Anger and Revenge

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

I walked through the rubble of Haven City. Fully aware of my past. I remembered it now. It had reminded me...Torn's blood shining on the walkway...His horrible demise. Rin had killed him in the night. Along with all of my friends. I had seen it in my dreams, the killings. First up was Kat, sexually assaulted, beaten to her last breath. Daxter was next, strangled and beaten. Samos...Pecker...all gone. I heard every broken scream, remembered every thread of my life. Then I heard the cries of Torn, when I awoke, his body lay bloody, torn and broken. Then I saw it-written on a wall. You're Next...

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

I gripped a rifle I had found. I cocked it, with a loud click, but it was unheard, for all life but me that had been in the city was dead or imprisoned. Every painful memory was playing out in my mind. The rape, the wedding, the people he slaughtered, the three weeks I spent being tortured and assaulted. I marched on, out of the city, and to the strange, mystical world that was the Forgotten lands. The once green plains of grass and ferns were barren ashes, in the distance I saw the Dark Maker kingdom. I prepared to die for vengence. I wanted to cause pain to Rin beyond his worst nightmares, I wanted hear his agonized screaming. I wanted see his blood all over the Dark Maker metal. To sink my blade into his damned flesh.

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
You can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Each step was silent, the ashes of the life once inhabiting the land was at least ankle deep. I was not if it was day or night, there was always a cloud of smoke. The air was thick with it, like a fog. The kingdom was no more than a dark silouette in the storm of ash and smoke. It was hard to breathe, almost suffocating, but I would not give into it. I was still wearing the attire Rin had outfitted me before I was sent to kill Torn. But the blood-red corset was gray from the ash, and the tight black pants were dirty. The tank top under the corset was torn, and also very dirty. My skin was caked with filth. My jet-black hair was only thing that remained pure. The wind was very strong, so strong that a small bit of debris whizzed by, grazing oy cheek and leaving a long, deep cut, which was stinging and smarting. But I cared not, I pressed on, determined for vengence.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

His maniacal laughter rang in my mind, his cries of ectasy as he pumped in and out of me, the feeling of his tounge on my skin...I shuddered. I grew closer and closer to the gate of the kingdom...a few more feet ahead. I took my final steps until the gate was in full view. I fired a shot into the air. And another, and another, I fired until I had no more bullets. I tossed the weapon aside. I had all I needed. I wanted his ass all over his little tower. I was going to have his head on a stake...yes, it was a delicious plan...dark eco warmed my blood and surged for a second in glee of the plan.

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

The gate slowly began to open. The field ahead was a walkway, lined with gray stone, while the rest was dirt and ash. The walkway went straight to the tower. The place was deserted. All of the prisoners must have been inside of the tower. I knew where to go. To the top. He was expecting this. I became Light Janovah, my new form of it. I flew to the top, the wind lashing at me. I landed gingerly on the purple marble. A silouette stood idly, staring. The familar form of the bane of my existance. Rin. His figure became clear as he approched slowly, in his Denzian form. He stopped in the middle of the tower, while I stood on the edge.

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
You can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Rin: Before I kill you, do you have anything to say?
Janovah: Yeah I do. FUCK YOU. Fuck you, fuck you and your evil actions. You will die here. I will make you hurt beyond anything imaginable. I will make you scream. I'll wipe your blood with your ass.

I clenched my teeth and using a certain finger I flipped him a very rude sign indeed.

Rin: There are some very strong words in there, miss. Didn't your daddy teach you not to curse? Then again, he didn't get around to much parenting, seeing as I killed him.

All my friends are gone, they died
They all screamed, and cried

I'll never forget, never forget back against the wall
Gonna take you down

Rin: Kat wasn't nearly as tasty as you were. No struggling, just screaming. I thought it was absolutely delightful the way she called your name. "Janovah, help me! Save me!" How wonderfully pathetic. Looks like you failed her, like everyone else.

I did something without thinking. I had been running, and just as he had finished his thought, my fist collided with his jaw. He cried out, but then walloped me in the stomach.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

I grabbed my stomach, then Rin smashed into my shoulder with his arm, which exploded in pain. I could feel it was painful, probably dislocated. I tumbled down onto the cold marble, the pain far from ebbing. I could malevolent rage burning like a fire. Rin began to kick me, in the stomach and ribs. I felt my ribs cracking, pain blooming. I clenched my teeth-I tasted blood. I grabbed his leg and he fell. I got up and began punching his face madly.

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
You can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming