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Making Up is Hard To Do

Chapter 6 – I'm so scared

As Jordan entered the morgue she was nervous at what she was going to find. Her mind raced at the prospect that it could have something to do with her father. She ran into Nigel. "Jordan thank god, guess what!" Jordan realized Nigel wasn't panicking he was excited. "What Nigel?"

Nigel took her into her office so no one would hear him. "I know how we can get Garret back. I called Renée and she told me all I have to do is link Garret's previous boss with the hiding of evidence. She said if I can do that we can get Garret off and possibly his job back."

"Nigel, you called me down here to tell me we might be able to get Garret his job back. You could have told me that over the phone."

"Jordan, you know me better than that. It gets better. I found his signature on some of the paperwork. He helped Garret with the autopsy. Now I don't know how much but I do know that, that is a start. Renée said since Garret was just new when he started there he was probably too afraid to defy his boss. I also found out that Lancaster and Garret's boss were pretty good friends and Garret's boss owed him a few favours."

"Well Nigel that's great but you still could have told me that over the phone."

"Yes, but I wanted to call you down here to see how you were doing. I talked to Garret and he said you weren't taking things to well. I was hoping we could order in and talk."

"That's really sweet Nige but I need to go home and rest."

"But I already ordered the food and there is too much for just myself."

"Isn't someone else here?"

"No, Slokum has a new rule, he feels only one person needs to be here during the night and someone else just has to be able to answer their phone. He says I have security guards and that's all I need. Come on Jordan it'll be fun."

"All right Nigel, but I don't want to talk about Woody or Garret or anyone for that matter."

"Fair enough."

When the food arrived they ate and talked about the latest cases they were working on. Nigel talked more about how he thinks there's a good chance everything will work out with Garret. Jordan was beginning to relax when her phone rang. "Hello." It was Cal he said Woody wasn't doing so well. He said his heart rate was dropping and he wanted Jordan to come down because he didn't know whom else to call.

"Well what is it love?"

"Its Woody, his heart rate is dropping quickly, something is wrong."

Nigel was beginning to see the fear and pain in her eyes. He didn't know what to do because he couldn't leave the morgue. He wanted desperately to comfort her but instead he told her to get down there.

When Jordan arrived at the hospital Cal was panicking. Jordan ran over to him and he hugged her tightly. "Do you know what is going on with Woody yet?" she asked. "No they haven't told me anything yet. They just said his heart rate was dropping too much too fast. They think he may have an infection."

As a doctor, Jordan knew how serious an infection can be, especially one near the spine. "Don't worry Cal, I'm sure once they know what's wrong they'll let us know." However, Jordan was having a hard time herself believing that.

5 minutes later Garret arrived with Lily. "Jordan is everything okay?" Garret asked, he looked really concerned. "We don't know anything at the moment except that it may be an infection."

Lily reached out to hold Jordan's hand. "Hey, everything will be okay, you just have to be strong and keep up your faith." As Lily comforted Jordan she could feel something break within her and she began to cry again. Garret got up to check to see how Woody was doing and Lily moved closer to Jordan. "Hey it's okay to cry. I know how worried you are. Just let it out Jordan." Lily's voice was soft and comforting.

Garret came back over. "He had an allergic reaction to the medication they placed in his IV after surgery today. They said, he'd be okay he just needs to rest." They all watched as Woody was wheeled back into his room. Jordan stood up, "I hope you guys don't mind but I need a moment with Woody alone." Everyone nodded and no one tried to stop her.

Once she crossed the threshold her heart felt like it was going to stop beating. Woody looked up and then looked away. "Boy, you just don't take no for an answer."

"Go ahead Woody, say your worst. The fact is I love you so much that no matter what you say and do, I'll just take it. If you won't talk to me that's fine, if you won't look at me that's fine, even if you have the nurses throw me out of here that's fine. I don't care because I am not going anywhere. I will be here every night after work and every day I have off. Every waking second I will be worrying about you and if you walk again and decide you don't want to see me anymore and you want to date someone else, that's fine too. I thought about running away, but I can't Woods. I can't leave you because I love you. If you think this is pity than your just blind. No matter what Woody I'm going to be here making sure you walk again. I understand I have hurt you for 4 years but I was scared. Now it's your turn to be scared. It is your turn to need help. I know that's a hard concept for you Woody. Your whole life you've always helped others and never accepted help yourself. You helped me, you helped Cal, you help everyone on your cases but now its time Woods to let others help you. I don't care whether you want my help or not, I am going to help and I'll make damn sure you walk again."

"Jordan, unless you go back in time and make sure I don't get shot, there is no way you can guarantee I'll walk again. I think its great that you want to help me but I won't be a burden in your life."

"It's too late, you already are. If I leave you'll just be a burden in my heart for the rest of my life. I love you Woody and I need you. I understand you don't love me anymore but I don't care. If you want to marry someone else, I don't care either. Sure it will hurt but I'll still be there. If I can't have you than at least let me be your friend."

Jordan noticed for the first time that Woody was crying.

"I'm so scared Jordan, I'm so scared. Promise me, if I let you stay you won't resent me. Promise me that you won't hurt me again. Baby, I do love but I'm too weak to handle the pain of you walking out. I need you to promise, can you do that?"

Jordan leaned in and kissed him. "Does that answer your question? I'm not going anywhere Woody. I love you."

With that Jordan began to cry to and Woody smiled and said, "I love you too!"