'Thoughtless' by Evanesence. Graphic, morbid chapter. Discretion is advised. Please don't hurt me.
Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down . . .
Kai's footsteps were hurried as he tried not to break into a sprint. The bastard didn't deserve it, but Kai was anxious, wanted to get this done. His blood sang through his veins, pumped from his rapidly beating heart, coursing into his muscles. His senses screamed at him, his breath rasping from his lungs as adrenaline sent him into hypersensitivity. Almost there . . .
"Soon," he whispered to himself, no longer trying to stay calm. Soon. It would all be over. The nightmare would end . . . soon.
He looked up at the apartment complex where Bryan lived, seething as he glared up at the lighted window. Bryan was inside.
Stalking into the silent building, he let himself into the elevator, pressing the button for the third floor. His hand reached into his pocket, wrapping around his weapon. His fingers flexed, clenching it tightly, positive he could reach it quickly. He tried not to squirm as the elevator continued its slow ascent, but it took so long . . . he should have taken the stairs . . .
With a small hiss of air, the doors parted, releasing Kai into the gloomy hallway. He paced down the rows of doors, stopping before the one he wanted.
Soon . . .
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you in the ground, ground, ground . . .
He twisted the doorknob only to feel it jerk, refusing to go any further. Locked. Stepping back, Kai's foot lashed out at the door, hitting it right below the lock, breaking the mechanism. The wooden portal crashed inward, the Gates of Hade swinging open to receive him.
He knew where he would be, he knew that he was waiting.
Bryan lay on the bed, glancing up from his book as the furious youth burst into his room. He offered no resistance as Kai gripped his shirt front and hauled him to his feet, lifting him to dangle centimeters from the ground. His book fell to the floor, forgotten, its pages flinging open to crush beneath the binding.
Eyes that shone with the red of hellfire bore into his own calm lilac ones and he smirked at the other Russian. A short laugh burst from his lips as he defied the ferocity before him, his lips twisting into a mocking grin.
"So, the little whore came crawling back to you."
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
Kai's face tightened with hate, his arms beginning to shake from a combination of Bryan's weight and fury. Pulling the violet haired teen closer, he hissed "Never call him that again."
"Why?" Bryan whispered back. "Because you love him?" Leaning even closer, he felt Kai's ragged breath on his lips as he taunted him. "He isn't capable of love Kai."
The crimson eyes in front of him flickered briefly, recalling what he had repeated to himself the entire way here. He wasn't capable of love anymore, Tala didn't understand what love meant. Neither of them really loved the other.
Bryan's voice was soft, alluring as he murmured to him. "He's a toy. Toys have no emotion."
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me
All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned in your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
The thought of his disregard for Tala brought Kai back to the present. This wasn't about Tala. This was about Bryan and himself. And Bryan knew that. He had brought the redhead to his mind to make him hesitate, to make him doubt the reasons he was here. To cut him deeper than he already had, looking for an opening to tear him apart. Disgust filled him and he shoved the larger boy away.
Bryan fell back, landing awkwardly, half against the wall, half collapsed to the ground. His eyes lifted to meet Kai's as the Phoenix spoke.
"I know what you're trying to do," he accused. "I don't know why you hate me this much, but I won't let you hurt me any more."
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
A deranged snicker sounded from the fallen boy as he lifted himself from the floor. "Why do I hate you? Come on Kai, take a guess."
He watched warily, hand ready to plunge into his pocket. "I've been nothing but a friend to you. And you betrayed me for it."
" 'Nothing but a friend.' Precisely Kai. Precisely."
Kai forced himself not to take a step back to match Bryan's forward one. His eyes narrowed, contemplating him. It made no sense . . .
Bryan took another step closer, studying Kai carefully as he spoke. "I hate you because you never loved me. Always him and never me." His expression hardened with determination, manic glee in his smile. "And if you can't love me, then you will hate me for eternity, knowing that I did this to you. You will never forget me."
I'm above you, smiling as you drown, drown drown . . .
Kai stood frozen, ruby eyes wide in shock, not even registering that Bryan had moved closer. He blinked, meeting the crazed lilac orbs before him. He shook his head, disbelieving. "That doesn't make sense . . . why would you . . .?"
"Want you? Covet you? Because you are perfect. You contain no flaws. No one can love you because no one can love a god. I will be the person who tears the god from his dais, who cuts him and makes him bleed. It will destroy you, but then you'll be mine, if not in love, in hate. You'll be ruined, but you'll be mortal"
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
The Phoenix stiffened at his words, his fists clenching and uncleanching at his sides, aching to reach into his pocket and end this. His world had been destroyed because of some petty jealousy? Because this asshole couldn't deal with rejection?
"I don't care! Who said you were entitled to ruin everything that matters to me because I didn't know you had feelings for me? You think you even have that right?"
And I pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down . . .
Bryan stood motionless, watching the youth in front of him. "Yes."
Kai's arm lifted on its own accord, pointing his coldly glinting weapon at his one-time friend. "You're wrong."
A loud crack tore through the air. A puff of black smoke. A messenger of death sped forward.
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
A gasp if pain. A small thud as his fingers loosened, dropping the object in them to the carpet. With a grimace, Kai fell to his knees beside his knife, clutching the wound just below his chest.
A flower of crimson blossoming over his torso, seeping through his shirt and staining his hands.
