Faith
By: Kryptonite
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*Day After*
Scott Summers sat in the same chair he had been sitting in for over twenty hours, watching Rogue sleep. " Hank she's waking up." He sat up as her eyelids blinked against the harsh light.
" Where am I?" She croaked. Scott winced in sympathy.
" You're in the med. lab, under the school." Rogue's eyes closed wearily. " Why?"
" He- left. I thought- it would- be- bet-ter- if- I- wasn't- around."
" That's quite enough." Dr. Hank McCoy said, coming into the room in all his blue-furred glory. " We need you to rest so you'll get better." His ever-present smile shone down on Rogue as she blinked owlishly up at him.
" My- throat."
" Yes I'm afraid it will be quite sore for a few days at least. You swallowed quite a bit of water and we had to get it out somehow. As long as you are awake, I would like to know how you broke your arm." Hank waited patiently as Rogue's gaze shifted to Cyclops sitting forward in the chair next to her bed, one hand resting gently near hers.
" He- ac-ci-dent." Cyclops took a deep breath and tried to keep all the anger out of his body.
" Everything's going to be alright now, just go back to sleep."
Hank pulled a needle off the metal tray next to Rogue's. At her look he explained, " I'm going to give you a slight sedative to help put you to sleep." She closed her eyes and nodded her agreement.
" I need to speak with Professor Xavier but I'll be back in a little bit." Rogue just stared after him as he left, trying to ignore the bite of the needle as it penetrated her skin.
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" She says Logan broke her arm. That it was an accident. Knowing Logan's strength it probably was."
" Did she say why she tried to kill herself?" Charles Xavier asked quietly, not wanting to pry into the younger man's thoughts.
" You can read my mind, find out for yourself." Scott said, slumping tiredly in the chair.
" I'd prefer you tell me. Obviously you either feel guilty or angry about something she said-"
" Rogue said that she thought it would be better if she wasn't here. That Logan leaving helped push her over the edge. Basically what I got off of her was that no one liked her, no one wanted her here, and it would be better for everyone in the whole wide world if she was dead. Happy?"
" Not at all. Scott, try and get some sleep." Scott stood up at the obvious dismissal.
" I told Rogue I'd be back."
" She's asleep." Xavier protested sharply.
" I don't want her to wake up alone, even if I am asleep in the chair next to her."
" Good man."
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" Rogue I know you can't hear me but I'm here. God, Rogue life's so screwed up. I don't want to be here either. After Jean died… everything went downhill. I can't imagine what you must be going through. You have friends here, all the teachers love you, I just don't- can't understand."
" Fake." A small voice rasped out. Rogue's mouth barely moved as she spoke.
" Rogue?"
" I- faked. It's not- real." Her speech was halty and pained, from the sore throat.
" What's not real? Everyone loves you. It would be a real shame if you died, through any means."
" I'm- not- real. I lied." A single tear rolled down the left side of her face, going sideways.
" About what?" Scott asked, brushing it away before it hit the pillow.
" I- can't." Rogue's eyes blinked again, and again… and again before she fell asleep, finally succumbing to the drug Hank had given her.
" Rogue, you can. You just have to have faith." Scott wrapped his hands around Rogue's left, gloved hand and sat still as the tears squeezed out between his tightly closed eyelids.
He sat in the harsh lights of the medical lab until he fell asleep, head resting lightly next to Rogue's slumbering body, hands wrapped around hers. Cyclops and Rogue matched breathing, taking comfort in the other's warm presence.
You just have to have faith.
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A/N: Another idea. I might do something with the idea for them all committing suicide in another story line but not now. It is a semi-decent idea though. Just in case anyone is confused, all of the times are relevant to the day she drowned herself. So the last chapter was eight months after 'Marie' died and Logan left.
This chapter is only one day after she died and Logan left. All clear now? Any other questions just ask me, I'm more than willing to try and explain my insanity.