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Making Up is Hard To Do

Chapter 3 – Just an old friend.

Jordan sat in the hospital parking lot for what seemed like eternity. She knew he would never know she was there, but she had to know he was okay. She dragged herself from the car and slowly made her way into the hospital, retracing her steps to Woody's room. As she approached the window, she could see him laying there looking weaker then before. Her whole body ached to go in and hold him and tell him she loved him. Instead she stood and stared at him. A nurse wandered by.

Nurse – Is that your husband?

Jordan – No, just an old friend.

Nurse – Well, I think it's a little late for any reminiscing, do you have a place to stay? You can come back first thing tomorrow.

Jordan – I'm fine thanks; I'll drop by another time.

Nurse – Well you might want to try daylight.

Jordan knew the nurse was only kidding with her. She desperately wanted to run in and hold Woody but she knew better. She watched for a few more seconds and then slowly wandered back out to her car. As she got in everything caught up with her and she began to cry harder then she can ever recall. She cried for 20 minutes and finally started the ignition and went home.

Once home she began packing a suitcase, she couldn't stay here anymore. She knew she promised Cal she would remain until he arrived but she couldn't take it. She continued packing when the phone rang.

Jordan – Hello.

Nigel – Hey love its Nigel, I wanted to make sure you were all right. I know this is a difficult time for you.

Jordan – Nigel it is midnight.

Nigel – Well Jordan its never too late to make sure your friends are okay.

Jordan – I'm fine Nige, thanks.

Nigel – You know Jordan, I know worrying about Woodrow can take a lot out of you. I wanted to make sure you would be able to make it to work tomorrow. If you can't I understand, Woody needs you more now.

Jordan – Actually Nige, I don't think I will be able to make it in. Can you cover for me?

Nigel – Sure love, call me later and let me know how Woodrow is.

Jordan – Will do.

After hanging up the receiver Jordan felt worse for lying to Nigel. She threw more clothes into the suitcase and decided, what's the harm in going away for a few days. Then she can come back, pack up the rest of her things and leave forever. She threw herself back onto her bed and began to cry. She didn't understand how this could all happen. How could Woody think she said what she said in pity? The tears burned her eyelids and her head was beginning to pound. She laid there for a while and somehow must have doze off into sleep. She dreamt of Woody getting up from his hospital bed and kissing her. She woke up to the sound of someone knocking at her door.

Jordan – I'm coming, god.

Jordan opened the door to once again see Garret standing in the hallway.

Jordan – gee Garret 2 visits in one night, what's the occasion.

Garret – You aren't leaving Jordan.

Jordan – What are you talking about?

Garret – Nigel phoned me. He said you needed time off because you were taking care of Woody. He also said you didn't sound well. However, Jordan since I know you aren't seeing Woody, I know you're going to try and leave and I won't allow it.

Jordan – Garret I am an adult and you cannot stop me from leaving Boston.

Garret – Jordan if you walk away I won't be at the morgue this time to get you your job back when you show up in 2 years. What if something happens to Woody? How can you just leave Jordan? I think its time you grow up.

Jordan – Garret, I am not in the mood and if I decide to leave that is my decision. Thanks for your concern.

Garret – Jordan Woody needs you now more than ever. You are the only person that can help him. I know he hurt you Jordan, but he is so scared and if you leave you are going to hurt him more. Jordan he loves you and we all know it.

Jordan – Actually Garret, he may have before but he doesn't now. I am aware Woody needs help but he doesn't need my help.

Garret – So you are going to walk out on him when he needs you most. He wouldn't do that to you.

Jordan – He doesn't need me.

Garret – Well you need him and in order for you to get him, you are going to have to be there for him. He can come out of this Jordan and then he needs to see you stuck around because you truly cared about him. Then he'll see you do care about him.

Jordan – Why do you care so much if I leave?

Garret – Because I care about you. Jordan, I have seen how Woody lightens your smile and make you so happy. Jordan, Woody is a great guy and I know you really care about him. I also know he cares about you so much and you always pushed him away until he can't take it any longer. He loves you Jordan and he needs to see that you will be there for him no matter what.

Jordan collapsed to her knees. She just cried and cried. Garret got down onto the floor with her and let her cry. Then he helped her to bed and got her a drink from the fridge. She took a drink and then cried until she fell asleep. Garret grabbed a blanket and lay down on her couch to make sure she didn't leave.

The next morning Jordan woke up with a pounding headache. She wandered out of her room to find Garret making bacon and eggs.

Jordan – What are you still doing here?

Garret – I thought I would spend the night and make you breakfast.

Jordan – Well thanks Garret.

Jordan's cell rang and she recognized the number from the morgue.

Jordan – Hello.

Slokum – Dr. Cavanaugh, what the hell do you think you are doing skipping work. You no longer work for Dr. Macy and I expect my ME's to show up for their shifts. Is that concept too hard for you to understand?

Jordan – I wasn't feeling well, I'm sorry.

Slokum – Well next time I suggest you phone in sick, I am not running a circus.

Jordan – Yes sir, I'll be in first thing tomorrow.

Slokum – I hope so Dr. Cavanaugh or you will be terminated. I will not tolerate slackers.

Jordan – Good bye sir.

As Jordan hung up her phone she was reminded all to well of why it would be so nice to run away.

Garret – Anyway Jordan after breakfast I thought we could swing by the hospital, what do you think?

Jordan – Yes, fine, we'll swing by the hospital.

Jordan ate slowly as she feared what Woody would say to her presence this time. He had already taken her heart, ripped it out of her chest and stomped on it. She wasn't sure what else she could take.