K: forgot to tell you… Kai is as old as Tala… You know, he was still there too…
/blabla/means: spoken in Russian.
I still own nothing : (
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When nothing eases the pain
By K
Chapter 2
Tala POV
'No! I can't lose! I may not lose!'
Clearly I underestimated that kid a bit. Although I should have known better… He's trained by Kai. What did I expect?
Okay, he won the second round… 1-1… So what? I can easily win the 3rd…
"Bladers, are you ready?"
'You're going down Tyson! I won't let you win! I won't let you beat me!'
A perfect launch. Of both of us.
The blades meeting each other midway.
'Time to play…'
The ice was closing the 2 bladers in…
'Panicking already? You're weaker than I thought… Has Kai learned you so little? Or are you so stupid to learn?'
"What is this? Why are you smirking like that? What's wrong here? What's wrong with you?"
My eyes are cold and the smirk is still on place.
"I'm just winning…"
I see you shake your head.
"No, you're just playing, but you're not gonna win!
Can't you see it Tala? They're using you!
You and the others of your team!"
I tense up. Hearing Tyson, but also an other voice on the background.
'What is this? What's going on? Why do I suddenly feel…sad…weak…helpless…?'
"I'm not gonna lose Tala! Not because I want to beat you, but because I won't let them win! Boris and Voltaire. I won't let them win!"
Don't let them win…A broken voice, so long ago…
Promise…I close my eyes. Who is this? Who?
Don't forget!I shake my head. No…impossible…
Look after the others…My eyes shoot open. Your face floating before my eyes.
'Alex…'
I shake my head.
'How could I forget, Alex…You died…To protect us…Me…
I held you…I felt your body run cold. I saw your eyes dim. I heard you take your last breath.
We were so young…How could I forget?
I broke down. Wanted to die, but I promised… Promised you…'
I look up. Wolborg is still fighting Dragoon. Protecting me. Sensing I was lost and acting himself to keep me from any harm…
You're standing there. Before me. Smiling. And I feel like the child I once was.
Why did they brainwash me? Why did I have to forget?
To become better. To win the world for them…
I nod. Understanding finally hitting me.
I softly call Wolborg's attention. Telling him to attack, but at the moment that he meets Dragoon, to withdraw…
I can feel his confusion, but he does as I ask.
Even after everything I did to him, he still trusts me…
Through our bond I can feel he knows it wasn't really me who trained with him all these years…
A flash of white light blinds me and when I look again, Alex is gone, Wolborg is lying still and Dragoon is still spinning.
Tyson's team is hugging him breathless.
Even Kai manages a smile. However it disappears when he sees me.
I can see sympathy and old friendship in his eyes.
I smile at him.
/Don't worry. I haven't lost. I've won…/
You're looking questioningly at me, but then it hits you.
You nod and smile.
I walk back to my team.
They're trained well to Boris and Voltaire's standards. Not a single emotion to see on their faces. Cold, stone.
Still I know what they think, what they feel…
We walk out of the stadium. The car is already waiting for us.
All of us knowing what's going to happen when we get back 'home'… Still we get in.
The silence is becoming irritating. I look at the guys. Ian has his eyes closed. Bryan is looking outside. And Spencer is staring at me.
Our eyes meet and mine soften.
You don't have a clue what happened back there. None of you have…
I shake my head.
Because of me, all of you will get punished…
/Don't worry Tala… Everything will turn out fine…/
I look at you. How did you know what I was thinking?
/Niet. It's not gonna be alright. You know them. You'll all have to pay because I lost. I hate that/
Your eyes widen. I've never been like that before. I would never have said something like that before this match.
/What did happen there? How come you lost against that little kid? He's no match for you…/
I sigh. How could I possible explain what happened there? I don't know myself…
Out of the corner of my eye I see Bryan looking at me.
I'm trying hard not to show too many emotions. They don't know me like this. But something inside me broke. Seeing Alex again… Hearing his voice… Remembering how he died… Died in my arms…
I'm forcing the tears back. I won't allow them to fall. I promised. Promised I would be strong…
I look outside. We've arrived…
I take a deep breath and step out. The guys following close.
I shudder when we walk through the gate.
A nightmare is about to begin. And I can't help but think about Alex. About his last hours…Here in the Abbey…Would I end the same way? Or would it be different with me?
Guess I'll find out soon…
TBC
K: so this was chapie 2… Hope you all liked it. Leave a note to tell me…
See ya next chapter.