
Kate interrupted him, "I left."
"You left?" Sawyer asked skeptically.
"Yes, I did," she looked at him, beginning to become angry, "And I don't have to tell you why."
"Easy there, Freckles, no need to get your panties in a twist," he explained rising from his spot. Kate gave him an unimpressed look, "Come on, you're not going to be here for long, especially since you're the one who left Dr. Love."
"What?" she asked.
"You really think that Jacko's gonna let you stay on this beach by your lonesome? Hell even if you weren't packing his kid, he'd still come to check on you, being on the dangerous beach, alone. With monsters in the jungle, and big bad Sawyer. But now that you've got the kid with you, he's going to be down here everyday, trying to get you to go back with him," he explained and walked away.
"How are you feeling today?" Jack asked her as he sat down in the sand beside her.
She turned her head slightly to him; the wind was whipping her brown locks all over the place, as the waves brutally crashed against the sand. Her face bared the same worried expression it did most days.
"I'm okay, I guess," she told him bluntly, then turned to reach into her bag, pulling out the oversized knitted sweater. It must have been someone's homemade Christmas present to someone close. Little light blue yarn reindeer danced all over the front of the navy blue sweater.
"I'm a little cold," she replied with a forced smile, Jack returned it.
"How's the baby?" he asked sitting with his hands draped over his knees.
Kate defensively pulled her arms up into the large sweater, "She's okay."
"Has she kicked yet?" Jack asked, "Babies can start to kick in the fifth month," he explained.
"No, never felt anything that felt like a kick, even when I eat bananas," she replied.
Jack smiled, "Well maybe she doesn't want to cause you any grief," he suggested.
"Maybe…" Kate trailed off, looking out into the horizon.
"Do you talk to her?" he asked, "She can hear now," Jack explained.
"I talk to myself, maybe she listens," Kate shrugged.
The clouds brewed overhead and the low rumble of thunder could be heard, Jack looked up as the first few drops of rain fell.
"I'd better get back to the caves before a downpour starts," Jack explained standing and dusting his pant legs off.
"Okay," Kate acknowledged quietly.
"Do you need help getting up?" he asked her as he adjusted his bag on his back.
She smiled, "Yeah, I do." It had become hard to stand on her own, without the help of anything to lean on.
He walked in front of her and reached down. Placing one of his hands underneath each of her biceps. She leaned up, pulling him closer and sliding her hand down his back for stability. He moved one of his hands to her back, making sure she didn't tumble over.
Once she was up, she immediately let go of him, and he reluctantly did the same with her. And even though it pained them both, he walked away, and back to the caves.
"Hey," Shannon greeted with a weak wave. She stood, feet implanted in the sand, as the wind whipped around her dangerously short skirt.
Kate leaned up from her sleeping spot, she had been trying all day to fall asleep but so far no success had resulted. She lifted her hand to cover the suns glare in order to get a better look at who was talking to her. She had suspected it was Shannon by the figure and the voice, but why would Shannon want to talk to her?
"Hi," Kate greeted, she wasn't really sure how to address the situation. The only time Shannon came to her was if she needed something, especially reassurance.
"I was just wondering if you needed some company. You're always out here by yourself all day, except if Jack or Sawyer drops by," Shannon explained.
"Well I'm not entirely alone," Kate explained sitting all the way up, and rubbing her protruding stomach.
Shannon giggled, "I guess not," she added.
"Here," Kate said as she grabbed another blanket and spread it out next to hers, "Sit."
"Thanks," Shannon smiled graciously and took a seat on the dull gray blanket.
"How's Boone?" Kate asked, not knowing what to say.
"He's good, since Jack's left though, he's taken on the role as leader. He wants everything to be perfect, and he, out of all people should know it's not possible," she laughed.
"Give him time, the island will eventually change that," Kate suggested smiling.
"Yeah, he kind of went into overdrive because he wants to do all the good he can before we get rescued," she smiled, "I would've never dreamt we'd be here for this long."
"I thought we'd be rescued the first day," Kate laughed, "Was I naïve or what?"
"I think I was pretty much self centered the first six months here, and I'm sorry for that," Shannon divulged, "I pretty much only cared about myself. Boone found me a chocolate bar that first day and I wouldn't eat it because it was chocolate. Do you know what I'd do for chocolate now?"
"You and me both, I have all these crazy cravings and all I eat is bananas. For breakfast, lunch and supper it's the same. And the baby hates bananas," Kate sighed.
"I guess it's hard, huh?" Shannon asked.
"At first it is, but then you get into a routine, like when you have to pee, or when you need to eat, or rest. But usually that changes every three months or so, so you just have to adjust," Kate explained.
"Jack's okay with this?" Shannon asked, "Not that you have to answer, I don't want to pry..."
Kate laughed, "No, Jack's fine with it. He was actually the calm one when we realized we are going to have baby. He's the one that kept me from going stark raving mad."
