Author's note: Okay this chapter is gonna go dark and then something sad is gonna happen but then the fluff will make it better, I suppose?

Sorry if I updated for not a long time, that's the problem for writing two fanfics at the same time, if you guys know what I mean.

Author's note: Okay this chapter is gonna go dark and then something sad is gonna happen but then the fluff will make it better, I suppose?

Sorry if I updated for not a long time, that's the problem for writing two fanfics at the same time, if you guys know what I mean.

Tidus POV
Chapter Twelve: Pain
Now I get the dream, the tragic ending of what happened to Serenity but I still don't get it the part when I still got Shiva because by the teachings of Yevon, when Sin is defeated then there is no Fayth, when there is no Fayth then there won't be any Aeons and when there isn't any Aeons then there wouldn't be any use for the summoners. Maybe later on I'll figure out why I'm still a summoner. I looked up from the position that my head was in and met Yuna in the level of the eye. I couldn't read her, I never could. "What's up?" I asked.

She shrugged and then said, "Nothing up, I'm gonna be going to our room, I'll be there if you need me," she then walked off and took the sphere that we had gotten from Shiva.

"Wait!" I called out after her, "I'm coming, too!" Yuna turned around and stopped in her tracks, she was waiting for me and I was grateful in a weird way. I walked up to her and she took my hand in hers.

(A/n: I'm using Rikku's new airship in X-2 just so that you guys know but this story is still in the X section.)

We walked to the top of the airship where our room was, there were two beds but what we did was put them together, we didn't mind and we thought that it was a way to watch over each other and make sure that we would be fine. We walked into the room and sat on the beds' surfaces. "Don't you have this feeling that something is going to happen between us?" Yuna asked me, face had an expression that she was thinking of something that she was very worried about.

"What are you thinking?" I said softly, I moved over to her and put her between my arms. "Is it something bad or what?"

At first I thought that wasn't going to say anything but then she let her words out before could say another word. "What do you think? I said that I think something is going to happen, what do you think that is, bad or good?" I could tell that she was going to cry soon, I wished that I was listening better.

"Bad...?" I said, it sounded as if I was unsure. "Please, don't get me wrong but I know what you mean," I lied, I was trying to make her fell better.

Neither of us talked, the rain and thunder clapped outside, we were heading for the Thunder Plains... I wonder how Rikku was doing right now. "Then why do you sound as if you are doubting it?" Yuna had started crying. I felt her sad tears slide down the surface of my neck.

"Yuna, don't think like that. It seems like that you are wanting this to happen but you don't want it to, right? Just like me, we aren't sure if it is going to happen so we just have to think for the best of it," since she was on a mood-swing right now, I tried to talk to her the softest voice that I could.

She lifted a hand and wiped the tear away, "What am I saying?" She tried on a smile but she could only pull half of it off.

"Yuna." That was my final thing that I said before I placed her down on the bed. "Do you remember when you said that I would have to wait till I know you better since the first time that I met you?" Her small head nodded. "Well, I'm not saying that you have to answer but do you think that it's kind of time. I mean, we went through a lot of stuff already." I looked down at her and pushed the hair that was covering her tearful eyes.

Yuna put I hand on my cheek, "Maybe, just maybe, I think that you're right... but we're only seventeen. Don't you think that's kind of ironic?"

"How, can that be ironic, I don't think that you made any sense," I smirked, Yuna laughed. She spread her legs so that I had a place to lie, then she wrapped her legs around my waist. Pushing the hair aside that covered her face, I made my way down to her pristine skin that was her neck. I kissed her softly and when Yuna talked, she stammered.

"T-Tidu-dus! Mmmm.... I'm le-letting you do th-this to me now b-but I think tha-that we-" My mouth closed on hers, she parted her lips and I delved into her mouth, to come of think of it, this was actually our first kiss like this. Already, we were tired when we pulled back. Yuna let go of my waist and I lay beside her, Yuna fitted perfectly between the space of my arms. "Are you tired?" I could hear her breaths gasping for air, maybe I rushed her to much but then, I, myself found out that I was breathing like that, too.

