A feel as if a burden of stress as been taken out of my life! I finished my story, "Wake Up, Darling" and I was so happy because I have been waiting for the longest time in the universe to finish it. And now, it's done and I've started myself on another collection of trouble. I swear I have no idea why I keep writing more and more storied. Jesus.
Well, sorry for the late update. I've been working on the other story I just started called "Roommates." I got so much feedback from the first chapter, I felt and urgency to write another second. I work fast under a lot of pressure. Fast, but not well, and I bet everyone who read that second chapter was utterly disappointed. Haha. That's what they get for pushing me. Haha. Just kidding. I love all my reviewers all the same.
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She was ignoring me.
Deliberately, and quite obviously ignoring me.
Yet, I didn't- or more like couldn't- do anything about it.
It had already spread all over school about my little affair with Ginny Weasley. That was unexpected. Last year, I would have been outraged if I had found out about that little rumor.
But this year, I couldn't.
Because it was all true.
Ginevra was enjoying the extra popularity she was receiving from that news. Girls would compliment or glare at her for getting the impossibly "gorgeous, tall, muscular, sweet, and older" guy.
I guessed I should be happy too. I mean, who wouldn't be, if they had been named as the most popular boy in school?
Yet, my heart tore whenever I caught a glimpse of Hermione, and she did nothing.
Because she was ignoring me.
I had a feeling I knew why. It was jealousy, pain, and denial.
She was denying her inevitable feelings for me as I had done for her as well.
First, I was overjoyed. I mean, me liking a mudblood- especially Granger, was totally beyond belief but it was the truth and nothing but the truth. I wanted her to feel how I had felt for about a month now. But, she took this her own way. She was not trying to get my attention or trying to bad-mouth Ginny.
She was torturing ME when I was supposed to make HER see. And instead, I was in pain, watching her eyes skim past me in class or in hallways.
And it almost made it look like I was jealous because I was doing everything to catch her attention. Making stupid little jokes in class, talking out loud, waving to her on the hallways, and once, even sending her a little one line note that went something like: "I was reading my astronomy book and I came across Uranus." I've sent her slippers that squeaked and made odd exotic sounds at every step. It was supposed to make her laugh.
I have no idea if she did.
I'm terrified. I've become my old self from being around her this year, trying to impress her. I'm now the class clown and I find myself procrastinating; telling myself I'll work on my five foot essay later when it was only due the day after tomorrow.
A typical day would go as this:
At six AM, I would awake to the snoring of Theodore and two other gross and filthy Slytherins. I'd throw a pillow at Theo and we go down to the Great Hall for breakfast.
In middle of my French toast, I'd catch myself staring at Hermione eating, talking, and laughing. I'm in love- but I don't want to face it.
Theodore would nudge me. He catches me doing that everyday but him being an ignorant idiot, he would have no idea what it was. I gobble my bread and I drag him to class. He always wants to ditch but I can't let him, or I do that.
I sit in defense against the dark arts, nonchalantly leaning on my chair and I fall down when Hermione walks in, crisp, fresh, and clean.
I love that.
She doesn't even grin. She sits on her stool behind her podium and reads her important looking papers as more students start filing in.
These days, it seems as if someone is always crying- whether they were dumped or hurt. Hermione would calm the person down and start class.
Then, it's my spotlight to say something witty and cute.
"Wow, man. That's the biggest scar I've ever seen! It's even bigger than two pieces of dust put together!"
or
"I'm sorry that so and so dumped you, even though I see both sides of the point."
And even one time, when Draco was having a particularly bad day,
"I'm sorry that you were dumped, but my boyfriend dumped me this morning too and do you see me crying my ass off?"
Not a word from Hermione
Not even a glare
Detention would have been nice.
But had anything been nice these days? No.
Then, after classes, Ginny would find him hiding and tackle him and smother him with her lovesick kisses and mushy lovey dovey phrases that were so corny, he could have made a ton of popcorn with them. (A/N: I know that line was so corny, but someone told me that today and I laughed like a peacock. Haha. You see, I'm really weird.)
"Oh, my sweet darling… I missed you! I just couldn't stop thinking about you in my classes so I got detention with Snape. But it's okay. At least I'll have something to think about right?"
"Sure, Gin. Sure."
"Ron cornered me today. Told me what a disgrace I was and that those rumors better not be true. I told him they were and to shut his face and shove it up his ass. I think he'll get over it, but at least I won't have anyone telling me where to go with my relationship, right? I'm sort of tired of that. I had to break up with a lot of guys because of Ron, and I've never interfered with him and Hermione-"
"WHAT?"
Draco sat up.
"Tell me that last sentence again?"
"Er… Draco? What's-"
"NOTHING NOTHING. Tell me that sentence again. You've had to…"
"I've had to break up with a lot of guys because of Ron- but… Oh, Draco! You don't have to go beat up Ron because of that. It's okay. It's really okay. Aw… you're so sweet! Wait 'till I tell the girls about this. They'll go crazy for you. I'm so lucky to have you, Draco." She'd sigh and Draco would breath very VERY deeply to calm himself down.
"Sure, Gin. Sure." He'd assure her, and himself.
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Why did he do this to me?
Ever since he stood in front of me with his sad gray eyes and muttered "sorry," and ever since he looked at me while kissing Ginny under MY tree, my heart melted. I've been trying to ignore him, but he's making it harder. He waves his hand in the air every time I ask a freaking question, smiles when he passes me in the hallways, says corny, yet silly and funny jokes in my class, and always has a way of making out with Ginny right when I walk past.
I'm going crazy, blubbering about Malfoy.
I know I feel something, but I don't know, or don't want to tell myself it's really what I feel. He's going out with Ginny. I'm going to have to respect that.
But I don't want to!
I told Ron about Ginny and Draco's relationship and he didn't believe me.
