Disclaimer: I do not own anything to do with Crossing Jordan.

A/N: Thanks for all the reviews they are greatly appreciated. I thought I would try and use the pointers Little Black Ant gave me and see if it makes the story easier to read. I also apologize for any grammatical errors, typos, and spelling errors. I am writing these chapters usually late at night because that is the only time I have to do them so my proofreading is kind of off. I also hadn't realized how much Garret says Jordan at the beginning of his sentences until I read it again when I wasn't tired and I realize how annoying that is, I'll try and stop doing that. Anyway I am going to shut up now and continue with the storyline.

Making Up is Hard To Do

Chapter 4 – Past life

As Garret and Jordan pulled up to the hospital, Jordan felt her heart rate, begin to increase and she felt like she was going to throw up. She got out of the car and surprised herself that she could actually walk. She discovered it was easier to come at night when he was guaranteed to be asleep. They entered the doors and slowly made their way to Woody's floor. Jordan then turned to Garret and said, "Okay, I'll wait out here and you can go in and make sure he is okay."

Garret turned and looked at her with his yeah right look. "Actually I thought you could go in and I would wait out here."

Jordan responded, somewhat frustrated, "Garret, is there a reason you feel you need to meddle in the personal relationship between Woody and myself? I agreed to come here with you but I didn't agree to go in his room. I just want to know he's okay."

Garret looked at her and then said, "Fine, I'll go in and you wait out here."

Garret entered Woody's room, Woody hadn't yet been taken to surgery and Garret noticed how much weaker he was becoming. Woody looked up to see Garret coming towards him.

"Garret, what do I owe the pleasure of this visit?"

"Well, I came by to see if you were okay."

"That is really nice but I don't feel like being visited by people from my past life."

"Your past life?"

"That is what I now call it. I feel that is an appropriate name since I will never have that life again."

"You know I never thought of you as a pessimist. I think Jordan wore off on you too much."

Woody winced at the sound of her name. "Well Garret, when you find out you won't be walking anymore, you become a little more pessimistic."

"Woody, don't give up. You have a 50 chance of walking again, and even if you don't walk, you don't have to give up the things in your life. None of us are going anywhere and we will all be here when you get out of here, regardless of your situation."

"Yeah, except Jordan."

"I know she's hurt you in the past and you have every right to be angry with her and want to give up on her. However, she is actually worried sick about you. I have never seen Jordan so worried and upset. I don't know what really happened between the 2 of you, but I do know that she really cares about you. I also know she isn't going anywhere."

"You know I have put up with Jordan leading me to believe we would end up in a relationship several times over the past 4 years and every time she shuts me down and hurts me. Every time. After the ring I told her I was sick of chasing her. The fact is no matter what I say to myself or her, I can't get her out of my mind. I love her so much but I am in so much pain and am so weak, I can't handle Jordan leading me on and then shutting me down again. Besides do I really need that in my new life? My new life can be fresh, sure it will be hard to get over her, but I can't do this for the rest of my life. I can't keep getting hurt by her. I am giving up on her and I don't want her coming to see me anymore, it hurts too much. I just want a fresh start, I just can't handle it."

"Woody, I understand your point, but I think she is beginning to make progress. Jordan has some problems and we both know it. However, when she's with you, she seems happier. I know you don't want to hear this but are you sure you want to give her up? Maybe you guys should sit and talk."

"Garret, I think I have made my point clear. I can't handle this anymore and even if we make progress what if she can't commit. She needs stability and right now, I am far from stable. Can you please respect my decision?"

"All right Woody, if that's what you want. I can't make your decisions for you but I just think it is sad that you 2 will end this way, especially since she was making progress. Anyway, I just wanted to know you were okay."

"I'm getting really tired and I have to go back to surgery soon, can you let me get some rest?"

Garret followed his request and told him he'd come by later to see how he was doing after surgery. Woody nodded weakly and shut his eyes. Then Garret wandered back out and ran into Jordan.

"Well how is he?"

"He's very weak and cynical. He has himself totally convinced that he will never walk again."

"Did he say anything about me?"

"Not really no, we discussed his health."

"Oh, well that's fine because I know he doesn't need me."

Garret was beginning to notice how vulnerable Jordan was. He knew he couldn't tell her Woody didn't want her in his life anymore. He didn't know what to do, but felt it was best to ignore the whole situation for a while. He hoped Woody would realize he couldn't live without Jordan, however, for right now Garret would focus more on other things. Jordan remembered she had to pick Cal up at the airport at 3 in the afternoon. She told Garret she was going to remain at the hospital for a while until she knew how Woody's surgery went. Garret nodded and left, promising to pick her up about 1:30.