(A/N) Wow! Even though I hadn't updated in…how long? I don't even know. But I got 5 reviews in the first couple of days it was posted! Yay!

This chapter will be through Lily's eyes, alright? It's pretty much her inside feelings about James and Hilary. They storyline will still be going on. And I'll try to make this chapter a bit longer!

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Chapter 13- Trust and Hate

I moaned as the sun hit my face through a crack in the curtain. I looked at my watch. 11 o'clock. Good thing it was Saturday. I sat up in my bed, and I almost started crying. I'm glad I didn't though, because I think someone just walked into the room.

Last night was probably the worst day of my life. I had made a huge social blunder, and got my heart broken as well. Double whammy. Great.

Slowly, I peered out of my secluded bed. Who ever had come in had left already. It was probably the house elves, because all the beds were made and all of people's stuff piled on top of them. I climbed out of my four poster, and made my bed.

I dragged myself over to the bathroom, and took a shower. The hot water against my cold body felt good. As I was putting shampoo in my hair, the soap fell from the top of the shower. I accidentally stepped on it, and I went plummeting to the hard marble floor.

I sat like that for almost an hour, I think. I was curled up in the corner, with the water on just above me. All I could feel was the soft mist falling on my face.

"Why does it hurt so much?" I asked silently to myself. I had never liked James…well not until yesterday. He was still my sworn enemy, and so was Hilary. But deep down, in the pit of my stomach, I knew I fancied him.

The water had turned cold. The hot water was probably shut off now. I turned the water off, and stood up. I was chilled to the bone. The cold mist had felt like freezing rain.

Slowly, I dried myself off and got dressed. I noticed a bruise on my left hip. Probably from the soap. Bloody soap.

When I had combed out my long red hair, I checked my watch again. 12:37. Lunch was just starting. I decided to sneak into the kitchens later, instead of facing my peers.

At 1:00, Elle and Rebecca came up. I had no clue where Katie was. Frankly, I didn't care right now. I didn't care about anything right now, I realized.

"Aw, get over him Lily," Rebecca was saying. "He's just being a bastard."

I nodded slowly. Some of what Rebecca was saying made sense. Especially the last part. I smiled to myself. I would have to tell James that, face to face.

Elle pulled my arm. "C'mon, Lily. Let's go outside. It's beautiful out."

I followed her out of the dorm room. Rebecca had gone and taken a shower. I heard her scream from the cold water. Elle and I laughed for a bit.

Elle was right. Outside was beautiful. The sun was shining, when just yesterday it had been pouring. It was warm against my face. I closed my eyes and smiled. This was nice.

I opened them and saw Elle looking at something. I followed her gaze to James and Hilary, walking and holding hands. I stepped towards them, but Elle stopped me.

"Let them be," she advised me. "Get over him. He's not worth it."

I stopped struggling. Elle's words had been magic. I would get over him. James Potter would mean nothing to me now.

"I trust you, Elle," I said silently.

The next day, I saw James and Hilary again. Elle should become a healer. Her advice worked. I had gotten over James. I knew my life would be happier now.

As I was walking to lunch that afternoon, Sirius stopped me in the hall.

"Yes?" I asked him curtly.

"James fancies you," he blurted out.

I laughed. "No, you mean he likes Hilary. Lily Evans, Hilary Greenweld. No similarity whatsoever in names. How could you mix them up?"

He looked confused. "You're crazy, woman." He eyed me suspiciously, and then continued. "I do mean he fancies you, not Hilary. He needs a cover up. You make him hurt too much, deep down. He thinks you hate him, and so he needs to relieve some tension. That's why he did that to you."

I knew I was going red. I tried to cover it up, but failed. Miserably. I stared at the floor, letting my hair hang down in front of my eyes.

I looked into Sirius's eyes again. "He's eleven. I'm not going to worry about this…not now. He shouldn't either. I'm going to wait until I'm older to worry about my heart breaking. You should advise him to do the same."

Sirius nodded slowly. "Shall we go to lunch?" he finally asked. He started walking and I caught up to him after.

At lunch, no one seemed to notice me. It was like everyone had forgotten the incident between me and James. That was good though. I wasn't the kind of person that liked to draw attention to myself. Unlike…well, unlike James, for example.

I ate lunch as fast as possible. Just in case someone had something click in their brain, and then blurt out something like, "Lily, you're ugly" or "Everyone! Lily made a fool of herself! Let me tell you the story!"

Thankfully, no one relived my nightmares. I got out of there as soon as I finished my meal.

I turned around to see if anyone was following me. No one was, which was good. I smiled and walked up the Grand Staircase. Who would happen to be waiting at the top was no other than Hilary. I inwardly groaned, but then noticed that James was nowhere to be found.

"Aren't you sad that Jamesy isn't chasing after you anymore? I think you liked the attention." She sneered at me. Why wasn't she put in Slytherin? I wondered. She seemed like one.

"I don't care about James anymore. I've gotten over him." I stated proudly. Her face fell. I bet she was hoping to rub it in my face. "And besides," I continued, "I'm not an attention lover. You're sources are wrong."

I left her sanding there, in the middle of the hall. She had a shocked expression on her face. I laughed silently to myself. I'm betting that she wanted to show James off to me like he was some sort of prized dog or flower. Fat chance.

I trust my friends. They say that I shouldn't get all worked up over this, and I'm not. I hate people like Hilary, James, Freddy. Siruis too, if you think about it. Peter and Remus aren't involved in this feud. I don't hate them.

My friends are my life. Hogwarts is my life. Back home, I don't have a life. I'm just a lonely girl without a dad there. Here, I'm something.

I don't ever want to leave. No matter how much this place freaks me out.

(A/N) (Shakes head) Not a good chapter. Oh well, review and tell me what you think! Please try and be nice though…Lol

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