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me
Bryan tossed the gun carelessly onto the bed, kicking the knife away from Kai. He leaned over, lifting his chin so Kai was forced to meet his gaze. Red eyes clouded over in pain and he leered at the smaller Russian.
"Tell me pussycat, how does it feel? This is your fault, you could have saved yourself. You could have saved him. But you forced me to do this, there was no other way." He laughed shortly, tightening his grip. "This is what it means to be alone my love. This is what you did to me."
All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned in your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
Kai pulled his face away, struggling to move his leg to support himself. He rose shakily, half-crouched, trying to ignore the other boy that loomed over him. A foot shot out, knocking his leg from beneath him, sending the bluenette to collapse back to the ground. He looked up just in time to see a fist fly at his face, and then . . . nothing. The darkness exploded milli-seconds later with light and pain as he felt the bone in his nose shatter and warm, sticky liquid dripped down his flesh.
He struggled to breathe, blood from his lungs welling in his mouth, drowning him. Drowning . . .
And suddenly, Bryan was on top of him, crushing their lips together brutally, tasting the coppery tang that permeated the other, wallowing in the savory flavor. He tore at Kai's stained shirt, ripping it from his chest. Running his palms over the freshly marred skin he grinned with delight as he watched Kai bite his lip to hold back a cry. The suffering that unfolded beneath him fueled his desire, sending him into a frenzy of lust.
Kai whimpered when he felt the buttons on his jeans come undone. He knew what was happening. And he was helpless.
Bryan shifted to trail the end of his hardened member over Kai's stomach, watching him wince at the touch, as pre-cum trickled into the bullet hole. He reached beneath himself, thrusting his fingers into Kai, drawing a wet gasp of torture. Scissoring them cruelly, he stared in a mixture of fascination and lust as Kai bit through his own lip to remain silent.
Removing his hand, he gripped Kai's wrists, pulling them above his head, pinning him as he placed the tip of his length at his opening. Swooping down to bite the pale boy's neck, he thrust into him as fully as he could. Kai screamed as Bryan began to move inside him, pounding into him roughly. His speed and intensity increased as he satisfied himself with the dying boy, licking the blood that pooled in the hollow of his throat.
I will see you screaming
Bryan's crow of triumph jarred with an agonized scream that tore from Kai as the larger boy came inside him. Pulling himself free, Bryan smothered reached into Kai's pocket, pulling out a key before smothering his lips one final time before standing and readjusting his clothing.
"It's been fun babe, but I gotta go," he told him, smirking down at Kai. The scarlet eyes were fading fast, his breaths only audible as jagged gurgles. Soon it would be over. Soon . . .
"Oh, by the way . . . don't worry about Tala. I promise I'll take care of him for you." He pause at the doorway, turning to see the effect of his comment.
Kai groaned, levering his broken body off the ground for a moment, arms trembling. "No . . ." he whispered wetly. "I won't . . . let you . . . hurt him."
Bryan laughed, shaking his head pityingly at him. "But Kai, don't you remember?" he asked sweetly. "A dead man owns nothing. If you're not going to use him, I might as well."
All my friends are gone, they died
Gonna take you down
They all screamed and cried
Gonna take you down
Tala sat at the kitchen table, staring silently at the grain in the wood, waiting, waiting. He jumped, hearing the doorknob jiggle. He stood from his chair, leaning his arms on the table to see the door as it opened. "Kai?"
"Aw, how cute," Bryan sneered at the frozen Wolf. "Sorry, but Kai won't be joining us this evening. He's trying to get a bullet out of his stomach. I don't think it's working out for him."
Wide blue eyes filled with tears of disbelief. No. It wasn't possible. Kai wasn't dead. This was all some horrible plot of Bryan's to make him think that it was over. Kai would come back any minute and kill Bryan. It was just a lie. It wasn't real.
But there was blood smeared over Bryan's hands and lips. Kai's blood. "Kai . . . no . . ."
Pacing swiftly across the room, Bryan cornered Tala between the wall and table. Nowhere to run. "What's the matter Tala? I told him I'd look after you . . ."
I never forget never forget I never forget never never forget
Tala stared though Bryan like he was a ghost, a single thought running through his ming. 'This is all my fault. I killed him . . . he died because I betrayed him . . . my fault . . . my fault . . .'
All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned in your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
Bryan's rough hands roamed his body, but Tala barely noticed. His thoughts were focused on Kai. On his guilt. On the fact that he had killed him.
"Yes, yes you did." Bryan hissed in his ear. He had spoken aloud without realizing. The words from the violet haired Blader brought Tala back to the now. Bryan's fingers buried in his hair, wrenching his head back painfully. The redhead was pulled away from the wall and pushed into the table, doubling over it as the breath was knocked from him.
"I told you he couldn't hurt me. I told you he would never have you." He leaned over the slender boy, his erection pressed hard against him, a dire promise. "I told you you were mine.
I will see you screaming
Fin
And so you have it. I know. I'm terrible. Oh well, no one saw it coming, I can assure you of that. I'm ready for the flames and cries of 'How could you!' but it was worth it. Somewhat anti-climactic, but nonetheless, I'm pleased. Originally, Kai killed Bryan and got back together with Tala for the sake of an illusion, but it's much better this way, ne?