b Yay, I want to do another Ellie poetry chapter, because they're funner and easier to write. I know the format will suck, but it's okay because you guys love me! Right? Right. /b
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Paige is in the loony bin
And I don't know when I'll get to see her next
But if she ends up like me
I will hate myself for a lifetime.
Marco is okay
And so is Dylan
They're both back in school
And without Paige,
Marco sticks by my side,
Just like it was in grade 9.
I've been cutting less
But doing acid more
Because acid is more beautiful
Than watching blood flow from your body...
Wait, scratch that.
Blood is gorgeous.
Acid is not.
You never know whether you'll
Go on a good trip or a bummer
I read Go Ask Alice
And now I'm scared
That I'll end up
In the loony bin
Like Paige...
I'm so scared that I could die
But I don't want to die
I don't want to kill myself
I want to talk to Craig
To see if he knew any of this was heading her way.
I'm such a mess right now,
Bleeding all over the place and crying and snorting coke
And I'm still not numb
So I'll cut deeper and cry harder and snort more
And maybe I'll get number.
Sean has been calling me off the fucking hook
And it's very annoying
Because he won't leave me alone
Even when I say that he left me in shambles.
I'm all alone in this huge house
All the time
Every day
And I need to get my ferret back from Sean
Because he wouldn't let me take Boots back with me.
Boots is my companion,
Besides the cuts on my arms, legs, stomach, && shoulders.
I love them so much.
And I wonder if the scars will ever fade.
I'm hoping against it.
-- Ellie
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Ooh, these are much fun to write! But soon I'm going to run out of material and go on hiatus, not for a while, though!