Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or the song 'Endlessly'. The song is entirely Muse's.
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There's a part of me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show
She stared at him, knowing he didn't know she watched him back. She hoped he would figure it out sometime, but occasionally she wanted to end the charade and go over to him and tell him her feelings for everyone to know. Thankfully her friends were there to tell her that would be foolish and only cause him to mock her. Then the world came crashing down on her and she realized he would never love her. He "was above" her. He "was superior" to her. So she watched from a distance, and loved him more.
Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly, hopelessly
I'll give you everything, but I won't give you up
She gave up on hope of him loving her last term when he sneered at her when she was given an 'O' in front of the entire Arithmancy class. She knew he wouldn't love her. Hope, though, wouldn't give up on her. It tugged at her heartstrings every time she caught him glancing her way. She was sure he was only watching her because of something his father told him to do, but hope lingered still, causing her to wake up in the middle of the night, sweating, with her nightshirt soaked around the neck from the tears she didn't remember shedding.
I won't let you down, I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes
She was sure that if he ever showed an inclination towards her she would never leave him hanging. She told her friends that, and they said that if she continued to hold onto a useless cause she would lose herself in the throes of her fantasy world. But she knew that if he fell from his hold on his own personal world she would be there to catch him and bring him into the light.
It's plain to see, it's trying to speak
Cherished dreams forever sleep
She never told her friends, but every night she dreamed of him. Dreamed of what their life together could be. A manor was frequently featured, and sometimes she saw two laughing children running past them. The girl had white-blonde hair like him and the boy looked like her, with curly brown hair. She then looked into his smiling face and heard him whisper, "I love you."
Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly, hopelessly
I'll give you everything but I won't give you up
No matter what her friend said she refused to give up the thought of him. Her grades weren't dropping, and neither was her involvement in their lives. She could daydream all she wanted, she told them. Then they normally sighed and told her it was a pipedream, something that would never come to be. She ignored them and continued to watch him from afar, loving him more with every breath she took.
I won't let you down, I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes
Then, finally, one night at dinner she was watching him as he got up and left. Her heart panged. She usually looked forward to dinner as a chance to watch him without being noticed by her friends.
She excused herself from the conversation going around her and followed him. She saw him kick the wall and then sigh, leaning up against it.
"Malfoy?" she ventured quietly.
He started and whipped around quickly. "Granger?" he said, surprised. "What d'you want?"
She licked her lips and stepped forward carefully. "It's just, you seem to be looking at me quite a lot recently…" She chewed on her lower lip while waiting for an answer.
He moved to lean against the wall again and swept his pale blonde hair out of his eyes. "So?"
His short and matter-of-fact answer surprised. She bit down on her lip harder than usual. She felt the skin come apart and gasped. Her fingers went to her face as her blood dripped down her chin. He reached into his pocket and pulled something out, saying, "Now you see, you shouldn't bite your lips when they're so dry. It's not good for them." He gently pressed the cloth to her lips and looked into her eyes, his expression softening.
"Fahnk 'oo," she lisped through the handkerchief.
"You're welcome," he said as he turned away from her and walked away. "Keep the kerchief, I don't need it."
She stood there and a single tear leaked out of her eye and ran down her face until it was absorbed by the kerchief. She clutched the cloth tightly, knowing she would never throw it away. It was her one link to the one she loved.
Knowing he couldn't hear her, she whispered, "I love you, Draco Malfoy."
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A/N: Sequel to 'I want you now'. Originally written for the cookie jar of the S.S. Leather & Libraries at Based off of a Muse song, Endlessly.
