Chapter 6

Buffy's POV

I slowly opened my eyes and found someone spooning me. It was Faith. Her head was on my neck. I can feel her soft breathing. I turned around and looked at her. She's beautiful when she's sleeping... I began to remember the things that happened yesterday. When I remembered the scene where Cordelia is sitting on the lap of Faith I can't help but feel...pissed off and...jealous. I can't think that! I'm with Angel now! I shook my head and looked at Faith again. She moved a little and slowly opened her eyes. She was trying to focus on my face. I smiled at her.

"B"

God I missed that nickname of hers... I smiled even more.

"What"

"What are you doing"

"I'm watching you sleep..."

"Oh..."

She closed her eyes again then opened it slightly.

"What day is it today"

"It's Saturday..."

"Oh...good..."

She wrapped her arms around me and pulled me close. Her face was on my neck.

"Gotta sleep...too early..."

I giggled a little and began to stroke her hair. She fell asleep again. I closed my eyes and began to drift to sleep again holding her.

Faith's POV

I slowly opened my eyes and found myself cuddled at the neck of Buffy. I pulled away slightly and looked at her. She's sooo beautiful...God I love her... I slowly try to move away from her but she pulled me back.

"B I gotta go...let go of me..."

"Hmmm...no...stay here..."

"Your cute and all, but I gotta pee."

She pulled me tightly to her then let me go. I rushed towards the bathroom.

Buffy's POV

I slowly stretch my hands up and sat on the bed. I looked at the clock and saw that its already 9 in the morning. I slowly walked towards the kitchen to make breakfast and I can hear Faith taking a bath. I made toast, bacon and eggs, and some juice.

I'm not really that good of a cook. The only thing I'm good at cooking is...breakfast. I always tried cooking or baking but it just seem that the taste doesn't seem to be...edible. My mom told me that whoever would marry me would have a hard time digesting what I would give him. But I think I'll like a husband that would love what I cook whether it tastes good or bad. I guess I couldn't find that kind of person nowadays...

I heard Faith going down the stairs. I laid the food down the table and began to clean. She came to the kitchen and I almost dropped what I was holding... She was wearing a VERY short short and a fitting shirt that reveals her navel. Her hair was still wet that's why she was holding a towel.

"Mornin B."

"Uh...g-g-good morning to you too..."

She smirked at me.

"Since when are you stuttering B? What's the matter? Cat got your tongue"

She laughed a little and I couldn't help but blush. The only reason I'm stuttering is because of you! She sat at the chair and began to eat.

Faith's POV

"This is good B! You didn't tell me you could cook."

Actually her cooking is not that bad so I assumed that its...good. My mom once told me that a girl gets sad when someone told her that her cooking is bad so I kinda applied it to Buffy. I didn't want to let Buffy know that its 'not bad' coz I know she's gonna get hurt. I don't want to hurt her...I looked at her and she smiled at me. That made me blush.

"Thank you Faith..."

"Uh...your...welcome."

She grinned at me.

"What's the matter Faith? Cat got your tongue"

That made me blush more. I looked away from her but she still laughed at me. I looked at her laughing and I couldn't help but laugh a little.

Buffy's POV

She said my cooking is good! She actually liked my cooking! That's strange...I cooked the same but when I tasted mine it tastes...salty. But that doesn't matter! She liked my cooking! We were

walking towards the magic box. Faith decided to leave her car for awhile since I asked her that it would give her some exercise.

We were walking side by side. Everything is quiet. I wanted to ask her about what happened yesterday. So I did...

"Um Faith...About what happened yesterday...were you..."

"I'm not in love with Cordy...and I remember all of it..."

"Oh..."

"Look...I'm...sorry for the way I said or acted yesterday. I wasn't in control of my body or my mouth when it comes to Cordy, so I tend to...say some weird stuff...forgive me will ya"

I couldn't help but smile at her.

"Forget it...you didn't do anything bad...did you"

She looked away from me then stopped walking. I looked at her and saw that she was looking at the ground.

"Well...um...I wanted to...kiss her and...she wanted me to...you know..."

She was blushing and I was turning red because of jelousy and anger.

"But...I told you...I wasn't in control of my body at that time so..."

I turned around and walked away, slowly. Ooooohhhhh! Next time I see Cordelia she's dead!

