NOTHING NEW HERE JUST CLEARING UP MY GRAMMAR AND SPELLING MISTAKES!!!!!
Diclaimer: I dnt own kh or any of its characters if I did I wouldn't be writing this piece of trash!
A/N: this fic was inspired by trainspotting which I currentley love at the moment! XD my baby Ewan! Anyway enjoy and don't forget to review. This is written in sora's point of view.
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When we're young we believe that if you smile and laugh at others around you the whole world smiles and laughs with you, that you can be whoever you want to be, that money comes out of nowhere, that everyone is good and kind and no-ones angry or sad and for one glorious part in your life you fall in love truly with one person in the entire world...and they love you back...
What a fucking joke.
I did believe all that shit when I was going out with Kairi. She was the best...and only girlfriend I ever had. She was also the prettiest girl on Destiny Islands. Short soft cherry red hair, dazzling smile, a fine ass and her boobs...well...they were kinda on the small side (not much of a guys wet dream) but I didn't mind, big boobs didn't appeal to me that much, weird I know but hey I don't give a shit about that kinda thing.
We did everything together, kissed, snogged, hugged, ate ice-cream, partied, got pissed. But for some strange reason I felt that she was holding back. Weird yes? Definitely to me!
And for the first time in two months it came to that specially planned night. You know the one! Right when you tell your parents your sleeping over a friends house to play video games all night and watch dvd's...when your really going to fuck your girlfriend for the first time while her parents have gone away for a romantic weekend.
The ones where you turn up at a crummy run down moth eaten hotel and cant sleep because a swingers party is 'living it large' in the next bedroom. Disgusting I know.
After ten minutes of finally convincing my mom that I wasn't going to get pissed and send out for stripers and hookers at my friends house, she let me off the hook to go have 'fun playing on the PS2'.
I couldn't stop smiling as I sprinted towards Kairi's house. This was my first time and I wanted everything to be perfect!
As I stopped outside her door bending over to catch my breath, I patted my back pocket in my jeans to make sure I still had my 'protection'. I wasn't an idiot or a total prick, I knew that you could get a girl pregnant anyway you did it whether it was upside down, standing up, missionary, all that shit.
I drew a deep breath. Okay this was it, this was my big night. And I felt FUCKING FANTASTIC! I swallowed hard and pushed the doorbell with a shaky finger.
No answer.
She probably hadn't heard me. I rung the bell a couple more times and looked up to see if any lights were on. All the windows were pitch black. Suddenly a warm bright light filled the porch in front of me.
I grinned widely as I heard a lock being unlatched and the door opening wide to reveal my beautiful girlfriend clad in a black leather thong and matching bra with fish net stockings.
"Hey kitten" I said seductively.
She stared at me as if I'd grown a second head. I frowned wondering why she hadn't let me in yet.
"Sora! What a pleasant surprise!" She looked uneasy...as if she had something to hide.
"Hey! You look...fantastic!" She had a great body. I stared at her mesmerised waiting for my friend southwards to respond, but he hadn't yet, strange. Oh well I bet I will when I see her naked for the first time. "Aren't you gonna let me in?" I asked.
She sighed. "Sora look, I know you thought we were gonna do it tonight but uh...something came up. I got a ton of homework to do and I-"
"You're doing homework in that?" I asked her disbelieveingly. Something definitely weird was going on here.
"Listen Sora, we'll have to do this some other time, I'm really busy right –HEY!" I cut her off by pushing her aside, the door slamming against the wall behind her. "Sora please don't" She grabbed my wrist tightly trying to pull me back but I shook her off.
"ALRIGHT WHERE IS HE?" I shouted at the top of my lungs, which was weird since I barely showed my temper. It felt like I was in a dream. My girlfriend had been cheating on me. Probably since I first went out with her. "WHERE THE FUCK IS HE KAIRI?" I could feel the blood boiling in my veins.
Kairi just stood there staring at me with shock as I kicked her wooden coffee table over in my little 'tantrum' around her living room. I couldn't blame her, she'd never seen me angry and neither had I seen me this angry either. Even when I was drunk I didn't throw things around, I was a bit wobbly on my feet and sick all night, waking up to a hangover the size of a mountain the next morning but that was about it.
But all in all I really couldn't blame myself either. It's not everyday you find out your girlfriend's been cheating on you. To everyone out there you think to yourself that things don't happen like this to you...or never will. This is something that happens in films and soap operas, not to ordinary people like you and me surely it can't? But it did.
When I had finally realised that, I did the only thing a guy should never do in front of his 'future' ex-girlfriend. I broke down and cried. There are some things in life you can take in, for example heroin, and there are some things that you can't just stick in your arm straight away and accept it. This takes time to finally register into that wrinkled grey matter of yours up there and also in that thumping red pump inside your chest. It also takes time to heal.
Trust me this is worse than having a hard on or an 'accident' in front of a girl you like. And it especially got worse when your 'future' ex-girlfriend's girlfriend walks into the room aswell.
"Hey Sora honey are you ok?"
I looked up from my crumpled state on the floor. Even though my vision was stinging and watery from salty tears, I still had to register in my mind that I was staring at a naked Selphie in front of me.
"Wha?" I was at a loss for words. Why was Selphie over here on Kairi and I's special night? Why was she comforting me on the floor? And why the FUCK was she NAKED!?
Then for one glorious once in a lifetime event when you actually use your brain to think. Everything clicks.
"You're gay?"
Trust me my mouth was opened wider with shock than Kairi's and Selphie's put together. In fact both of their mouths were completely shut.
Selphie interrupted the awkward silence with that big mouth of her's smiling and giggling happily like a school girl when she said:
"Silly Sora" She ruffled my hair and hugged me tightly. "Kairi and I have been going out for 3months!"
It felt as though my whole life had been one fucking lie. And it had. None of that stuff you believed in as a kid mattered anymore.
No-one smiled and laughed with you when you did, they either gave you the finger or told you to fuck off. You couldn't be whoever you wanted to be, money doesn't grow on trees or fly out of you parent's back pockets next to their fat arses. Everyone is cruel and angry and no-one falls in love. No-one ever has or ever will. And I certainly won't. Not now...not ever. There's no such thing as love. It's just lust. Lust to have sex with other people, to get great pleasure off each other. No-one cares about personalities anymore, it's all about great bodies and great sex.
The world's a fucked up place. And I had severely fucked up for not noticing the sign's that Kairi didn't fancy me at all. It was all there! The way she didn't smile after I kissed her or when she pulled away from me when I hugged her in public.
I just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me whole.
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Sora: god that was awful! How can you be such a cruel writer?
CW(author): QUIET YOU! Anyways this was mainly on a whim here but I will continue if people review and want more!
Sora: phfft...like that's ever gonna hap-OW YOU son of a bitch!
CW: AS I WAS SAYING! glares at sora) I will continue this onto a yaoi fanfic with some minor lemon between riku and sor-
Sora: WHAT!
CW: (ignores sora) oh yes all the story will be in sora's point of veiw so mwhahahahaha (cough cough)
Sora: (wacks back)
CW: ugh thank you. Anyways it's getting late and I need chocolate then sleep. This is wat you get from watching trainspotting again. Its annoying but funny since whatever im reading I have a scottish accent in my head that sounds exactly like Ewan McGreggor. (if that's how you spell it) nite nite! Hehehehe oh soraaaaaaaa! XD
Sora: goodbye (gulps) if I survive the nite!
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