Day 4

Hi Ray.

This is the second time I've tried to email you. I hope I can figure out what to write. I just really want to see you. Robbie and Travis are sad that you're gone to. Hey, you need any foxy ladies over in the States? Just kiddin'.

Ray, I hope you don't love me anymore. You don't deserve someone like me...

No NO NOOO! I don't want to be a pathetic girl that's just lovesick over him! I deleted it then stretched out on my bed. Well, I am. I took out Ray's picture and stared at it. I wish I could've known how I felt about him sooner. I'm such a jerk. I'm such a...fool. I want to see him so bad. It's March 25. Maybe I should just get my mind off Ray. I can still think about him, but I just can't obsess over him. So, I got up, told my mom I'll just be hanging and left with my guitar, notebook and pen.

I guess I should go to the park, I thought. Maybe I'll see someone to talk to. Walking with my head down, I looked at all the bricks and I kicked a rock and sighed. Being in the park isn't as fun as it is with Ray.

"Lily?" a nerdy voice asked me as I walked. I groaned inside, but I stopped myself from saying it outloud. I turned and saw James standing there with his trench coat covering some jeans and a black t-shirt. He didn't look at geeky as before but I guess I didn't really care. He took my mind off of Ray. "Hey Lily! It's you. Remember me? James?"

"Yeah, I do." I said softly.

Noticing my guitar, he exclaimed, "Dude! You play?" I twitched at the word 'Dude' but still continued listening. "I do too." My ears perked up at this.

"Really?" I asked questionaly. "Want to test my guitar out?" James nodded and gently took my guitar away and then sat on a bench. I sat beside him, wondering what song he would play. I closed my eyes to capture the essence of the lyrics. He strummed for a minute and tuned it the way he wanted it then started.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you..." he sang. My eyes opened wide. Iris...I thought glancing over to him. He didn't look as dorky as he did before. He was just into the guitar so much...oh my god. I thought, amazed.

"Cuz I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cuz sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am..."

When the song ended, I was in tears. It was just like my feelings. And it made me think of Ray. James turned to me and was about to say something but then he exclaimed, "Lily? Lily what's wrong?" Everything's wrong, I wanted to say, but nothing came out. I just...I couldn't stop crying. Oh Ray. My hands were on my face, tears wetting the palms of my hands. Ray.

CRASH

Wha--? I turned around, tears still on my face and I saw Travis there, punching James over and over. Robbie was trying to stop him but it was no use. "What did you do to Lily?!" he screamed at James. James' lip was cut, and his nose was bleeding. His face looked like a disaster. Oh my god. James! I thought. I tried to stop Travis.

"Travis! NO! Travis!" And then when Travis did one last punch, I screamed and then jumped in front of James. "NO!"

And everything was black.

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Cliffhanger! It's short, but I didn't want to give a lot away. Heh heh heh heh. And oh yeah, Iris is not something I own. I wish I made the song but I didn't. Goo Goo Dolls made it. I highly reccomend you listen to it.

-Allie