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Yuna POV
Chapter fifteen: Yuna's Hatred
During the late afternoon, I followed him out of the room. The both of us decided that we should tell them what I have been doing to myself. I knew that I didn't want to see the look on Jecht's face when he'll hear it. I took Tidus' hand and pulled myself up against his arm, I was scared and happy at the same time. Scared of telling them of what I had done and happy that I was with Tidus again.
"You ready?" Tidus said as we were reaching the control room, we had a feeling that all of them were there. I couldn't find myself to talk, I only nodded.
My arm was wrapped in bandages, my sleeves weren't on because Tidus had told me to not do that until my arm healed. Though my arm was in this condition, it was hidden behind Tidus' arm, eventually, he would tell me to take it out of its hiding. The machina doors opened and I clung to Tidus arm harder, he put an arm around me to say that it was okay.
"Yunie! It's about time that you're together again! I was so scared for you guys!" Rikku shouted happily. She ran toward us and took me away from Tidus and into a friendly embrace, she moved back when she felt the texture of my arm. Looking down at my wrapped arm, she said, "Yunie, what happened to your arm?"
I took a step back and Tidus took a hold of me to mean to not be scared and just tell them what happened. Taking a deep breath, I said, "I cut myself, does that make you mad? I couldn't stand the pain that I was in when I broke up with Tidus. We just wanted to be together and then Braska told us not to be together because he though that Tidus still had the pilgrimage going on. The pain that was in my heart was to great so then I thought that if I hurt myself then it would go away but then I didn't. I was in the Farplane for awhile and then I had a talk with my mom," I shot a glare at Jecht, "she told me to go back to him and so I did."
Rikku stood there awe-struck, "So are you happy now? I don't want Yunie to be sad!" She put on a puppy dog face for me which made me smile. I was glad that I had told them already, I nodded for Rikku. "Yay!" She went back to help Cid. Brother glanced my way then sadly shook his head, I ignored it.
I looked up to Tidus and smiled, he smiled back at me and was bowing down his head- "Yuna! What did you tell her?!" Jecht growled at my face. I stood back and clung to Tidus.
"Nothing!" I screamed in a whisper. "She was the one who was talking to me, I wasn't talking, she was the one who told me the stuff!"
"And, what kind of stuff!?" He was pratically shouting at me not asking a question.
"Things!" I screamed, Tidus was worried and so he squezzed me harder.
"Tell me you stupid crybaby, tell me! I don't want you crying all over me!"
There. That was my weak spot. Just that word but instead of crying, I let my anger go out. "Well, here's one thing that mom and I would've wanted to tell you and I guess that you already know but hear it anyway, WE BOTH HATE YOU!!! Mom wanted me to go back to Tidus because she didn't wane me to end up with somebody that I didn't love like him. This is what happened to her, is what she said and by ending up with you, she was treated in a way that she didn't like! Then she was killed and you were supposed to love her! She told me these things and she said that she didn't want that to happen to me and I don't plan that happening!"
Tidus must've thought that I was getting carried away. He whispered to me, "Yuna..." but I was hardly listening properly to him.
I glared at Jecht and he did the same to me, I knew right now that we were mad at eachother. I stepped toward him and then that's when it hurt, he slapped me, and so hard that I fell back...
Tidus POV
Yuna hit the floor hard, falling on her back. I rushed to her and then I tried to help her sit up but then she had already done it herself. Morning dew drops fell from her eyes, I looked at her face, there was a red mark on her cheek on where Jecht had hit her. I was going to make her feel better, make it go all away but then Jecht came towards us and we both looked up to him. He made his way in on her and kicked her stomach. Yuna staggered back and then I flew to her side. She was in pain, holding her stomach, I was scared and already crying, too. "Stop it, Jecht!" I screamed. He didn't seem to listen and went towards her again.
"This is what you get for saying that to me!" He kicked her and slapped her, it was so sickening to my eyes, I just couldn't stand it. Running to the both of them, I pulled Jecht away from her and punched him hard with my fist.
"Auron, come here!" I screamed.
"Oh, no you don't," Jecht said to me, I was scared that he was threatening me. He went behind me and then took my hair in his hands, he pulled my head backwards and took out his sword. My breathing was heavy, was he really like this to Yuna in Zanarkand? Now I think why she told me that she was trapped in Zanarkand and didn't get to have a life that she could feel....
"JECHT!" Yuna screamed, "You get away from him!" The tears in her eyes were heavy, and they streamed down her face constanly. I could feel the cold blade of his sword against my neck, I didn't dare move. "AURON, COME HERE, PLEASE!"
