Chapter Four

Author's Notes: Whahoo me and my sick self were able to get our butts in gear and try to work on chapter four. It is kinda bad though considering the fact that I don't feel 100. Instead I feel like 10. Anyway sorry if it sucks but enjoy.

Shuichi tossed and turned in the bed hoping to fall asleep that night but to no avail. He looked up at the ceiling and recalled what Ryuichi had told him. How could Ryuichi love me if he knew that I could never love him back? he thought to himself as he glanced over to his sleeping lover. He smiled at Yuki who slept peacefully. His smile then faded as he noticed Yuki's eyes open.

"How meaning times are you going to toss and turn?" he asked him angreily.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to. I am just having a hard time falling to sleep," Shuichi replied.

"That isn't like you....Something wrong?"

Shuichi was quiet for a minute. He couldn't possibly tell Yuki what happened that afternoon. He didn't want him to go up to Ryuichi and beat him up. He then shook his head in reply to Yuki's question.

"Good, then go to sleep," Yuki said before pulling the cover over his head and turning over. Shuichi watched him before closing his eyes and waiting for the peace of sleep.

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"Really? You mean he told you he had feeling for you?" asked Hiro as he looked at his friend.

Shuichi nodded, "Yea and I don't know what to do. I mean I love Yuki more than anything."

"Well then just tell him that. I bet he would understand," replied Hiro.

"I don't think I could bring myself to do it. When I saw the expression on his face when I avoided him, it was so depressing," said Shuichi sadly.

"I see, well you should follow your heart on this one. Make the choice for yourself because either way, you will end up hurting someone," exclaimed Hiro with a smile. Shuichi looked up at him and returned the smile.

"Should I go find him and tell him?" asked Shuichi.

"Go to the place you guys were at last. I am sure he is there," answered Hiro. Shuichi nodded before stepping out of Hiro's apartment.

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Shuichi walked around the park in search of Ryuichi. To his surprise, Ryuichi was sitting on a bench playing with Kumagoro. As Shuichi walked towards him, Ryuichi looked up and smiled.

"HI, SHUICHI!," said Ryuichi happily.

"Hello there," replied Shuichi with a wave. He stood infront of Ryuichi and looked into his eyes. He noticed that there was no sadness in them like yesturday which brought relief to him. It amazed him at how Ryuichi could never go a day without smiling.

"What brings you here?" asked Ryuichi innocently.

"It is about yesturday," Shuichi replied and watched as Ryuichi's smile vaded. Those eyes no longer should happiness, but instead longing and sadness. Shuichi looked at the ground. "I have to say that I can not love you back. You see, I love Yuki and there is nothing on this Earth that can change it. I am really sorry, Sakuma-sama."

"Why? I know that you love him but I love you more than he does. You shouldn't be with him, he will never be able to have a real relationship with you?" said Ryuichi.

"Why do you say that? Yuki is a very good person to me and he has proved it in his own ways," replied Shuichi angreily.

"I remember when he made you sad. He may do it again and I don't ever want to to see you cry again," said Ryuichi before he got up and was real close to Shuichi. Shuichi just stood there and Ryuichi kissed him deeply. Shuichi didn't know how to act, he only stood there as if paralyzed.

There was something the the two singers did not know. Someone was watching him. Those golden eyes fixed on Shuichi. A frown came upon his face as he put out his cigarrette and walked off.