Just a little kiss

Estellio

Rating: Pg-13 (T)

Summary: T'pol thinks she's in love with Trip but after seeing a kiss she shouldn't have, maybe she's wrong. I mean, how can she tell what love feels like, she's never felt it before…right?

Terry-Crazy Italian: Happy (belated) Brithday. This Chapters for you. ; )

Gammara: (Gives you a digital cupcake for trying) All will be revealed next chapter (Insert X-files music here)

dennisud2015: Patton's Hybrid Child? I think I may have missed that episode... You know what, I'll go look it up and maybe right another fanfic on that. I've been looking for some new ideas for Enterprise fanfiction to give me a break from my TOS and Stargate ones.

Jeffrey Ayers: I think this Chapter goes a bit deeper into Archers feelings towards T'pol, hope you like it.

Archangemon: He he he, sneaky is my middle name…actually it's Kathryn but lets not split hairs. Glad you liked it and sorry it took me so long to update, only one more chapter to go!

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"Alright, try it now!" Trip said, sliding out from beneath the console. He was greeted with the sight of two long, red legs and following them up their owners body to their face, he saw T'pol staring down at him. "Mornin' Commander. What can I do you for?" He got up, dusting down his jumpsuit as he walked over to the other console. "That do it, Keebler?"

"Yes, Sir! All lights are green." The young Engineer shouted back and Trip moved to climb down the ladder next to him.

"Trip…may I have a word with you?" He turned back to face her, looking a little bit resentful.

"Sure. Go ahead."

"I wanted to apologise…for last night I…"

"Was a bitch?"

"I was a bit terse with you." T'pol said, staring at him quizzically.

"A bit terse? You were screaming at me and you've been avoiding me all day!"

"You were prying?"

"I was concerned!"

"I asked you to leave and you didn't go!"

"I was worried about you, you looked as if you were about to drop to the floor dead. Can't a guy be concerned."

"I was fine, I told you as much."

"You neither looked nor acted it!"

"I came here to apologise but I see now there's no getting through your self perceived notions of nobility."

"WELL IT SEEMS THERE'S NO GETTING THROUGH THAT DAMN TWENTY FOOT WALL YOU GOT UP AROUND YOU NEITHER!"

"MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO LET YOU IN!"

"THAT'S FINE WITH ME!"

"FINE!" T'pol and Trip turned their back on each other and climbed down the ladders on either side of the core, ignoring the stares of everyone in Engineering as they both stormed out.

T'pol went straight back to her quarters. She had wanted to apologise, talk it over with him but he couldn't …he wouldn't see.

"I could never bond with someone like him. He is too ignorant, I would need someone far more diplomatic and understanding…."

"Do you do that every night?" Archer asked, looking down at T'pol who was sitting in front of her mediation candle, she just nodded. "I'm beginning to see why?"

She shook her head as the memory sank back into her subconscious. Archer understood and when he didn't simply accepted and endeavoured to understand. It was one of the things she respected him for so well for. She thought back to her conversation with V'lena. V'lena had fallen in love wither bondmate for who he was, not what he was, it took her a while to realise this and that was her folly. T'pol had to stop looking at what Captain Archer was and start looking at who he was. Ignoring titles, race and status…she thought about who it was she truly loved.

Koss hadn't cared about what she was…simply who she was and whereas, she had not loved him…he had loved her unconditionally. Ever since they were children he had adored her. She tried to think back on that feeling, the feeling she got from Koss whenever they were together. It was a strange warmth that seemed to flooded her whole body. Had she ever felt that?

She didn't think she had…but maybe she had a way she could.

For months I pined for him, I couldn't get him out of my mind. We only kissed a few times but every night all I could think of was him.

V'lena's words echoed in her head. All it took was a kiss…Just a little kiss. After she had kissed Trip she wanted nothing more than to forget it but…

She rose, walking swiftly out of her quarters and onto the bridge.

"Captain…may I speak with you a moment?" Archer looked up from his chair at his science officer.