"Then what are you doing here?" Shannon asked, "I mean, I see the way you look at him, the way you are when you're around him, and the way he is with you. It's like he looses all the tension of the day. So why aren't you guys together?"
"I don't know," Kate whispered.
I Really love this chapter, it just shows how they interact with other people and how much all the other islanders care about their situation. Alright there's a LOT of reviews so bare with me…
Pink Pinker Me and Lizzie (my best buddy (we're inseparable)) watch Lost together every Wednesday. And she has to pay me by drawing me a Lost comic every Wednesday. And we call it Bear Village and the whole premises of the story is everyone kicking Sawyer in the nads lol. In the first issue Shannon threw her cell phone at him and Kate kicked him, and Jack strangled him, and he ate Vincent. Then I drew her one back and in ever single caption Boone's in the background trying to wake Shannon up because she had an asthma attack and is like dead. And all Jack ever says is "KATE NOOOO!" Lol I have them all hanging in my locker. My sister hates the show, she only like Sayid because no one does, and she traded me a picture of Jack for Greek answers lol .
IrethAnwarunya I think I have some Charlie and Claire but only a little bit because I'm a major Kate and Jack fan myself, but in the future there might be another couple…
MegaWriter But if you stopped saying that I'd think that my writing got bad! And I just write what I see when I think up the plotlines so I'm glad it comes across properly. School sucks majorly.
Freckles-101 I can and will continue to do this to you until you have realized the age old relationships phrase…that as bad as the breakup is, the make up (if there is one) is always 10 times as better.
CrAzYhOrSeGiRl88 Yeah I have to have a mixture because if a go to sad, I get depressed and if I go to happy it's not realistic. I would so do what Kate's doing but that's just because I'm a drama queen. And this tragic event isn't all so much tragic as it is an event, perhaps an event that'll jolt Kate back to reality? Maybe shake her up a bit and scare the beejabbers out of her?
Tatiana Ha see, she loves the story too, so Boo Radly to the rest of you! (JK)
FanOfLOST Very good, looks like you don't need the words of wisdom given to Freckles-101. But a little Sawyer/Kate never hurt anyone? What happens if the baby's his? Then would that hurt someone (other then me?)
Lara Chubb of Deephollow Hmm I think they need to spend a little more time apart
Lostobsessivefreak Yeah Canadian's rule! High-five And of course Y'all can dance it up with Chaalee. NP about not reviewing, I can't review from my home computer because something's whack with it, I don't know something about a mother board (Don't you be talking about my mother board).
Rain1657 Aww I'm sorry, none of my friends read this story. Actually they don't read anything I write, partly because I'm ashamed to actually see replies lol. And I'll tell you that it might get better soon (between Jack and Kate)
StandardBlack Lol when you said you trusted me I automatically thought of that falling exercise where someone has to catch you, bad memories… And yeah Jack does a whole bunch of adorable things, because I can just picture him doing them, cause lets face it, he's an adorable guy. And I'm waiting for your stories update!
Oreata Lol love the school story but you forgot, "And our school was the size of a shoe box and we all had to scrunch in it and there was no room and no windows and we couldn't breath…
Evermore I'm glad some people like them, I was beginning to thin that I was just talking to myself and cast members…I don't know I don't have a Chaalee and Claire song together, but I have both of them separately Claire's is to the tune of I get knocked down by Chumbawumba and it's called "I got knocked up" Yeah I know I'm vicious…
Bucky Good to feel the love, and the tragic event is kinda border lining on tragic and non tragic, more of a wake up call for Kate…
Itsrikkig Before the baby is born…I think I can do that ;)
Whirlwind- 2005 Lol I have the authority to ruin it if I started it, kinda like a parent telling you "I created you I can destroy you…"
Next Chapter- The TRAGIC EVENT………DON DON DON! And I want you all to take a whack and try and guess what happens, who knows if you get it right you might get to dance in a routine musical thingy…I don't know whatever I've got going on…
Charlie: HEY! You Bloody forgot my song!
OMG I'm so sorry Charlie, do right ahead.
Leaf curtains open and Charlie comes on the stage dancing, followed by his back-up dancers Oreata and LOF (lost obsessive Freak). Claire walks by and he grabs her by the arm
Charlie (singing to Toxic): Clairey can't you see? I'm not okay! I wish there was, another way. Digs through pocket and pulls out heroin I can give up smack hands it to Claire But NOT TODAY! Grabs it back.
Music :do do do do do, da da da da da , pweeeeeeeee neeeeeeeeeee neeeeeeeeee neeeeeeee neeeeeeeee
Oreata and LOF: He's so high, he can't come down, each day, he huffs four pounds…
Charlie: I can't feel my arm
Music :do do do do do, da da da da da , pweeeeeeeee neeeeeeeeeee neeeeeeeeee neeeeeeee neeeeeeeee
Charlie (Walks back on stage then quickly turns): It's the smack on my lips that gets me high! My toxic habit's going to make me die! It's the little plastic bag that makes my day,
Oreata and LOF: He's addicted to it and you know that it's toxic…