"Whatever! I don't care"

Faith's POV

I ran after Buffy trying to explain but she kept on walking and walking. Geeez! She's the first person I apologized and she doesn't even listen! I stopped her by holding her arm. She didn't look at me. She just kept her back at me so I turned her around to face me. She was frowning.

"I said I was sorry! What else would you like me to say! Besides, I wasn't in control of my body at that time! Why won't you believe me"

"I don't care! I don't care if you're hurt or if you fuck the first person you see! Go jump to a cliff for all I care"

Why is she being like this? This isn't the person that I was laughing with this morning. She walked away then headed inside the magic box. I was so pissed off that I punched the nearest wall. Why are the people that I fall in love with always has a very confusing personality! Why can't I fall in love with a simple person!

I slowly walked inside the magic box and saw that Buffy was walking towards the training room. I walked towards Tara and sat beside her. I talked to her a bit and noticed the door at the training room open and Buffy, Xander and a girl that seems to be blocked by the two. I can't seem to see her what with Xander and Buffy blocking my view. I looked at Buffy but she seems to be ignoring me. Fine be that way! Xander walked beside me.

"Hey Faith! I'd like you to meet someone. She's my cousin."

The girl walked towards me and I clearly saw her face. My mouth was opened wide. What is she doing here! She was shocked herself upon seeing me. She just stood in front of me and we continue to stare at each other.

"Faith this is Julia...Julia meet Faith."

We continue to stare at each other. She slowly smiled then jumped at me hugging me tight. I was so surprised that we ended up on the floor. She was on top of me. I looked at Buffy and saw that she was REALLY REALLY mad now. I looked at Julia and slowly stood her up. She was crying and Xander saw it.

"You know each other"

"Uh...yeah. Juls here is one of my classmates in Boston."

Julia wiped her tears then slapped me on my cheek. I touched my cheek then looked at her, shocked.

"Why the hell did you did that"

"How can you leave without saying anything to us! We were so worried about you"

I looked at her and noticed that she's crying again. I touched her shoulder to calm her but her tears just seem to keep coming.

"We were so worried that we went to your house and then...we saw everything all messed up! We called the police but they don't seem to know how to look for you...I just...thought that..."

I hugged her to calm her down. Wow she was worried about me. God how I missed her voice... I stroked her hair. I heard the door closed and looked at it. Buffy was gone...

Buffy's POV

I couldn't take seeing Faith comforting her friend. Somehow I can feel that Faith has some kind of thing for that girl and I can't help but feel...broken. I can feel pain from my heart that I can't help but cry. I didn't know where I was heading but I just want to forget everything that I'm feeling. It hurts a lot... I never felt like this even when I'm with Angel. Maybe I'm in love with Faith now...NO!

I sat on a rock and realized that it was a tomb. I was in the cemetery. I looked at the sky and saw that the sun is setting. My tears just kept on pouring down...so I did what I felt like doing...I cried like there was no tomorrow...

Faith's POV

We decided to walk to the park to talk for a bit. Xander understood this and let us his approval. We sat at the bench and just sat there. We didn't say anything for about a minute. Finally she spoke...

"Why did you leave us Faith? I thought you were happy..."

"I was...it's just that...its compicated..."

"Terri and Clark kept on visiting your house to see if you came home...I did too..."

"How are those two anyway"

"They're fine..."

"That's good..."

Another silence. I didn't know what to say to her. I never expected to see her in Sunnydale. But that doesn't mean I'm not happy seeing her. I sighed and looked at the sun.

"...I left because of my stepdad. He returned one day and beat us up again. We managed to escape then headed to LA were we stayed for a month...We were happy...I was happy or should I say contented with my life there. That's also the place were I met Buffy. You know the blonde girl you met in the magic box..."

"Yeah...She's pretty..."

"Yeah...After I met her she quickly left and that made me...sad. She was the first person that could have been my friend since I moved to that place and knowing she left...made me sad. My mom noticed but she never questioned me. We kept our regular routine...me working in the afternoon...she was working in the morning. We had everything that we need...until one day..."

I looked at the ground and know that she was looking at me.

