Okay I am so sorry for not updating, but all my classes changed and English came down on me hard! So hard, smack that class. Anyways, I'm so sorry, but I don't know when I'll be able to update next. Probably Friday or Saturday, since I'm off then and I never do homework on the weekends…
Alright Authors note number 1- All Kate's past is totally made up, why because I needed it for page 115. Yeah yeah I know I'm working this story into a synthetic web off angsty problems…
Authors note numéro 2- The baby's name was chosen, by me, before I even wrote this story (Alright so whenever Kate fell out of the tree was when I choose the name for the baby (Quick trivia for you, I was originally going to stop the story there… It was 16 pages long…)) Anywho the name is explained… Because you know I can't just pick a random name it has to be part of the synthetic problem web…
Author's note numbre 3- Enjoy this cute fluffy fluff of a chapter.
Pangs Of Guilt
Chapter 20 (A Mile Stone)
What's In A Name
"Where did Charlie and Claire go?" Jack asked taking a seat on a log behind Kate; she was sitting on the ground, gently patting Alex on the back so he would burp.
Kate smiled, "They wanted to have a little time alone, so I volunteered to take care of him. I've never had experience with babies before."
"Neither have I," Jack revealed.
"You're a doctor," Kate replied, still rubbing Alex's back.
"I'm a spinal surgeon, we don't usually get many babies…" he explained.
"So you had to do a pediatric rotation," she retorted.
"How do you know?" he questioned.
"I've seen ER," she smiled deviously, and then added, "So you're an only child Dr. Sheppard?"
"Yeah, are you?" he asked.
"No," she replied moving Alex to the other shoulder, "I have four older brothers."
"Wow," He responded slightly amazed.
"I was second oldest for awhile, but my little brother died when he was three days old. His lungs were under developed," She replied quietly.
"I'm sorry," Jack apologized.
"Don't worry; I'd feel sorry for him if he lived, he and I were late babies. Twenty, nineteen, seventeen, and sixteen was how old my brothers were when I was born, and I was two when my little brother was born, so you can imagine," Kate explained.
"Pretty big age gaps," Jack stated while caressing Kate's empty shoulder, "I'm sure they miss you."
"I doubt it. I'm not very close to my two oldest brothers; they were already away at college when I was born. And the youngest of my brothers was a bad apple, who was hardly home. So it was just me and Liam, he was the one who taught me everything, he took care of me most of the time because my dad didn't particularly care for me, and my mom was always working," she answered placing the now sleeping Alex in his crib.
"I thought you said you had a good childhood," Jack reminded.
"I did," she responded sitting back down in front of Jack, "Liam was a very good brother, and he probably does miss me, the thing is I've been dead to them for awhile. Once I was fifteen I left, and went on the road breaking every single law I could. They haven't heard from me since." Jack sighed and wrapped his arms around Kate's shoulders, "Don't worry about it Jack, none of that matters now."
"What about names?" he asked her.
"Yeah, I guess they matter," she replied.
Jack chuckled and kissed her hair, "No what about names for the baby," he posed again, "What do you want to name her."
"That's a good question, I've never been good at naming," she replied.
"Well I think you should name her, at least the first name. I mean you are the one doing the hard part, all I had to do was be there for the fun stuff," he explained.
"Not much pressure on my part is it?" she asked.
"Any name you want, I'll agree on," he added.
"Alright, Maverick," she exclaimed.
"Maverick?" He asked.
"Yeah, Maverick," she smiled.
"Maverick?" he asked again, seemingly unimpressed.
"I think it suits her perfectly, " Kate explained, "We've been so close to loosing her, so many times, yet she's not giving in. She's independent and unorthodox which is what Maverick means."
"It's sounding better," Jack replied.
"You can call her Mavey," Kate suggested.
Jack smiled, "Okay, Maverick it is."
Lightning struck and illuminated the cave. Shadows seemed to dance across the walls. Rain poured limitlessly outside and showed no sign of stopping anytime near in the future.
Jack grimaced at the unwelcome flash of radiance, as it accidentally woke him from sleep. He sighed; of course when he was happily snoring something had to wake him up.
Opening his eyes he blinked furiously, trying to regain enough consciousness to do anything effectively. He turned to look behind him, to see if he had woken Kate up. He ended up doing a double take, because he noticed that Kate wasn't in her usual spot beside him.
