DISCALIMER:((see ch1))

dispte the title this is NOT the end
Chapter 11: Seventh Year: The End

Lily made her way down the stairs to the common room as always, and plopping down on the couch next to the figure of a sleeping Remus.

"What're you doing down here?" he asked groggily, not opening his eyes.

"'Dunno," she said leaning on his side. "So... graduation."she said softly holding one of his hands.

"You shouldn't be here." he sat up.

"Why not?" she asked scooting away from him.

"Well, I really don't think James would like you getting to cozy to me."

"Well, I think that I don't care too much." she said defiantly and scooting closer to him

"Lily. Please, stop it." he flopped off the couch onto the floor.

"No, Remus." she said sitting next to him. "I haven't kissed you in so long..." she looked him in the eyes pleadingly "please, I miss your lips. James is a bad kisser."

"No lily." she turned away from him and put her head in her hands.

"Remus, I don't like this. I know I like James, otherwise I'd never had accepted the ring, but I don't want to marry him when I could have you." She looked up at him again. "I miss you so much, even when you're sitting right next to me, because you haven't looked at me in nearly a year, and I haven't kissed you for months, all I ever wanted was you. Why don't you tell me you love me anymore? Do you even?"

"I love you lily. You know that." he stated defensively

"It doesn't feel like it anymore." she said turning away, tears building silently in her eyes. After a moment she stood up, looking into the fire sadly, letting few fall from the many that had gathered in her eyes. Remus stood up stiffly, arguing with his own mind, he grabbed her hand making her look up at him. She was slightly illuminated by the fire and every shadow on her face made her lips stand out against her skin. He couldn't move his eyes from her lips. He longed to kiss her, and the argument of friends was beginning to blur in his mind over the sweet aroma her skin gave off, and the glow of the fire in her hair. He gave in, his consciousness gone. He leaned in so slowly. His eyes shut and he could feel her warmth centimeters away, but her eyes were not closed.

She held her thoughts, but her mind still wandered. All she wanted to do was kiss him, no matter what she felt, she knew she could fall back on James, but what if she could never let go of Remus? As Remus' had, her conscious blurred with the feeling off his soft breathing on her lips. This was what she wanted, just one kiss. Please, she begged herself, Please don't make this harder than it has to be. But her heart argued stronger than it had to, but you love him. She felt the touch of his lips, so simple, so pure, perfection in all its ways.

That kiss grew. For moments it held itself at simple, and for hours it kept itself at wholesome, but soon it was merly a dream to them. The one kiss became many broken in between words.

"Remus." lily gasped quietly breaking out of this kiss, and kissing him again.

"Mmm?" he asked through sealed lips.

"I love you-" she said fast, leaving his lips again and going back passionately.

"I love you too-" He said doing the same.

"I don't- want to be- with James" she said between gasps and quick kisses.

"You have to-" he said wrapping his arms around her.

"No- I mean- I- I-" she stopped kissing him and stepped away. She looked lost now. "Never mind."she kissed him again, holding him tighter. Subconsciously there was a belief in her mind that if she held him tight enough maybe she would never have to let him go.

Still more the kiss grew in passion, and what was left of the subtlety vanished. Lily wished nothing more than to be with Remus, to never have to see James again but she knew that was what was right.

"Please let me run away with you," she said leaving his lips once again.

"Lily." he stated warning-like "No. No- we shouldn't even be doing this."

"If you mean we shouldn't be allowing James to marry someone who loves he best friend, or that we shouldn't be seeing each other secretly?"

Remus sighed deeply and stepped far back from her. "Lily, I think we should definitely end this-"

"No!" she shouted walking quickly toward him and embracing him in a hug "don't Remus please don't do this" she sobbed into his shoulder. He did not hug her back, his breath became slow and painful.

"Lily-"

"Please no.. please!" she begged still sobbing into him. "Please..."

"Lily... we're over." She fell to the floor on her knees face in her hands sobbing. "Remus, please ... I love you..."his face fell from it's solid emotionless stance, that pull some heart strings extremely painfully. He sat in front of her watching her tears fall across her shaking body, still whispering "please Remus, please."

She stopped her sobbing and the tears rolled on silently down her rosy cheeks. "How can you let James do this? Is this worth him? Ruining everything is worth a friend now?" she asked nearly spitting on him.

"James knows too." he said quietly. Her tears stopped her mouth fell open.

"About us?" Remus shook his head, she took a deep relieving breath.

"He knows what I am." Lily looked intent upon his eyes, he stared at his hands witch he writhed upon his knees "He did the unthinkable for me, and for that I owe him my life" lily, clueless and silent, wrapped he arms around her knees letting him continue "James and Sirius and even peter figured it out, They felt so bad, they wanted to help... Anyway they could. When I told them they couldn't I should had known they'd never give up... They- well- they became animagi for me... highly dangerous and illegal, and yet they still did it because they wanted to be kind. When they're around, there's never any constant hurt in my transformations... and they risked Azkaban to do it! They're there while I'm dangerous, if I had ever bitten them..."he shuddered at the thought "I owe them my life, lily... "

After a long moment sat in shock and still silence lily spoke in a quiet and amazed voice. "You do owe them a lot, I guess." the crying had not left her voice and the sound of her pain ripped open Remus' heart. Lily stood up, looking off into the distance beyond the walls in the room. "You owe them your life Remus, but you do not owe him me... so this is the end of this then?" he stood up in front of her.

"Yes. I'm sorry."

"No, Remus I understand," she looked up at him, never had she seen such a boy so torn. "I'm going to get some sleep... see you." she hugged him friendly-like, and walked away up the stairs in silence.

Graduation was tomorrow, she would hold her head up high, she would kiss James when everyone threw the hats into the air, and they would ride home together on the train... This was the way it would be and there would be no Remus in her future. Her future was with James. At least she knew that Remus would be okay ...

AN; srry bout the delay ! I had a tad bit of Writers block!