I heard Auron come into the scene. "Jecht?!" I heard his voice say. "What the hell are you doing!? Stop it!" He ran towards us and then pushed Jecht out of the way, his sword dangerously edged against my neck but luckily, it didn't leave a cut. "Tidus, Yuna, you two get in your room and I have to talk to Jecht," Auron said sternly. I nodded and took Yuna's hand. We ran to our room not even looking once at the despicable man.
"Yuna, are you okay?" I sarcastically said when I placed her on the bed. "You're shaking. Please be honest with me now, I don't want you to get hurt!"
Her breathes were small and quick, "Help me," she whispered. Yuna shut her bi-coloured eyes and clutched herself. "I never thought that this would happen to me and I don't want it to again. I never though thought that Jecht would do this even if he teased me. Now I know why Mom told me to stay with the one that I love, help me, Tidus...."
I was crying, and hard. I felt so sorry for her, I didn't want her to be with Jecht, to live with him. He was a father that shouldn't be one. "Yuna." I went to the bed after locking the door for safety. "Don't worry, it'll be better," I said doubting my words, I was scared.
"Just hold me," Yuna said. "I feel all better when I'm with you. You are the reason I live...." I lay down beside her and wrapped my arms around her tightly but not to hard that it hurt her. We were both hurt.... "Do you know how much I hate Jecht?" she asked.
"A lot," I said queitly.
"Well... yes but it was going on since I was a child... ever since he brang on the insults and things like that but then this never came until now. I hated him, really. He was why I was trapped in a cage that I couldn't get out of. The cage that didn't let me taste my life like the other people. And so, that was how I thought life was really like but it wasn't when I met you.... I learned that life couldn't always like that. With you, I have a real life not one that I live in a cage...."
Yuna was good with words. This was why she was like this, all keeping things to herself. Now I remember when Serenity said to her pyreflies to put her soul into one that was like her in the way that they had problems... now I wonder if the both of them had the same problems. That they didn't have a real life to live and cherish like others. Now that I know this, I won't let Yuna live the life before me, one that she would get trapped and not let out.... Maybe this is why she was supposed to go to Spira, to learn about life and maybe this was shy she was the one who was chosen for the body for Serenity.
"When this is all done, I want you to not go back to Zanarkand, Yuna, that is if you want me to go with you. I don't want you to suffer this again. Life isn't like that, you have learned that but I want you to see the rest of it, to live the rest of it without having to face this thing again."
I felt her cringe of the pain but then she relaxed when I didn't move out of my place. "I would stay with you when this is over, I don't care. Here, I want you to read this. Usually I wouldn't show people this but then I want you to." Yuna reached down in her pocket and pulled out a little notebook, I wonder how she kept it there this whole time.... "Read it." She handed it over to me and I released her, she lay still at my side and still.
I read it in the dark, I knew that it was bad for your eyes if you read in the dark but I didn't seem to bother right now, I just read it. I flipped to the start of the notebook and saw Yuna's familiar handwriting but it was scriblier ( back then, I was guessig that it was back when she was a kid.
Zanarkand
Sunday, 11:00 p.m.
(7 years old)
Dear diary,
Mommy and Daddy were fighting again. Daddy said that he had got to go to Spira or whatever it's called but then I don't care but Mommy cares, she away cares. I hope that he doesn't come back so then Mommy and I can be happy. I don't like to hear them fight or Daddy teasing me, I don't like it. Even though I'm only seven, I know I'm smarter than other kids, (I'm not bragging though) Anyways, it's getting late now, bye.
-Yuna
I flipped through the book and read something near the end:
Zanarkand
Tuesday, 12:00 a.m.
(15 years old)
Dear diary,
I hate him, I hate him! I HATE HIM! I don't care if Jecht is my dad or if he's a blitz star. He was supposed to be gone back when he said that he was going to go to training off to the Zanarkand Sea or when he said that he was supposed to go to Spira! I will not forgive him for hurting Mom like that, I can't believe that he did that to us! He hurt Mom and I both physically and mentally, I HATE HIM! I don't care if I swear right now but then I got to say that he's a stupid dumass!.... I want to go now, if he finds me up this late, he'll hit me while he's drunk. Bye.
-Yuna
I couldn't breath, this was Yuna hatred in her. Her life that she lived in.... "I want you to keep it, Tidus. Read it, please." I closed it and nodded.
"Yes, for you, I will." I wrapped my arms around her and we went to sleep.
-Yuna-Blueo'Hara