He sat up immediately and relaxed when he saw her staring into the rain. He yawned involuntarily and threw the blanket off of him, groggily rising to his feet. The cave floor was freezing, and even though it was mid April, whenever the storms came, they always brought along a chilly wind.
He walked briskly across the floor to limit the cold contact, stopped beside Kate. She sat close to the cave entrance, watching the rain fall endlessly outside. Her large stomach protruded from between where her tanktop and her pants would have met six months ago.
As he sat beside her, the freezing temperature from the floor made him shiver involuntarily. He looked back at where they slept, under one blanket, and on top of another, that's where his shirt lay. He wished now that he would've gotten it before he decided to sit with Kate.
He looked over at her, her eyes dull and illustrated the sleepless nights she'd been experiencing lately. Her hands and her chin were on her knees, though it was a tough position to get into.
"Kate?" he asked as he touched her arm gently.
She shot out of her thoughts and jerked surprisingly, the fatigue in her eyes was gone for a swift moment, "Sorry Jack," she laughed, "You startled me."
"Sorry," he apologized as well, "The lightning woke me up, and you weren't over there," he explained gesturing at the makeshift bed, "Are you okay?"
She smiled, "Yeah I'm fine," she replied as she leaned over and kissed him lightly, "You don't have to stay up with me, go to bed. You have things you have to do in the morning, I'm benched remember?"
"Why aren't you asleep?" he asked moving a stray piece of hair out of her face.
"My sleeping habits have been attacked by a collaboration, seems that when I'm not having nightmares," she sighed, "This one, decides to play the drums on my bladder and stomach."
"She's kicking a lot?" Jack smiled.
"Yeah, but don't worry about that," Kate advised him, "Go back to bed," she suggested capturing another quick kiss from him, "Go, go, go."
Jack smiled and got up, Kate imagined he was going back to sleep, but seconds later she felt his arms slide around her from behind her and encircle her in warmth.
"Jack," she sighed.
"Kate, just because you can feel the baby and I can't, doesn't mean that you should have to deal with it alone. Mavey's my baby too," Jack explained entwining his fingers through hers, and placed his chin on her shoulder.
Kate kissed his cheek, and then leaned in and placed her soft cheek against his stubble, "You're too good for me," she explained, then laughed.
"What?" he asked pulling away and looking at her.
"Mavey," she smiled, and kissed him.
"Yeah, she's the reason we're both up right?" Jack asked, and then placed both their hands onto her stomach to feel the bombardment of kicks
Alright, now it is time for me to answer the thousands and thousands and thousands upon hundreds of reviews (If I was Santa Claus these would be like letters from little kids (But I know Santa Claus and contrary to what you have been told, I am not he.)) So here we go… starting at 3:31pm… And I will apologize to each of you individually…
Tatiana I like Shannon to, I got sad when I thought she died, because I was like "She had potential", if she would just get that pickle removed from her behind, and I'm sorry for not updating…
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Pink Pinker Lol me, my mom and Lizzie, bet on who was going to kill Ethan and Lizzie won and like screamed so loud "I WON I WON IT'S ME I WON THE MONEY!" Lol and then me and Lizzie make up random theories that Jack was Locke's doctor when he became crippled (or like a med student) and Locke got run over by Charlie's DriveShaft van, and Sun and Jin were flying to Austrilia to do business (Fake business) with Sawyer. And it goes on and on but I think the only two people we couldn't work in were Hurley and Claire and I said Claire could've conversed with one of them at the 'Fish and Fry' or one of them like Walt's momma could've bought one of Thomas's paintings. And then Lizzie was like "What About Hurley" and I said "Claire's his momma…" and then we both started laughing… sorry for not updating
JasmineHR I guess I only get like 5 cookies because you were the only one to suggest your own name (Vain aren't we? (Totally kidding)) But As I said the name was chosen before for a reason. I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter and I'm sorry for not choosing your name (Believe me it's a cool name (better then my first name which is so stupid I actually chose to go by a MIDDLE one on the internet lol) Sorry for not updating!
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And I am spent! It only took an hour (it's 4:34) but I was talking to my Ex on msn, so I was distracted. Blah. Woe. Anyways…
Next Chapter- Some serious issues discussed, some unasked questions answered, some fears revealed.
Next Next Chapter- Adorableness is the word of the day, it's so cute
I don't know when the next update is because I have a lot to do, research for American History, stuff for English to avoid getting the stink eye from my teacher, drawing a speedoloupe in art, and I have to take care of my baby in parenting (But I don't know when I get it…)