Chapter 7: Harsh Reality

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or anything for that matter.

Authors Note: Sorry it took so long. I have no real excuse. But I do want to say, I am sorry I don't have the Kikyou/Inuyasha lemon. If you want it, leave a comment and I will have a flash back in chapter 9. (I already have chapter 8 done, I will put it up in a bit) Please review, I need the feed back to know how to fix my writing.

Enjoy.

Night had set before Inuyasha could actually move without to much pain. Kagome only visited him for brief times, he had a feeling it was because the whole muttering about Kikyou in his sleep thing. So, he set out to find her, and he knew exactly where she would be. On the hill top looking up at the stars, thinking about something.

"A shooting star!" Kagome whispered to herself. She clasped her hands together and closed her eyes to make her wish.

"You're still doing that?" She kind of cringed; Inuyasha guessed she really didn't want the confrontation between them to happen yet. He sat down next to her, but not to close (enough to be out of range of the quick slippage AN: I know it isn't a real word people) She still put on her best face, "Hi, you scared me." She was putting on a good act. "Feeling any better?"

"Yeah…" There was a long pause between them. A breeze swept through making the moon-lit grass look like shimmering water below them. He broke the silence first, "Kagome I-" She shook her head cutting him off. "It's okay." She looked down and they continued to sit there in silence until she broke it this time. "So your dream was about what your life was like before this one?" He snapped his head in her direction looking shocked that she would know. "How was it?"

"It was okay." He sighed, "Though I had the jewel shards on my mind. I sat at the well waiting like an asshole. You never came." He glared at her. "I slept in the snow." This time she was a bit shocked and really tried hard not to giggle. "Don't get me wrong! Jewel shards woman, jewel shards."

"So what you're saying in a sense, Inuyasha, is that you were waiting like a little puppy for his owner to return?" He stood up, crossed his arms, and closed his eyes in a dignified way. "Feh, you wish." He turned and started to walk away. He heard her foot steps catching up to him, what he wasn't expecting was the hug he got. She wrapped her arms around his stomach and rested her head on his back. She whispered knowing he would hear. "Whatever you decide, I will accept it." She reached over him on her tippy toes to whisper this in his ear, "Now I need you to wake up…" Those words echoed in the darkness.

Inuyasha woke up with a gasp as though he broke the surface of the water after being under for some time. "Wow sleeping beauty is awake." He looked around franticly, looking for something, anything. His brain wasn't comprehending any of this, where the fuck was he now? He looked up to see Kikyou standing over him. The room was dark and he felt that he had that doggy collar back on. The room was dark, though he saw a dim gray light coming from the window, vainly trying to add some light into the room. He no longer could keep his body from showing how he was feeling. He was shaking, not in fear but from being tired, weak, and in extreme pain. What had she done to him?

That's when a rush of awareness flooded through his body, where was Kagome, he had to help her but how. No she couldn't be gone. No this isn't happening, not to him it isn't. He lost his mother, Kikyou, and now Kagome. After some time trying to figure a way out, he realized no matter what he did, he couldn't do a thing. Inuyasha let out the most frustrated yell a man could ever hear in his life. He was breathing heavily, he was exhausted. Tired of thinking, tired of trying to put things into prospective, tired of trying to keep his own promises he made to himself. Tired of all this shit. He was in the very predicament he feared most, being powerless and having to watch everything happen before him without being able to intervene.

Kikyou saw Inuyasha slump, he had given in. She actually started to feel sorry for him. She couldn't watch this happen anymore, so she left the room slowly and gracefully, leaving him alone. She had forgotten to close the door, not like Inuyasha had any strength to leave even if he could. He looked out and up to the sky, those gray clouds still hung overhead. But it began to grow dark. He moved his gaze down, without even thinking. He sat there sitting into space for a while before he realized he was staring at the unconscious/dead Kagome. His body started to shack again. There she lay at the foot of the door. He had forgotten for some fleeting moments… could she really be gone? His voice cracked when he said her name aloud, hoping he might get an answer.

It started to rain slowly but then the sky just opened up and it begin to pour outside like there was no tomorrow.

He slowly crawled over to her; she looked as though she were just sleeping. He felt the chain start to pull on him, so he laid on his stomach and extended his arm and fingers as long as they could go. He was only able to touch her fingers. He just stared at her for awhile until he turned his head. He did notice she was breathing so very slightly, he knew he would be too late to save her even if his mind where playing tricks on him.

He started to fall asleep like that. And as he did two tears ran down his face.