Disclaimer: I don't own anything. The characters belong to GH and the song My All belongs to Mariah Carey.

Summary: Set during the current story line, which means Courtney knows that Sam's baby isn't Jason's. I think there's going to be a happy ending, even if the song doesn't call for one. Enjoy!

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

Courtney rolled over for what seemed like the umpteenth time that night. Why was she even thinking about him? Jason lied to her, something he swore he would never do. Yet, his beautiful blue eyes are still haunting her, reminding her of the love that they shared, a love that she hadn't fully given up on. Not that she would ever admit that to anyone, but in the back of her mind there was something that had yet to let go of Jason Morgan.

There were a thousand reasons why their marriage didn't work out and why they didn't belong together. She was naïve to his career, while he was naïve towards her. They never really belonged together, but that's what drove her even closer towards. It hurt to be with anyone other than him and she wasn't quite sure why. Jax was a great guy, but her heart refused to beat for him like it did for Jason. All the mind-blowing kisses were great, but they didn't compare to Jason's soft passionate caresses.

She pushed the covers off of her in annoyance and began to pace the small area around her bed. Why was she thinking about her ex husband's touch? Why was she doing this to herself? Because you miss him, her mind answered. He's a liar, she tried in vain to convince herself, but it was useless. However wrong it was, Jason was just trying to save his nephew as well as best friend the unbearable pain of having to deal with the situation. She wanted to be mad at him for deciding to shelter them, but could not find it in her to truly be angry. Everyone has done dumb things to protect the people they love, but what got to her the most was that he didn't even bother to protect her. Sure, they hadn't been on the best of terms since the divorce, but never in her mind did she think that he would deliberately hurt her.

After throwing on a pair of jeans and sweatshirt, she set off out of her apartment. Sleep obviously wasn't going to be a friend to her tonight, not with all the questions that were swirling around her head. A brisk walk might help clear her head. The streets of Port Charles were deserted, which made her feel better. Jason and Sonny would kill her if they knew about her three am stroll, but at this point she was beyond caring.

Baby, can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Courtney felt safe under the dark sky that blanketed her town. There were few stars out on the cloudy night, but the ones she did come across were shining bright. Taking a seat on a bench in the middle of the park she let herself gaze upwards. Why was his image constantly on her mind? Why couldn't she just let go? The sky offered no answers to the questions that were embedded on her mind.

For some unknown reason, the memory of her and Jason's first kiss came to mind. It was raining so hard and they were soaking wet. She wasn't even sure how it got to that point, one moment she was ripping him off of Coleman and the next his lips were on hers. It was the most amazing kiss she had ever taken part in. When she pulled away she remembered the way his eyes were still blazing with passion and the way his wet hair fell over his forehead. She was so afraid of the feelings that the kiss evoked, but intrigued at the same time. Every moment of that night was clear in her memory, the way he looked as well as the way she looked. How everything was so chaotic except for the few moments that she was in his arms. Of course, she ran straight to her husband and threw everything she had into her marriage, but it was too late because one taste of Jason had left her craving for so much more.

Letting out a sigh, she lifted her weary body up and began to walk again. She wandered the streets aimlessly until she stopped in front of Harborview Towers. In her exhaustion, she hadn't been paying attention to where her legs were taking her. Courtney thought about turning around, but stopped to allow herself a quick peek into the window of Jason's Penthouse. The light was still on, which led her to believe that he was just as restless as her, but probably for a different reason. He was probably worried about Sam or Carly…not her, because after all, she was only his ex wife. But, deep down she knew that it wasn't true, what she shared with Jason went beyond the bounds of marriage and divorce. It was a deeper connection that kept them together and one that refused to rest. He couldn't have meant to hurt; she was probably just a casualty. Why are you justifying his actions? She asked herself, but the only answer that came to mind was that she loved him and didn't want to believe that he would intentionally hurt her.

I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight

She wasn't quite sure what possessed her to enter the building and take the elevator up to his floor. She felt this overwhelming need to be near him, it was like she was drawn to him. Raising her hand to knock, the full reality of what she was doing set in. It was 3:30 am and she was at her ex husband's door, while her "boyfriend" slept peacefully in his bed. Nevertheless, she let her hand fall and waited a few moments for Jason to answer the door. Courtney watched a wave of concern come across his weary face. He always did assume the worst.

"I'm fine. Nothing's wrong," she assured and saw him ease up slightly. She let herself take in the view; he was dressed in a pair of jeans and no shirt, his muscular chest exposed.

"What are you doing here?" He asked quietly. "If it's about Sam, than I really don't want to hear it."

"It's not about Sam." She confirmed. "It's about us." He looked at her quizzically, but didn't respond. All the blood was rushing to her face as she tried to force the words out, but unfortunately her mouth remained clamped shut.

"What about us?"

"Umm…well you see," she stuttered trying desperately to come up with an explanation, but her mind was frozen. Her unwavering need for him was clouding her head. "You know what, this was a bad idea. I'm sorry…" She tried to cut her losses and leave, but the light haired man's hand stopped her. They stood face to face and for the first time in a long time, Courtney felt understood. There was nothing she could say that wasn't written clearly in her eyes and Jason was reading them like a book.

"I'm sorry," he offered. "I never wanted to lie to you. It was just the only way to save Michael." The blonde woman didn't say anything and he became increasingly uncomfortable with her silence. He wanted for her to understand how sorry he truly was. "It was stupid, I know." She reached up and rested her soft hand on his cheek. "I could never cheat on you." His eyes locked with hers, which were beginning to become glassy with tears.

"I still love you," she confessed. "I tried to find a way to let go, but damn it Morgan, you're like a disease." She kidded, trying hard to ease the tension that settled between the two. She saw a small smile graze his lips and it immediately brought one to her own mouth. "I am sorry that you're not going to be a father."

"That doesn't matter," he whispered.

"Yes, it does. I know you, Jason and I know that you want a family."

"You're my family," her replied with affection. She leaned in and kissed him hard on the lips. His hands slid through her blonde mane.

"Tell me that we can make it work this time," Courtney whispered pulling away from his touch. Her hair was messed and lips swollen from the fervor of his kisses.

"There's nothing I want more." Jason responded before leading Courtney towards the bedroom.I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight

A/N: How's that for a happy ending? I know that it's not necessarily realistic, but it is a soap opera. Ok, well let me know whatcha think.