But I guess he heard all the rumors because I came across him cornering Ginny in an deserted hall.
"Ginny, those rumors- tell me they're not true."
"What rumors? I have to get to class, Ron. I don't have time to sit and sip tea with you." Ginny groaned angrily.
Hermione grinned. Popularity gave you humor.
"You know what I'm talking about. Come on, Ginny. You can't hide from me much longer. Those rumors aren't true are they?"
"Rumors about WHAT? There are over a gazillion rumors that pass through the school, Ron. There's one about Snape and McGonagall, Hermione and Harry- I started that, Hermione and you- I started that too, don't tell 'Mione, there's one about Luna and Dumbledore- that's just gross, and I even heard one about Harry and you! And for your information, I know that Harry's not gay-but I don't know about you- so that rumor I know can't be true. I mean, a girl can't even stand being with you, let alone a guy like Harry who has a mob of girl fans kissing wherever he walked." Hermionemade a mental noteto kill Ginny after for spreading that rumor about her.
"Ginny. I'm serious."
"So am I. I have no idea what rumor you're talking about. I don't want to sound bossy and snobby, but I am pretty popular and I get bombarded with LIES and SECRETS and RUMORS all the time."
"Well, what other rumor would I be talking about? The one about you and Draco of course! Tell me you kind of aren't seeing him,"
"No, I'm not 'kind of' seeing him."
Ron sighed and smiled nervously. She had emphasized the "kind of" too much.
"I AM seeing him. I LIKE him. I may even LOVE him. But I'm not letting you ruin this for me, Ron. You ruined my LIFE so I want you to go back, bite your overly air-filled head and stick it up your ass. Good bye Ronald."
Ron's ears turned purple.Like grapes.
"Ginevra Molly Weasley- I am warning you…" He breathed.
"Oh, I'm so scared. What are you going to do? Hug me? That'll just bring up another gross and sickening RUMOR." Ginny swirled around and stalked off as Ron stood behind her, shaking with anger.
Poor Ron.
Hermione felt the urge to go and help him through this, but she couldn't because it would give him ideas.
She and Ron were through. Over. Zilch. Nunca. There was no "Ron and Hermione" or "Hermioron" or "Mrs. Hermione Weasley." They were still friends, sure, but ever since their break-up in their seventh year, their friendship seemed to grow apart. Trying to remain mature about it and call each other best friends again didn't seem to work- with any relationship.
So, Hermione had left Ron alone and was now sitting at her desk, writing up her report for the faculty meeting.
This week, I have made my decision to investigate teacher-student relationships. I wanted to see if the teachers and students were not getting along as well as they should be.
To do my research, I've visited other classes to observe the students there, and written accords of my own experiences. In one class, I saw students being so utterly rude to the teacher, but the teacher making no notion about that. I think that is a problem and I'm sure it is because the professor was scared to do something about it. One way to fix it is to remind yourself that you were stronger and much more powerful than they were.
In another case, the teacher was not giving enough care and attention to their students. I saw many kids in the room confused and stumped, and the teacher did nothing but take off points and chide at them. I am a novice with teaching, but being a student myself, I wanted a professor who cared and helped when it was needed, but also didn't pick on me too much or put all the pressure on me.
I've also seen this year that the students don't acknowledge their teacher on hallways or in free time. Hermione frowned. That was not true.
I've also seen this year that the students ignore their teachers during lectures and goof off a lot.
"Granger, we need to talk."
Hermione jumped off her chair.
It was Draco.
"I'm busy right now. Another time, Mr. Malfoy."
"Granger,"
"It's Professor Granger, mind you."
"Granger, I know what you are feeling and I see it in your eyes. I don't know! But you need to stop ignoring me. I want to talk to you. I want you to listen. I need you to listen."
"Professor Granger, Draco."
"I don't give a shit! I am older than you and I will call you whatever I want!" Draco raged.
"I have a higher rank in this place than you and I can do whatever I want." Hermione shot back.
"Why are you ignoring me? Are you jealous? Is it me and Ginny?"
"Lower your tone, Draco." Hermione said in a strained voice.
"I've been sitting in your classroom and passing you everywhere, trying to show you that I'm a person in this world and trying to get your attention. You know how many stupid things I've done the past weeks? Can't you stop ignoring me and talk? Explain to me?"
"There's nothing to explain!"
"Yes there is!"
"No!"
"I'll give you something to explain. Tell me why you've been ignoring me."
"I- I haven't been…"
"Yes you have and you know it and I know it. You can't hide it forever."
"I,"
"Or tell me this. Is it because of Ginny and me? Are you jealous?"
"NO!"
"Granger- oh… god! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO TO ME?"
Hermione's eyes widened.
Draco's did not.
"My heart tears open when you casually look past me, or when you're laughing and chattering with your friends and I'm stuck here in the lowest of the bottom watching you and with a sinking feeling in my gut. I've been hiding it, Hermione, but I can't anymore.
"This summer changed me. I used to be gross, filthy, cruel, cold, and a dumbass. I'm past that now. And I opened my eyes for the first time. And I saw you.
"That kiss at the train station triggered my first thoughts. Sure, that kick did hurt but that kiss was… Granger. Hermione. Talk to me."
Hermione became overcome with emotions after Draco's heart-clenching monologue.
She couldn't hide it too.
She liked him. She had a thing for him.
A tear rolled down Hermione's burning cheeks and saw promise in Draco's eyes.
Neither of the love bound couple saw the furious and crying Ginny Weasley quivering at the doorway of Hermione's classroom- watching them.
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OOH! OH MAN. THAT'S FREAKING DINKING!
Boring chapter as usual, but I'll just have to wait for that review that says "It was NOT a boring chapter… etc."
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Thank you.
Youngwriter56
