(A/N) Ok, I've started over. My other story (The Marauders Years) SUCKED! I HATED IT! So that's why I'm starting over. In my other story, James was the main character. Lily is the main character in this story. It's mainly through her eyes, but it will be through James' eyes too.
It takes place in first year. It's obviously Lily/James. I hope this story is better and I hope people will actually review. This first chapter contains some abuse, so if that makes you uncomfortable, then don't read my story. Rated for later chapters.
Disclaimer- J.K Rowling wrote the books. I do not own anything, nor will I ever even write a book. Except on fan fiction. Am I making any sense?
Chapter 1-A new beginningI hate my life. That is what Lily Evans was thinking on a chilly August morning.
"Lily, come down for breakfast!" Lily heard her mother, Abbie calling. Lily put her hand to her forehead and climbed off her bed. She walked over to the mirror in her room and stared at herself. She was glad that she wasn't horse-faced like her sister, Petunia. She had flaming red hair and deep green eyes. She was prettier than her sister, but it seemed like Petunia got more attention from boys. Lily didn't think that her sister should be worrying about guys so soon, Lily was 11 and Petunia 13. Lily heard someone coming up the stairs. Lily sat down at her desk just as the door clicked open.
"Come on Lily, we're having eggs! That's your favorite!"
"No thanks, Mom. I'm not very hungry this morning," said Lily.
"Ok then" Abbie said. She walked out of the room and shut the door. Lily was glad that she had such privacy. She was glad she had a lock on her door. She was extremely glad that Petunia was out of town. She just wished that she could not have anyone bug her for a whole day. That way, she could catch up on her thinking. I need to get away, Lily thought.
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15 minutes later, Lily was dressed and ready to go. She walked down the stairs and sneaked out of the house. She glanced at the old swinging chair on her porch, on that swing was some of the happiest memories of her life. Just swinging silently with her dad, listening to the sounds of the neighborhood. Dogs barking. Children playing. She had always loved those sounds, she didn't know why. She wished she could swing with her dad one last time. Lily felt the tears swelling in her eyes, so she walked down the front driveway and went in no particular direction. Actually, she realized that she was heading straight towards the park. When she got there, she sat down on her favorite swing, the one that her father used to push her on when she was a little girl. She heard people laughing. Please let it not be them, she thought. She thought wrong.
"Why if it isn't the tomato" said Freddy Ross, the leader of the group.
"I think she looks more like an apple...hard headed too. Fits perfectly, don't you think?" said Jake Lilt, one of Freddy's many cronies. Lily looked up. About 20 people stood over her, boys and girls. They all started laughing. I hate this, I hate my life, Lily found herself thinking again. A little voice at the back of her head told her to stand up for herself, but it was quickly drowned out by the many people laughing at her, as they had just dumped dirt on her head.
"Go away" she mumbled.
"What was that? Sorry, couldn't hear you!" said a girl that Lily didn't recognize.
"I said go away" Lily felt proud of herself; she had said it more louder and more forcefully than she would have expected herself to. At this, they all howled with laughter and started punching her and pulling her hair.
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This went on for about an hour. They had all just stopped and left, probably because they had heard police sirens in the distance. Lily was thankful for that. She dragged herself up from the ground and brushed herself off. She had bruises on her arms and legs, from where people kicked and punched her. She looked at her watch. It was about noon, so she went to the nearest pizza restaurant and got a pizza for lunch. When she first walked in, some people stared at her bruises, but the quickly went back to their meals. She went into the bathrooms and sat down. She usually sat in the bathrooms at lunch in school too, since she didn't really have real friends. Except for her hamster, Lemiwinks. She had gotten him on her 7th birthday, and she loved him. When she had finished her pizza, she started to wander. She was thinking and wandering. At some point, she passed her house, but she just kept on walking.
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Lily suddenly realized that she was standing outside the graveyard. She walked into it and made a beeline for her dad's grave. When she got there, she leaned against the gravestone entitled:
Mark Evans
A loving father and wonderful husband
October 13, 1923-January 26, 1958
May you rest in peace
Lily started to cry. She missed her dad every day since he had died 2 years ago. He was only 35 years old, and he had died when Lily was 9 and Petunia was 11. She cried heavier. She missed her dad so much she was scared. She was scared to not have him by her side when she needed him most. The ground around her was now spotted with drops from her tears. Everything around her was a blur. She noticed a man and a woman walking hand in hand on the sidewalk. They looked at her sympathetically, but kept on walking. Lily remembered when her mom and dad walked like that, but those times were over now. She would never see her dad again, for as long as she lived. She felt small, she felt worthless. Lily laid down on the soil and fell asleep.
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When Lily woke up, there was a police officer standing over her. It was dark out, and she was cold. When Lily finally stood up, the man wrapped her in a blanket and led her to his police car. He asked where she lived, and she answered 78 Woodlynn Ave. He started to drive. They were quiet. 30 minutes later, he pulled up to her house.
"This your house?" he asked. Lily nodded and got out. As soon as she walked inside, her mother was crying and hugging her. She told Lily to go upstairs and go to sleep, but Lily wasn't tired. Instead, she ran the water in the bathtub and got in. She soaked for ten minutes, then scrubbed her hair frantically. When she stood up, she noticed the water was a murky brown. That water's not fit to wash in, she thought. She drained that bath and turned on the shower. After all the dirt was out of her hair, she dried off and got into bed. She hugged the bear that her dad got her on her 3rd birthday tightly. Lily couldn't sleep, so she flicked on her nightstand light and walked over to Lemiwinks' cage. She picked him up, but something wasn't right. Lemiwinks was usually warm, but right now, he was cold. Lily started to panic. She tried to feed him, but he didn't open his mouth like he usually did. Lily shook him, and then held him up high in the palm of her hand. He didn't like that, as he usually scratched her hand, trying to get away. He still didn't move. It took her a few minutes to realize what had happened. Her dad was dead. And now her best friend was dead. Her life had no meaning anymore. She had clinged onto that hamster for so long, and now he was gone.
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Three hours later, Lily was still lying in bed. She had put Lemiwinks' body in a paper bag at the back of the freezer, behind her parents' wedding cake. It was something that no one would eat, but no one would throw it away either. She had started crying ten minutes ago, but was interrupted. There was a loud noise coming from somewhere, and she looked frantically around. Then she spotted it. Silhouetted against the streetlights, was what appeared to be a bird of some sort. She flicked on the light and was surprised to see an owl sitting there. But she was even more surprised to find that it had a letter clamped in its beak.
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(A/N) Okay, that was disturbing. I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. It's not going to be like that EVER again. Lily is going to get some friends, and ya.... I really hoped you liked it! Please R/R!!
Rittzi