A/N: Just a little something between each chapter! Starting with Miriallia!
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN SEED!
Miriallia Haww's Journal Entry
February 2, 2005
Diary,
UGH! Dearka Elthmann has got to be the most infuriating man on the face of the Earth! With that stupid, smug smile of his, and the way he has girls latching on to him like Velcro, it makes me sick! Maybe if he didn't chase after me like all those other girls I wouldn't hate him as much, but hello? And people think I'm jealous of all those other bimbos! I'm NOT! I'm not like all those other girls who latch onto Elthmann just because I- err I mean they like his money and non-existent looks! I'll like someone for his personality not how much money he has or how hot he is! Besides, my dream man is nothing like Elthmann! In fact, I want him to be sweet, not a player, someone who'll treat me right, not treat me like I'm any other girl he sees in the world, because then, what's the point of being in love, right? Tolle did, but now he's gone… I still can't get over how he left like that. Sure, he said he 'wanted me to be happy' and 'move on with my life' but how could I? He and I were going to have a life together when we graduated high school! And now he's gone, stupid guy! How does anyone just 'get up and move on'! You can't just do that! I can't do that! I don't know what Tolle was thinking… I still love him. Oh dammit… I'd better stop crying before Mom or Dad come up and ask me what's wrong.
February 2, 2005
Diary,
I'm writing again, because, I need to sort out my thoughts. So many things happened today that I forgot to mention in my last entry because of him. Anyway, I had to stay behind school, working and planning out the decorations for the upcoming Valentine Dance at our school. It's gonna be really great, I think. I'm not looking forward to this year's Valentine at all. I mean, it's the first Valentine I'll spend without Tolle. I really looked forward to going to this dance together. Ever since I got into high school, going to every major dance with him has been my dream. With a gorgeous dress and Tolle in his tux. You know, the average girlfriend's dream. And the Valentine Dance is for junior and senior students only! When I was a freshman and I saw the flyer for it, I've always wanted to do the decor and go to the dance with Tolle. I even picked out the perfect dress! I could always imagine the exact color of the lights, the flowers, and he and I slow dancing in the dead center...
But look now... Tolle is... gone. If it hadn't been for that stupid, stupid drunk driver, he'd still be with me! We'd be at that dance together! Life sucks so much sometimes, doesn't it? I mean, it took Tolle and threw me Elthmann! NOT that I like him of course! It's just... they're different! Tolle didn't chase after every available girl, and Elthmann, well, it would be impossible for me, err I mean ANYONE to keep him from cheating on them! But I DON'T care. Why would I? It's not like I'm in love with him or anything! Ugh! He just infuriates me so much! I hate him, yet he's all I can think about these days! His smug voice, that arrogant smirk, his playboy attitude... OK. I'm going to sleep before I drive myself insane thinking, no, coming up with all the things that are wrong with him.