"I just ended my job and decided to buy a car since I had enough money. I wanted to surprise my mom but instead I was the one surprised...When I came home I saw the door open. I slowly walked inside and as I walk I saw some blood...and then I saw it...my mom lying on the floor in her own blood...I looked around and saw a note near her. It was from my stepdad...he wants me to find him..."

I closed my eyes as I remember those images. How I wanted to erase my memory. I wanted to cry but I didn't. I felt Julia's hand on my shoulder.

"...After that...I began to look for him...I soon learned that I became a slayer. A person who slays monsters and vampires. I was so happy because now I can really get revenge on that person. My watcher...Mrs. Doris trained me...but she ended up dead by a monster called Kakistos whom I encountered. I know Kakistos knew my stepdad but when I tried to interrogate him he escaped and that lead me to go to Sunnydale...and here I am...trying to find the person who hurt me the most..."

I felt her pull me towards her. She hugged me. I laid my head on her shoulder.

"You know...it's okay to cry once in a while..."

"I...don't feel like crying..."

She hugged me tight. We just stayed like that for how many minutes...

Buffy's POV

I felt someone approaching me. I know it's Angel. I looked at the sky and saw that its already dark. I didn't noticed as I was busy staring at the ground. I felt Angel sat beside me...

"Are you alright"

"Yeah..."

"You can't lie to me Buffy...what's the matter"

"It's nothing..."

"Is it about the other slayer"

I looked at him shocked. How did he... She stared infront of him and then smiled.

"Even though I don't go outside in the morning doesn't mean that I don't know anything..."

"How..."

"I went to your house yesterday...I decided to go to your room since I knew you would be there. I saw you with the other slayer together in bed..."

"But that doesn't mean that..."

"I know you didn't sleep with her. I just know that you feel something for her..."

I looked at the ground. I was so confused...

"How come you know, when I don't even know myself..."

"That's because you're in denial. Try to free yourself from that...It's not good for you..."

I looked at him and he looked back trying to smile. Even though he's undead I can still see the pain that's clear in his eyes. I smiled at him...

"How can I believe you when you yourself is in denial..."

He grinned at me.

"Is it really that visible"

I nod. His smile faded then looked at the sky. I just kept my eyes in him.

"I won't lie to you...I'm not happy with what I'm doing here...I mean, I'm actually letting the one that I love to go to somebody that's...not me. It hurts but I...want you to be happy..."

He looked at me and smiled.

"And if the only thing that makes you happy is to be with that person...then...I'd gladly let you go...even if it hurts a lot..."

I was slowly crying. He was my first ever boyfriend and he was always there to help me with my problems. Even though he's not human, I still loved him...but I knew that were not going to last that long...The moment that I saw Faith again I felt alive again... Am I really in love with Faith? God! I don't know anything anymore!

I hugged Angel while I cry. I didn't want to hurt him but I know I'll keep hurting him if I stay with him when I don't love him. It wouldn't be fair to him.

"I'm sorry..."

He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. We stayed like that for awhile. After that when we said our goodbye, I went to the house to get something to eat. Luckily Faith wasn't there...

Faith's POV

I was walking towards Buffy's house. I kept on thinking about the things that's happening to me. I can't find him if I stay like this...I have to go away...away from...Buffy... I sighed and went inside. I walked towards the kitchen and saw Buffy sitting in a chair and...I can see that she's been crying.

I had the urge to go to her and hug her tight and kiss away the sadness in her eyes but I restrain myself for doing so. I have to think of the reason that I came here. She looked at me with her eyes all red and puffy. I went to the ref and grabbed a drink...trying to ignore her eyes. I stooped drinking as I heard her soft voice...

"Where were you"

I dropped the glass that I've been holding on the sink.

"I just dropped Juls in Xander's place...you"

"I...talked to Angel... in the cemetery..."

The mention of his name made my heart hurt again. Everytime I hear that name my heart just seems to hurt a lot. I looked at the floor and kept my back in front of her.

"Oh..."

Buffy's POV

"Oh..."

I looked up at her and saw that her head was looking at the floor. Her voice was so soft and quiet. She sounded so heart broken. My heart was beating fast as I heard her voice. She was so sad.

"We...broke up..."

She must have been surprised because she looked up and turned around. She was frowning.

Faith's POV

What the HELL! Is he the reason you're crying! If he is...I'll rip him like a paper... I turned to her and walked closer to her. I was really mad...

