I won't dare ruin the melancholy tone of this fanfic with a long author's note. This is one-sided shoujo-ai, to warn you readers. - But I am an SxS fan. That is all I have to say.

Solitude

Solitude was something Sakura Kinomoto's best friend had grown accustomed to. Sometimes late at night 11 year-old Tomoyo Daidoujii dreamed of herself happier than she already is. She dreams and in her dreams she created a world.

A world where everything is Sakura and Sakura is everything she owns. Oh how a joyful rush comes to her cheeks and brightens Tomoyo's cold, pale skin.

In this world where there are no cards, there is no Syaoran or Meling or Eriol, this part of the dream she feels bad about but in fact this world contains no one but her and Sakura. It is just them alone in endless forever.

The vivid dream comes to her in tiny peices now. Now that everything is over. Now that Sakura is Syoaran's forever. And the 21 year old Daidoujii woman is happy for her Sakura, for her lovely best friend.

She lives to see that smile etched across the tiny face belonging to Sakura Kinomoto. The smile that appears while she is with Syoaran Li. This Tomoyo Daidoujii is not jealous of, she knows Syoaran better than the man probably knows himself.

But if only she had gotten her point across sooner, to Sakura than maybe..It would be her lying next to the honey-haired girl each and every night. Drowning in the scent of her soft color.

But sometimes still late at night the vivid dream comes back to Tomoyo in bits and peices.

' The wind flutters, the sun smiles and the plants sing as an 11 year old girl with violet-grey hair perches on a rock in solitude. Alas there is a wide smile across her frosty lips, a smile that makes each part of her shine more than it ever did before.

Her long hair casscades down to the small of her back. There are no people for miles and miles around besides one other. Another girl just a little younger sits close by, strollign along the dirt with flowers in her hair, her clothes dissarray yet she is without a care.

A tune flows from her tiny lips, a tune that drifts to the other girl, making her turn around and watch. Her azure eyes flash with happiness.

"Oh! Tomoyo-chan I didn't see you there. What are you doing out here all alone?" Sakura spoke in a loud, sweet voice.

The more matured girl gave a little giggle. "Good morning Sakura. I just wanted to look out at the view, isn't it so beautiful?"

She spoke in a more more soft tone yet filled with the same sugary happiness.

"But Tomoyo, you knwo you never have to be alone. Not ever. Because I'm right here for you and I will always be."

They hug briefly. '

In her sleep the adult woman let's a sile grace her lips, one of her daily features. But this time it is filled with pure joy. Something that you only see on her face when she thinks of Sakura.

She is in her own happy world, the world in which she longs to live in for the rest of her life. It is too bad we cannot sleep forever. ne?

So when the sun streaks through her windows and sweat starts to pour down her face, the pale woman finally flutters her eyes open. She looks at her surroundings with wider eyes than usual and feels the absence of peace in her soul. Because every time after she wakes up..

Tomoyo Daidoujii remembers that she is alone.

FINIS

Thank you.