"Sure T'pol…you want to go into my ready room?" She nodded and walked there before him. She seemed very agitated and the moment the door closed behind them she began to pace.

"Captain…"

"I heard about what happened in Engineering. Trip was out of line and…"

"That's not what I'm here about."

"It isn't? Well…what is it your looking for, T'pol?" She paused, turning a dark shade of green, Archer had never seen her look so alluring but he firmly shut that thought away.

"Captain…recently I have been…troubled."

"Oh, how so?"

"My…" She paused again, trying to find the words and Archer waited. He knew that whatever she had to say would be hard for her and he'd give her all the time she needed to find the right words. "I have no experience dealing with emotions. I was taught to suppress them. Even though I have been cured of Pan'nar syndrome I find that it is still…difficult to control them. I have tried embracing them but…" She trailed off again. "I'm confused." She said at last and Archer had the resist the urge to get up and hold her. Comfort her and protect her till all her trouble went away…

"T'pol, even humans get confused over their emotions sometimes. Women especially. I once heard a woman being described as a 'mass of conflicting impulses and emotions'." He chuckled, standing from where he had been sitting on the edge of his desk and coming to place a hand on each of her shoulders. "It'll take time T'pol, you may never learn to deal with them but that's what it means to be human. Learning to deal with it, and pretending you can if you can't."

"I'm not human."

"No, but you came on board to learn what we are. It seems to me that this can't be changed so…learn from it. I believe there is a Vulcan term to describe this situation…Kadik?"

"Kai'idth…what is, is." She turned to face Archer, looking up into his face and realising just how close he was standing. She yearned to reach out and touch his face, touch his mind. To know, to learn, to feel…to understand.

"You can't change what happened but maybe you can make the best of the situation. I'll help you any way I can but I don't think there is much I can do. This is a discovery you'll have to do on your own but I want you to know that I'll be here for you if you ever need help. Every step of the way."

That was all she needed to know.

"Captain…" She said as he went to take a step away.

"Yes, T'pol?"

"There is one thing you could do for me…this request may seem odd and I don't want you to look deeper into this than what I ask but…There is one emotion particularly I don't understand and I think that maybe I could understand it better if…" she trailed off.

"T'pol." John said smiling, his eyes crinkling at the corners giving him a friendly and warm look. "You're babbling."

"Jonathon…kiss me."

She feared she may have said the wrong thing when he took a step back, his eyes widening in shock.

"What? But you…you and Trip."

"I don't think I love Trip…I think I love you but I have to make sure. Please Jonathon. Do this one thing for me. Just a little kiss." He stared at her incredulously for a few moments, his mouth open in shock and eyes wide but slowly his face changed to something different. Something hesitant and expectant, confused but sure, longing but afraid…

"Alright then." He raised his hand and extended two fingers, his index and middle. "This is how Vulcan's kiss…right?" T'pol couldn't take it any more. A warm feeling suffused her whole entire body and all coherent thought was lost as she stared at him lovingly.

She smiled and he returned it. It was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Not a half smile, a quirk of the lips, a vague shadow ghosting across her elfin features, this was a genuine smile that lit up her whole face and she took a step forward, bringing their bodies together and immediately after their lips.

The hand he had extended wrapped around her body and held her to him as they kissed. He had never experienced anything like it in his whole life. Her tongue was rough like a cats and her body was so much warmer but her skin was smooth like silk and he let his hands doing exploring. Over the rough texture of her cat suit and into the silky strands of her dark hair, over the points of her ears at which she gasped and he chuckled and down her neck. Her hand caught his and pulling back slightly she smiled at him again.

"I've never felt anything like this, I think I understand now."

"Please don't tell me you're in love with Trip." He said, his eyes pleading with hers.

"I'm not." She whispered and kissed him again, entwining her hand with his.

It was just a little kiss but in a way…so much more. Kai'idth. What is, is but there's always what it could be.

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A/N: Don't forget to review, if you've gotten this far i'll have presumed you read it too. One more chapter to go, hope you've enjoyed the ride this far.