"I guess so. Hmm. That would mean that we would have to stop now, you're tired, I'm tired, we're both tired... so we can go to sleep." She nestled against me which meant yes....

That morning we had already left the Thunder Plains and now we're in Kilika. Someone had died and I think that I'm supposed to do a sending so that the spirits can go and rest on the Farplane. The skies spilled a blood red and was mixed with an orange. Yuna and the others were standing on the dock and I was by the shore talking to the one who had lost their loved one, she cried but then tried to hide it back.

"Please, Summoner Tidus, please give my loved one a safe path to the Farplane." There were sadness in her pale eyes.

"Don't worry, I will." She nodded and I bowed putting my hands together, palms touching. Walking off to the dock with the others, more people followed her league and went over there, too.

Turning my back to them, I took out my staff-the one that I had inherited from my father. I walked out onto the water, staying on the surface without sinking, just like I had seen Yuna on the night when she performed something like a Sending but then I did mine less graceful since I was a guy. Half way through my sending, I heard the one who lost their loved one collapsed and sobbed, I tried my best to not cry but it was hard.

... After the Sending....

The people walked away to their own local huts, even the one who I did the Sending for, everyone was all drowned in sadness. "Was that okay?" I asked Lulu. She nodded.

Yuna flew to my side, I saw tear-stains on her pale white cheeks. "That was beautiful," she whispered in her usual soft voice, I smiled.

"Thanks, I though that I was horrible--"

"Braska, how's it goin'?!" Jecht cried out abruptly.

I turned and saw my father, the same man that I knew with blue hair and that wore Yevonite drapery. "Father?! I thought that you were in the Farplane."

He had no smile as he turned to me away from Jecht and Auron. "I don't want you with that girl."

"Who?" I asked.

"Jecht's daughter. It will not help you on your pilgrimage, you will not be able to finish it and you are breaking one of the most respected rule by Yevon."

Was he telling the truth? I couldn't leave her just now, we were so close to having the thing that we wanted to do. "But father, I can't I lo--"

"Silence!" I shut my mouth, I knew that he was going to get angry. "That is enough. I expected more from you. That is my final command... you will stay away from her."

I was mad at him the same quality that he was to me, I took I step forward from where he stood and was going to yell out that he was wrong about the pilgrimage... but that instant he was gone, maybe he went back to the Farplane. When I turned to face Yuna, she was gone and that was the last time that I talked to her for three straight weeks.

Yuna's POV

It was three weeks since I had talked to Tidus. I was afraid that this would happen and I even told him about it... now there is no chance that I would be reunited with him. I moved away from his room in the airship and got a room for myself. Rikku tried cheering me up but it didn't help. It was raining again and I was crying, I was... alone again. I sat here for the whole day, hour after hour.

I huddled myself against the corner with my eyes all red and puffy, my collar and sleeves were all soaked with tears. The lights were dim, close to be turned off and my head rested against the wall. My legs are folded against my chest while there was a knife beside me. No one but me, I think, knew that I had been cutting myself with the knife on purpose, the pain in my heart was bigger than the pain through my cuts.... I even decided about suicide if this kept on going. I couldn't live back in the life I had before I met Tidus, this meant that I had no point of living if this would keep going. I don't want to be left like this... at least I would have my mother in the Farplane with me if I committed suicide.

My ears strain for his voice, for him to stay here, to make me feel better and talk to me, I wished that for weeks but it never came true.... Would I have a tragic ending on my own, unlike Serenity? I didn't want it to but I maybe I would. I reach down for the unsheathed knife and bring it up to my left arm. My chest ached and my breathing was raspy while my throat was dry and hoarse. I gulped down my tears and pulled off my cut-off black sleeves. Slowly, I ran the cold blade along my skin leaving a red trail of red blood hoping that the pain in my heart would go away... but it wouldn't. I didn't want to be alone.

Author's note: There ya go. I just had this idea a while ago but sorry I didn't update earlier, I was busy with piano lessons, getting ready for my recital :( Well, see ya later. Later days!

-Yuna-Blueo'hara