"What! Why"

She looked at the table avoiding my eyes.

"He told me...that I'm in love with someone...else..."

I frowned even more. She's in love with someone else? Who? I leaned closer to her and hold her chin softly and slowly forced her to look in my eyes. I can see that she's nervous. Why would she be nervous?

"Are you"

She looked at me for awhile. She blushed a little then looked away.

"I...don't know..."

Buffy's POV

I looked at her eyes for awhile. She's asking me if I'm in love with someone else. Am I? Am I in love with someone else? Am...I in love with...Faith? I blushed a little as I thought this and I couldn't help but look away. It's like she can read my what I feel through my eyes.

"I...don't know..."

She let go of my chin and leaned away from me. I looked at her. She was smiling. Why is she smiling?

Faith's POV

I couldn't help but smile. It's like I can see myself in her when I was afraid of falling for Julia. I looked at her and she looked confused. I smile even more.

"You know B...someone once told me that...everyone falls in love...and once you did it will be the most wonderful feeling...I didn't believe her at first but...when I felt it...it was, the most wonderful thing that happened to me."

I looked at her smiling and she looked away again.

Buffy's POV

Everytime she looks at me, I couldn't help but avoid her eyes. I looked at her again and she had her back towards me.

"I'm going to sleep. Now..."

She was about to walk outside of the kitchen when I stopped her. I need to ask this question...

"Faith? What is Julia really...to you"

She stopped but kept her back towards me.

"Well...she was my biggest crush when I was still in Boston..."

My heart was now hurting a lot. It's a good thing she had her back towards me because I can feel my tears slowly running down my eyes.

"But...now...she's just a friend. Coz I've fallen for someone too...far greater than Julia...I just hope that she realizes that to me...she's everything...later"

I watched her walk towards the stairs. Who is that person? I laid my head on the table as I think of my feelings...

Faith's POV

I felt the rays of the sun on my face...not only that, but Buffy's hands was on my waist again. I slowly turned away from the rays and turned to face Buffy. I was surprised to find her awake. I smiled a little.

"Still thinking"

She smiled a little then pulled me close. She had her head on my neck. I felt her nod.

"Don't think to hard...or your brain would explode."

She slapped my arm. I can feel her smiling.

"Aren't you going to school today"

"Just a little longer...mom"

"I'm not your mom"

"You sound like her..."

"Whatever"

She giggled a little. It took her five minutes to get up and get ready to school.

Buffy's POV

We were having a break when I again start thinking about Faith. I couldn't sleep as I think about her. Willow noticed and start asking me...

"Geeezz Buffy. Did you even sleep? You look terrible"

"Well...I couldn't sleep..."

"Angel trouble again"

"Uh...no...actually we kinda...broke up."

She started to cough. I smile a little at her.

"WHAT! WHEN? WHERE? HOW? WHY"

"Geeezz. You've got to many questions. Well let's see...We broke up yesterday...in the cemetery...we talked...and..."

"You forgot the 'why' question."

'I was hoping you wouldn't ask that...'

"I don't...know..."

"You don't know! What kind of answer is that"

"The 'I don't know' kind"

"C'mon Buffy! I thought were bestfriends..."

"We are...I guess we...I...don't love him anymore..."

"I thought he's the guy of your dreams..."

"Guy? Didn't I told you that the one's hunting my dreams was a girl"

"I didn't mean that! I meant that he was perfect to you..."

"He is...but...there's someone else..."

"Faith"

I looked at her shocked. How come she knows? Am I the only one who doesn't know!

"H-how"

"First, you're stuttering and I know you don't stutter. Second...I can see it in your actions and eyes...at first I thought I was wrong but now...I didn't know you were...like that"

I covered my hands on my face.

"I don't know anything anymore. I have feelings for her but...I don't know..."

She didn't ask anything anymore. I'm glad because I'm really confused of what I feel...

Faith's POV

Julia and I was spending the day together. Talking. I had some fun. We were just haging out like friends. Actually when I saw her yesterday, I thought my feelings for her would appear again and that my love for Buffy would disappear. I was wrong. In fact, it was the opposite. My feelings for Buffy grows and grows as I spend the time with her. I walked her home and decided to go home and wait for Buffy. She came home, all sad again. She must be really thinking of the person she's in love with. Lucky guy. I hope it works out...even if it hurts...I just want her to be happy...

