Day 5
Hey Ray,
This is just me thinking...me dreaming...I can't feel my hands. Is that your face in the distance? It's so dark, I can't see. Is it you Ray? Are you there? I want to open my eyes but I can't until I remember what happened...the hard punch...the blood..JAMES!
My eyes opened and I sat up. "Lily!" Robbie screamed. He was sitting there in chair by me. Where was I? I was in a bed...I sniffed the air, the fragrence smelled like James' house. I looked at Robbie, was that a tear in his eye--?!
I never got to finish the thought, Audrey and Travis barged into the room. Travis. My head throbbed as I thought what he did. I wanted to scream at him...but his eyes...they didn't let me. But I could yell one thing. "Where's James?!" Robbie stood up and left, but whispered something to Travis. Audrey left too, but glanced at me...with eyes of sorrow. Travis' gaze at me was gone; he was staring at the ground. "Where's James?!" I repeated.
Travis looked at me. "He's fine Lily...he's just a little hurt." I remembered what he did to him. Anger filled my heart. How could he..?! Travis saw my expression, and then painfully said. "Lily, I'm sorry. You were just crying and I didn't--" He stopped his sentence and put his hand on his head. I knew it was hard for him to say it, but he almost killed James.
"You didn't what?! I'm aloud to cry right? I'm aloud to cry without you punching someone! James' actually takes my mind off of Ray and moving." my voice fell when I got to the Ray part.
Travis tried to protest. "No Lily! Lily I didn't want you to cry. I don't want to you to feel sad! You only think of Ray, and it hurts to see you like that. It hurts me because, Lily...I-I love you!"
Oh. My. God.
I guess I shouldn't be so suprised, I knew he had feelings for me for a while, but I thought he would get over me. Travis is really calm, not like Ray but, I loved his insanity, I love him. I didn't love Travis. Travis was...just Travis. I couldn't fall in love with him. If I said I did, Ray would get the wrong impression and oh... "Travis, I like you too. But..."
It took a few moments, then Travis' eyes turned sad and angry. "If only Ray were still here, you might have given me a chance..you wouldn't have found out you're in love with him." And then he turned and headed out. My head hit the pillow and I sighed.
A soap opera should be based on my life.
"Lily? You awake?" James. I darted up, not saying anything. Just waiting. I heard the doornob turn and James was standing there. He had a black eye and his lip was cut and he was limping. He didn't look really, really death bad but..."Oh you are awake! You okay? Feeling better?"
All I could do was just sit there. I had hurt Travis, I had hurt James...and I had hurt myself. "I'm sorry James." tears started falling. James put his arm around me and I could feel his soft, kind gaze carving into my soul. He whispered something, It's alright, but I couldn't hear over my sobbing. I'm responsible for so many things. I don't even deserve to live.
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Okay a few things:
I did NOT mean for the James/Lily thing to go on. It was a total and complete accident! Second of all, I made Travis the way he was because he doesn't understand anything anymore. Lily, the one he loves suddenly doesn't talk to him anymore, doesn't smile anymore, doesn't even think about him anymore. All Lily cares about is Ray in his eyes. And then when he saw Lily crying, he thought James had hurt her and he hates to see her sad. Third: I know this is totally, totally, TOTALLY short but I'm not having the best day of my life. Don't flame me cuz of it.
Okay, that really made no sense, but it's me you're thinking about here right? And you know what, I want to make Travis like that! BUWAHAHAHAHAHA!
-Allie
Hey Ray,
This is just me thinking...me dreaming...I can't feel my hands. Is that your face in the distance? It's so dark, I can't see. Is it you Ray? Are you there? I want to open my eyes but I can't until I remember what happened...the hard punch...the blood..JAMES!
My eyes opened and I sat up. "Lily!" Robbie screamed. He was sitting there in chair by me. Where was I? I was in a bed...I sniffed the air, the fragrence smelled like James' house. I looked at Robbie, was that a tear in his eye--?!
I never got to finish the thought, Audrey and Travis barged into the room. Travis. My head throbbed as I thought what he did. I wanted to scream at him...but his eyes...they didn't let me. But I could yell one thing. "Where's James?!" Robbie stood up and left, but whispered something to Travis. Audrey left too, but glanced at me...with eyes of sorrow. Travis' gaze at me was gone; he was staring at the ground. "Where's James?!" I repeated.
Travis looked at me. "He's fine Lily...he's just a little hurt." I remembered what he did to him. Anger filled my heart. How could he..?! Travis saw my expression, and then painfully said. "Lily, I'm sorry. You were just crying and I didn't--" He stopped his sentence and put his hand on his head. I knew it was hard for him to say it, but he almost killed James.
"You didn't what?! I'm aloud to cry right? I'm aloud to cry without you punching someone! James' actually takes my mind off of Ray and moving." my voice fell when I got to the Ray part.
Travis tried to protest. "No Lily! Lily I didn't want you to cry. I don't want to you to feel sad! You only think of Ray, and it hurts to see you like that. It hurts me because, Lily...I-I love you!"
Oh. My. God.
I guess I shouldn't be so suprised, I knew he had feelings for me for a while, but I thought he would get over me. Travis is really calm, not like Ray but, I loved his insanity, I love him. I didn't love Travis. Travis was...just Travis. I couldn't fall in love with him. If I said I did, Ray would get the wrong impression and oh... "Travis, I like you too. But..."
It took a few moments, then Travis' eyes turned sad and angry. "If only Ray were still here, you might have given me a chance..you wouldn't have found out you're in love with him." And then he turned and headed out. My head hit the pillow and I sighed.
A soap opera should be based on my life.
"Lily? You awake?" James. I darted up, not saying anything. Just waiting. I heard the doornob turn and James was standing there. He had a black eye and his lip was cut and he was limping. He didn't look really, really death bad but..."Oh you are awake! You okay? Feeling better?"
All I could do was just sit there. I had hurt Travis, I had hurt James...and I had hurt myself. "I'm sorry James." tears started falling. James put his arm around me and I could feel his soft, kind gaze carving into my soul. He whispered something, It's alright, but I couldn't hear over my sobbing. I'm responsible for so many things. I don't even deserve to live.
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Okay a few things:
I did NOT mean for the James/Lily thing to go on. It was a total and complete accident! Second of all, I made Travis the way he was because he doesn't understand anything anymore. Lily, the one he loves suddenly doesn't talk to him anymore, doesn't smile anymore, doesn't even think about him anymore. All Lily cares about is Ray in his eyes. And then when he saw Lily crying, he thought James had hurt her and he hates to see her sad. Third: I know this is totally, totally, TOTALLY short but I'm not having the best day of my life. Don't flame me cuz of it.
Okay, that really made no sense, but it's me you're thinking about here right? And you know what, I want to make Travis like that! BUWAHAHAHAHAHA!
-Allie