"Hey! Took you long enough! Wanna patrol"

She smiled a little and nodded. We headed towards the cemetery. She was quiet as we walked. I felt something and I know that it was...Kakistos. I ran towards the feeling and saw him. He was holding a girl in the neck.

Buffy's POV

I felt something and looked at Faith. She was already running so I ran after her. She's fast. We stopped and looked at a very big...vampire holding a girl in the neck. She threw the girl and turned towards us. He's looking at Faith, grinning.

"Well well well. If it isn't the slayers. You still looking for your father girl? Well he's not here"

Faith immediately attack him. I can see that she's really mad. They fought and fought, but I can see Faith was getting tired. I ran and help her. I pulled my stake and staked him in his heart but it wasn't deep enough. He threw me on the other side. I landed hard on a tomb. My head bleeding.

"BUFFY"

That's the last thing I heard as I slowly drift to sleep.

Faith's POV

I saw Buffy fly towards a tomb.

"BUFFY"

I ran towards her and saw that she was bleeding. I checked her heart and was relieve to hear her heart. I felt Kakistos hold me in the neck and throw me. I landed on a tree. I ran towards him as I saw him leaning towards Buffy. I kicked him and he landed on the ground.

"Are you trying to protect that person"

"What if I am"

"Hmph! You can't even protect your mom and you think you could protect that girl"

"SHUT UP"

I looked up at him and saw a stake in his chest and decided to kick it...I did. I guess it hit him hard coz the next thing I know...he's telling me where the person I'm looking for is.

"He's...in LA...kill him..."

Those were the last words he said before he turned to a pile of dust. LA...He's in LA. I walked towards Buffy. She's still unconscious. I picked her up and decided to bring her home.

Buffy's POV

My head hurts a lot. I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. I'm in the living room. I tried to sit up but I was so dizzy that I laid back again.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you..."

I looked at Faith sitting near me. She smiled.

"How are you feeling"

"Like I've been in a roller coaster ten times..."

"I guess that's good enough."

I looked at her again. She had some bruises in her arms.

"Is it dead"

"Let's just say...it's a pile of dust now..."

I smiled at her. I'm glad its dead. But how did he know Faith? She looked sad now. She looked at the floor then at me.

"I'm going to leave tomorrow morning..."

I thought my head hurts but now my heart also hurts. I looked at her frowning.

"What? Why"

"I just have too..."

"What kind of a reason is that"

"I'm sorry..."

She stood up and looked at the ground. NO! She can't leave! I tried to go to her no matter what pain I felt. It can't compare to the pain I feel in my heart. I slowly stood up but fell again. Luckily she caught me. We sat on the ground. I was crying.

"Please...don't leave..."

"I'm sorry. I don't want to leave but I...just have too."

I hugged her close to me. I wanted to say something to make her stay. But I don't know what to say. I don't even know what I'm feeling to this person that's holding me. What is she to me? As I think of this question I cried in her arms until I cried myself to sleep.

Faith's POV

I didn't sleep that evening. I just stared at Buffy sleeping. I'm holding her. We slept in the couch. I looked at the window and saw that its morning now. I slowly stood up and start to pack my things. I wanted to say goodbye to everyone but I know that I shouldn't do that. Knowing them they'll say it to Buffy and they'll try to stop me. I picked my bag and slowly walked towards the front door. I stopped when I heard her voice.

"So...you're really going to leave..."

I closed my eyes and tried not to cry. I felt her hands go to my waist and hugged me from my back. I placed my hands on hers. We stayed like that for awhile.

"I don't want you to go..."

"I have too..."

"I know...its just that...I...want you...beside me always..."

I turned around and faced her. She's crying. I held her face and forced her to look at me. My tears slowly running down my face. It's the second time I cry to a person... I smiled at her.

"You'll...always...have me...I promise I'll come back...so don't...cry."

She continued crying but gave me a nod. I kissed her forehead, grabbed my bag then headed out of her house. I didn't drive my car. I just left it to her...so that I have a second thing to come home too.

Buffy's POV

When she left I dropped to the floor and cried and cried. My heart still hurts. And I know its my fault...